[-Astral-]

Am feeling so low suicidal want to swallow pills but my husband has locked them away poor me i cant hurt myself my husband loves me and he makes sure am safe all the time he worries about me most of the time but am more like poor me my life is **** well its not i am married to a man who loves me not matter what i have friend who accept me for who i am am trans gender and they dont see that as a bad thing but for some reason more than anything with all the friends i have i want me mother to love me i dont think she does and that why i feel worthless because i think if she loves me she would accept me being trans the fact i want to be a man should have baring on weather she loves me or not i dont even know if this is the right place am posting here i just need this out I WANT HER TO LOVE ME MAYBE IF SHE DID SHE UNDERSTAND ME A LITTLE
but she full of hate i think she dont love me because she full of hate for everyone
i wish she would say it MY HEART HURTS SO MUCH am grieving for something ill never see i am hurt want attention she calls me an attention seeker guess what i am am ****ed up look for people to love me when they do but its not enough for me i want HER TO LOVE ME WHY DONT SHE SAY IT
Feel like if i tried to kill myself would she love me
I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE AM SCARED
i ask for help from friends and professionals i cant help myself when it only me who can help me i dont even know where to start i hate myself i cant stop hating myself how don i stop it how do you love yourself when you feel worthless ?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm sorry your mom doesn't show she loves you or understand you. Don't hurt yourself over it. I know it must be very painful. Have you found a T that works with trans people? Maybe that will help more then a therapist that do not? Maybe one day you can bring your mom to the therapist to help her understand. I'm glad your husband is taking care of you when you can't.

[CaminoDeOro]

Yeah, are there options for therapists who understand transgender issues on some level?

A family member of mine has a mom who is not capable of expressing love at all, it is really really hard on her and she's still trying to accept that it's not going to happen, and it's been a LONG time.

I hope things get easier.

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( Astral ))))))

May you feel surrounded by Love.


WC

[~Christina]

It’s heartbreaking when the people that should accept and love ya most isn’t capable for whatever reason.

I hope you find peace and stay safe

[Sunflower123]

I know how it feels when a parent can’t or won’t love you. It does leave a sense of worthlessness and incredible pain. Your mother may love you dearly but not be able to express it. You have people that love you dearly now. Hold on to that. I hope you come to a place of peace and healing. Thinking of you.