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I'm not ok. It's just too much.
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What's going on?
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What's going on?
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#4
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Please talk, or go get help.
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I'm trying so hard to get better and be better and I feel useless, unwanted, a burden and a failure. I got a card in the mail today from one of my friends and it was about how I could be running my illness so much better. I feel defeated and like a total loser. I just don't and can't fight this anymore. There are other things going on but that just did it. I'm tired of having SI as my constant companion. I'm just over this.
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I am sorry jennifer.
You are a smart and wonderful woman. Please don't forget you are worthy of this struggle. ((((((HUGS)))))) bizi
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That friend, though trying to be helpful, obviously doesn't understand the illness. Don't give it any weight.
Sometimes I feel like you do and I just sort of dig in with the intention that nothing is going to move me in any direction. I may not be doing anything to help myself get better, but I'm riding out the storm as best I can by myself with the tiny shred of hope that eventually things will ease. If you haven't tried the "isolate and endure" approach, imagine yourself seated with a quiet bald man doing his best to shelter you from all the pressure you feel. ((Jennifer))
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I want to add, you are not a loser.
BPHope recently ran an article which focused on the fact that we live with this, making all of us heroes. I concur. You are a hero because you endure. FOUND IT: http://www.bphope.com/blog/you-are-a-hero/
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My oldest daughter has SI thoughts really often. I've learned to be by her side. She can't help it just like you can't. All of us would love to be able to control our minds. We don't know why our brains are wired the way they are. But we can keep trying to hold on one day at a time. Hang in there trouble don't last always.
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#SpoonieStrong Spoons are a visual representation used as a unit of measure to quantify how much energy individuals with disabilities and chronic illnesses have throughout a given day. 1). Depression 2). PTSD 3). Anxiety 4). Hashimoto 5). Fibromyalgia 6). Asthma 7). Atopic dermatitis 8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria 9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1) 10). Gluten sensitivity 11). EpiPen carrier 12). Food allergies, medication allergies and food intolerances. . 13). Alopecia Areata |
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Trigger warning----
I was just recently very suicidal. I would have done it but didn't for my son. Please, you have a daughter. Hang on for her. Big hugs! ![]() |
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Sending big hugs! We are all here for you!!
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You are worth it. Keep up the fight against Bipolar , They only thing that is consitant about this bytch is it is going to " cycle" it always does.
Hugs !
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Hang in there Jennifer. You are not a loser. You have one of the biggest hearts on these boards. Always there to listen or just saying some kind words. You have been a lot of help to a lot of people.
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I'm so sorry Jennifer.....that letter sounds painful.....it's painful and isolating to be so misunderstood (((hugs)))
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![]() ![]() Be safe! I always look forward to reading your caring words! |
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It sounds like your friend might misunderstand mental illness, as so many people do. Take care of yourself in the ways you know work healthiest and best. You are SO worth it.
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I'm so sorry you've encountered this conflict with your friend.
As Laurie has pointed out, so many people do not understand. From my viewpoint, you have handled profound depression very well. You don't need any comments suggesting otherwise. Lots of great responses above. You are clearly appreciated here. ![]() You have my utmost respect for how well you handle severe depression. ![]() WC
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Thank you for your support. I really appreciate you. I've lost my confidence for the time being of having anything valuable to contribute so I'm going to stick to hugs for awhile.
If you are having a hard time, post #8 of this thread has a link to an article "you are a hero" that is really helpful; especially the last sentence. Sending big hugs. ![]() |
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Sending big hugs your way
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Hi Jennifer-Whatever is going on I hope you get through it quickly.
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() More hugs coming your way. May you feel surrounded by Love. ![]() ![]() WC
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Jennifer-you did me the world of good with your kind words & good advice.Please don't give up.You remind me of a fighter.We all have to press on & be somewhat of a fighter with our problems.
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