Are your meds even working?

Right now? Lately? The last few months? Nope. I know that in posts I’ve said hallelujah I’m stable! But no. I thought I was fine. But I’m thinking back a few months. I ran my mouth to people and I’m usually in the audience. This is not me. And these past few days, I just cry. Sometimes for no reason at all. Well drama happened at my dads tonight during a family dinner. I don’t want to go into details but the last family gathering put me in the ER for a massive panic attack.

So I wonder... is this “stabilizing cocktail” even working. I clearly was hypo for awhile. And now I’ve crashed and feel so much shame. I had no impulse control whatsoever. I feel like a monster. And I’m done talking to my pdoc about this. She’s done nothing but ignore me when I tell her that I feel depressed sometimes. I’m going to just shut my mouth and stay in my rabbit hole. I’ve been on every combo. Medication has failed me. Period.

Are my meds f***ing with me? Yes. Are they working? No. I tell them this isnt me and they say it is my personality. But then again maybe they are right and I actually am a monster and those panic attacks? Maybe I am just attention seeking, maybe the pdocs know more about what a horrible person I am than I do.

Im worried that these meds never do really work for people. I'm sorry you have given up hope

Don’t give up

I just switched it up and am hopeful

I thought my gabapentin had quit working, but it is working again after reducing the AP back down to normal after my last hypomanic episode

I know for sure Olanzapine works on me to shoot me out of the sky when manic. Yes, it is dramatic and fast!!

I am hoping the lithium will work - I’m still building up the dose

Meds are not a miracle cure. I've had those hallelujah moments where I'm stable. Then an hour later I'm hiding bed with a pillow over my head fighting the urge to start throwing dishes and howl at the moon. It really is frustrating

Mine are today

Yes my meds work. The side effects can be brutal but I have been pretty stable. Except for the last few days, I've had to take some PRN's and they helped.

No, the meds I'm on are NOT working but I'm stuck...for the next month at least...with a PCP who won't change them...

I feel like in general my meds are working. I’m much better on them than I am off of them. Is it perfect? Absolutely not. Do I still have episodes? Yes. Do I hate the side effects? 100%. But I can at least function in my day to day life while on my meds.

I would say that for about 8 years my medications have at least worked fairly well most of the time. I say that because I haven't been in the hospital for all of that time after having had 10 hospitalizations in 4 years prior to that.

I do get episodes still, but not often at all, and they are usually pretty short because some tweaking with my meds by my regular psychiatrist seems to do the trick. I think the longest depressions I've had during the last 8 years were about 6 weeks. The longest full blown manias only 5 days, but I did have a lot of lower grade mania (hypomania) for maybe months. The full blown manias were extinguished by seeing my pdoc twice per week during those times. Hypomanias were not severe enough for major concern.

I have accepted that I will have off and on mood lability possibly for the rest of my life. I am hoping for some long-term stability throughout my life, too. I am going to do everything in my power to avoid full blown severe episodes with or without psychosis. That means taking my medications. I am about 99.9% sure that not taking medications would eventually lead to hospitalizations. So of course I take my medications.

At one point I was on 8 psych medications when things were really bad, but over the years they've been reduced to 5, and will be only 4 hopefully in 1.5 weeks. I definitely want to reach the goal of doing well on the fewest medications possible, but not no medications.

Well my meds just got upped in dosage last week so I'll have to wait a little longer to see how they're going to work, but my anxiety meds SUCK! My anxiety has been running rampant these past few weeks and I've had quite a few panic attacks.. my heart just starts pounding then I feel like I can breathe. I don't think my doctor will put me on anything else though. So I don't know what I'm going to do about that.

Just flipped off of Latuda to Geodon.. far to long to see if its going to help or not.

I also just started a new med for my Psoriac Arthritis so that on top of fibro. Im a pretty pissed off human atm.

My meds are working right now. Longest time I’ve been stable...no depression, anxiety or SI. It makes a nice change.

I think they're working for mood and psychosis. I've experienced a lot of improvement in symptoms.

Geodon was a great med for hypo/mania