[dshantel]

I'm sorry if it's incorrect to post this here. I tried to find another forum that maybe fit better but I could find anything. I feel so lost. I have no idea who I am. In trying to find myself I keep picking wrong. Little things that I think may be a part of who I am are found to be abnormal. Idk I guess something is wrong with me. I talk a lot about my husband and my needs but I'm starting to realize that maybe it's just me. I'm not the victim. Something is wrong with me. I don't know if it's related to bipolar or not. This neediness part of me and not knowing who I am has always been a problem I have since I was younger. It ruins my relationships. I think maybe because I initially become similar to that person but after awhile my brain decides that it's not right anymore to pretend. Or maybe something happens that pushes me outside of the situation again. Idk. All of how I'm feeling and have been feeling I have felt in the past. I feel so depressed and stressed. I feel like all of my emotions are misplaced. I don't know what's real anymore. I can't tell if my brain is lying to me. Are my emotions over exaggerated? I have no idea anymore. I feel like I can't even trust my own mind anymore.

[Lazuli]

Hello-

I can see your struggles, and my heart goes out to you. I want you to know that you aren't alone in your feelings or thoughts.

While I can't really fix anything for you, I want you to know this - your feelings are VALID. Please, please do not invalidate yourself, your experiences, or your emotions. Your problems are very real, your thoughts are real, and you are real. I know things feel weird but if you can maybe do some grounding techniques, you might feel like your back down on the planet with us.

I feel like maybe you helped yourself by writing this? If I'm right with that thought, then please, keep writing! If I'm off and writing isn't really therapeutic for you, I think you did a good job of stating what's going on in your head.

Sending well wishes your way xx