[boogiesmash]

So my past few posts have been about this girl that killed my dream and led me to a dark path. It started a chain reaction of incidents that put me where I am today.

So I’ve been told and know I can’t hold this resentment. It is like poison that I drink trying to affect her. So what is this letting go and forgive. The past few days at work I didn’t care what she was doing as long as it didn’t affect me. I felt like this has helped somewhat. However I still have bought of a verbal revenge and scolding her for the pain she helped cause. Sad part I feel she has no shame or would care. This is someone who I considered a close friend.

So what is this letting go? Is it open for interpretation? How do I let go? Am I doing it. This is going to be a topic I intend to bring up in iop. Crap reminds me I need to write a letter of what I would tell her to iop.

[wildflowerchild25]

I think writing a letter is a good start. I've always used writing to help me let go of things. I wrote many letters to my husband after he died, many out of anger for what he had done. On the two year anniversary this past may, I finally decided to forgive him for leaving me. I did that by accepting the situation for what it was, and understanding his decision.

Obviously your situation is different, as your person acted cruelly with no understandable reason. You may never understand why she did it, but that doesn't mean you have to suffer with it for the rest of your life. Maybe just saying well, she's an a**hole, some people are just horrible people and that has nothing to do with you.

[boogiesmash]

Still have some thoughts about her and confronting her but easily dismissed.