[boogiesmash]

I don’t want to be what I was before depression. I want to be better. I want to be stronger. I want to do runs on mountains, loft plates and plates of 45s, kick the shi t out of my partners pads at training. I want to jump run and feel right. I want to be reborn into a new person. I just need to start.

[Travelinglady]

Sounds like a plan. I hope you can!

[marthac_mtl]

I lost my beast with this last bout of rapid cycling. Just got put on lithium and started deadlifting again this morning. There is hope for the beast! (and maybe losing the ton of weight I put on)

[Slightlydelusional]

Boogie once u start going your bodies memory will kick in n your progress will be immense. Im all busted up with injury and cant lift, run, play basketball like Im used to, but just by walking and biking I start to get buff and lean again, just imagine what u could do once u get your routines down for a few weeks.

[WildcatVet]

Bless you on your journey!

[Shazerac]

Glad you getting some determination.

[boogiesmash]

Originally Posted by Slightlydelusional

Boogie once u start going your bodies memory will kick in n your progress will be immense. Im all busted up with injury and cant lift, run, play basketball like Im used to, but just by walking and biking I start to get buff and lean again, just imagine what u could do once u get your routines down for a few weeks.

This is true. But lower back does not approve lol. Gotta work on core muscles definitely

[fishin fool]

You got this boogie, as long as you don't start to big you will keep going.

[~Christina]

Go for it ! Just make an attainable goal

[Slightlydelusional]

Originally Posted by boogiesmash

This is true. But lower back does not approve lol. Gotta work on core muscles definitely

Ugh, lower back always sucks so bad. Even when I was in shape and younger had that problem and its hell, good luck shaking it!

[Tryingtobehappy5]

I was just reading through threads I missed with IP and trying to get back into normal life and I came across your still depressed thread. Its awesome to see the positive attitude you are working on and its inspiring to me too. I think I will do some cbt work tonight(it's been months since I bothered with it) our thought patterns definitely take work to change. Thanks again!

[boogiesmash]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

I was just reading through threads I missed with IP and trying to get back into normal life and I came across your still depressed thread. Its awesome to see the positive attitude you are working on and its inspiring to me too. I think I will do some cbt work tonight(it's been months since I bothered with it) our thought patterns definitely take work to change. Thanks again!

I’m glad I inspired. Our thoughts are hard to change and I feel I’m still depressed. Definitely lonely which adds to it. I have made improvements as I’m trying to build routine, structure and schedule with my life. Before I’ll I didn’t do laundry for over two months. Now I’m making sure I don’t go more than a week or so.

I use to be active but I’m striving for more. I’m really into mush Thai and want to go to Thailand and practice there for a week. I also want to have a great body. I’m willing to do the work. Maybe willing isn’t the right word as I do lack motivation. Push. Pushing is what gets me going on my latest eat improvement. Pushing myself to do dishes. Pushing myself to clean. Pushing myself to go to hop. And it’s hard but I want to get better. I want to be a beast. Maybe I have to expand this “push” to this aspect of my life and get the life I want.

[Slightlydelusional]

Yo Boogie, great job building the routine, structure and schedule, exactly what I did and paying off greatly.

I lived in Asia for three years with three months in Thailand, so awesome. That is a great long-term goal for u to have. Just think a year or two you could in Thailand and Im sure u wont have lonely problems than.

If I was so busted up Id love to train for some sort of fighting, but for now my long term is to get back on the golf course in two years or so, but no hurry until I can get my body and mind pointed in right direction, and when serious practicing n playing is possible. Once Im straight on those Ill be ready for a relationship and until than wont let the loneliness be such an anchor, as yes it sucks so bad, but sometimes just taking care of myself is better to focus on others.