[MatBell]

I have pushed a lot of family away, now I'm pretty alone. Mostly I think I'm right in reacting the way I have done given my history with them. I know I've sometimes been aggressive when I'm depressed. That only makes people turn against you, which makes you even more despondent and depressed. It's a vicious, downward spiral...

I'm an adult and I'm still stuck in this familial quicksand (that's how it feels), not able to start my own life, my own family and develop a network of close and loyal friends. I doubt it will happen. I've been living this strange lifestyle for too long now...

[Angelique67]

Ime the relatives are abusive assholes who make everything worse. I still don't know why I keep telling them anything.

[ChibeeElf]

Most defiantly know how you feel, and we're all here for you on here

[1978dd]

Originally Posted by MatBell

I have pushed a lot of family away, now I'm pretty alone. Mostly I think I'm right in reacting the way I have done given my history with them. I know I've sometimes been aggressive when I'm depressed. That only makes people turn against you, which makes you even more despondent and depressed. It's a vicious, downward spiral...

I'm an adult and I'm still stuck in this familial quicksand (that's how it feels), not able to start my own life, my own family and develop a network of close and loyal friends. I doubt it will happen. I've been living this strange lifestyle for too long now...

I can relate to your situation. Due to my mh disorders, I pushed all of my family and most of my friends away. I feel lonely and wish I could be "normal"...sometimes, but I feel safe in my own Protective bubble.