[lost_lover]

I have had a bunch of extra situational stress in my life and I thought I had finally gotten out of the depression if put me into. Usually I am pretty stable and go long periods between episodes but there I am looking at the mess my apartment became while I was depressed, knowing I am moving next week, and wondering if I would be best off to just pull an all-nighter and just clean and pack until I have to go to work tomorrow.

I have been staring at the stuff for hours just to overwhelmed to know where to start. Normally me wanting to stay up all night just for a day or two wouldn't worry me so much but I have been selling or throwing away almost everything I own and today while I was alone at work the voices came back for a little while.

There is just so much going on right now in my life I don't have time to not be stable. My **** needs to get in order now so that I have a chance of actually achieving the piles of responsibilities I have put on myself. I know there probably isn't much on here I could say I am doing that at least a few people haven't dons the same thing but I am just embarrassed with the way I am running my life right now. I am out of local friends to talk to about this.

Everything is just a mess and I need to get a hold of things. I am taking my psych meds like I am supposed to, I have been trying to keep on a normal sleep schedule but failing miserably. Part of me thinks if I just put enough work into my apartment tonight and make a big dent in the packing tomorrow I will feel better but the other part of me is pretty sure that is the crazy talking.

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm sorry you're struggling right now. I know the feeling of "not having time" for an episode. I'm about to start a new job and I'm finding myself getting depressed, and you're right, I don't have time for this ****. Maybe contact your pdoc and get a med adjustment?

[Shazerac]

moving is a HUGE stress factor, even for people who have no mental issues. Don't beat yourself up for feeling overwhelmed.

I told my husband recently that I'm not moving for the rest of my life. He is used to my grandiose statements by now. He just laughed and said "ok if we move I'll send a text with our new address."

[Wild Coyote]

It's a lot to consider going through all it takes to change residences.

I hope you stabilize enough to meet your needs.


WC

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I do the same thing. I'll get overwhelmed with the amount of stuff I have to do and tell myself that I'll just stay up all night and knock it out. You're not alone. In my experience it's worked 1-2 times but more commonly the outcome is me being worse for wear. Good luck getting your responsibilities done and I hope you stay stable.