[boogiesmash]

So feeling bit sown still and not feeling food enough. If I was good nought I could be having good time. Instead in bed barely wake. Tomorrow need to drop off samples. One for a general blood work and the other lithium levels. I want to stay lithium see,s like it's working well no side effect. However I'm still depressed. Been trying to eat it in the butt and seeing my t every week. She has told me to start doing and block out other thought next was have so even help me. Or hire. I may get my co worker who says she loves to organic and I did t have to pay her. Bull giver her at least 50 and maybe home cooked meal. Then need to reorganize it to optimal viewing. I gonna eat some media after blood work Saipan biscuit Susie biscuit and hash row. Then gym.

[boogiesmash]

I want a girlfriend

[Guiness187055]

Huh??????? It seems that you are struggling sorry to hear that.

[boogiesmash]

I deserve one. I can clean job floors , cook good meals, treat them rifnt and never let the,m hurt. I'd liste. To everything through our day and try to cheer her up. Miss being in a relationship and how late I am at this point of dating

[*Laurie*]

Hey boogie, you don't sound so good. It's hard for me to make sense of some of your post.

[boogiesmash]

I do t want to. E by myself doe hallowween. I'd love to have a date for witches ball. And not be alone. NEw years

[boogiesmash]

I really don't want to be alone

[boogiesmash]

I don't want to be alone New Years. So,e one help me p,ease

[boogiesmash]

I defiently can't be alone. Ew years. It my bday and I habcve no one to be with. I cry and drink and it gets worse when all the couples do it I brakdowm a weird worm wa r or live. I trit dmtp take my life buy mixing scotch with ambien and napoxen. I don't ewmt and this again

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm sorry you're not doing well, friend. It sounds like you need to get some sleep. You're not making a lot of sense.

You won't be alone forever. You never know who might be there waiting for a great guy like you.

You have to try your hardest to start thinking better about yourself. If you like yourself, other people will like you too. I know it's hard, almost impossible when you feel so down. But honestly, you are nothing at all what your mind tells you you are. Try to face the negative thoughts and turn them around. Maybe just start telling yourself every morning one positive thing you like about yourself, or you think others like about you. Or even something that's just "not so bad". You're passionate, I can tell that. That's one thing. You're a hard worker, that's another. You're caring. And I don't even know you that well.

You have the power. I know you do.

I hope we both get some sleep soon.

[wildflowerchild25]

Did you mix the drugs tonight or are you saying that's what you e done in the past? Please call 911 if you just did this.

[raspberrytorte]

Are you drunk?

[wildflowerchild25]

Hugs to you boogie. Talk to you later. Get some sleep.

[boogiesmash]

No on ambien

[raspberrytorte]

Well, damn! Maybe you should go to bed.

Hugs to you.

You'll get a girlfriend. There's someone out there for you.

[boogiesmash]

Rasmsommich I should of accomplished and have f. Now my day New Years I'm gonna. BE myself as it huts. It hurts. I tried to off ,self a few years ado cause I hit bottom then. I can't take another crappy New Years.

[boogiesmash]

I'm just hurting so much.

[raspberrytorte]

Seriously, go to bed, boogie. Maybe you'll feel better in the morning when you're thinking more clearly.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I hope you got some sleep and are feeling better this morning. Please post and let us know how you're doing.

[boogiesmash]

Still feeling worthless.

Originally Posted by boogiesmash

I defiently can't be alone. Ew years. It my bday and I habcve no one to be with. I cry and drink and it gets worse when all the couples do it I brakdowm a weird worm wa r or live. I trit dmtp take my life buy mixing scotch with ambien and napoxen. I don't ewmt and this again

Boogie, I hope this message finds you doing well. Your posts are not coherent and it sounds like perhaps you've mixed some meds in an attempt on your life? I'm not sure I'm reading that part right but I'm very concerned. You deserve someone to love who loves you back but you need some help fast I think. I see this post was made yesterday so I really hope you come back today to let us all know you are alright.