[franz kafka]

Anyone here ever miss being in the hospital? Right now I feel unsafe (not as in being a danger to myself, but unsafe in life in general) and I miss feeling safe in the hospital. I miss having nothing better to do than putter around and color in my coloring book. Of course the times I was hospitalized were terrible and I hated feeling trapped there, but for some reason now I'm focusing on the positive notes. Am I making any sense to anyone?

[wildflowerchild25]

Absolutely, it’s why I’ve been in the hospital 21 times in my life. I’d say at least half were unnecessary in that I could have been safe if I wanted to be but I didn’t want to be. My life was out of control and in the hospital I felt safe and controlled. Since my husband died I can’t just go to the hospital for every little thing anymore so I’ve put more effort into outpatient treatment instead. I did just get out if I patient but that was necessary because I was going to hurt myself severely had I been allowed to go home.

[99fairies]

Iv'e missed the safety and routine the hospital before. That usually means I was not ready to come home.

[251turnaround]

I miss it all the time when I'm not feeling well. There was something about the boring day-to-day monotony of it that's comforting.

[HALLIEBETH87]

When I first get out I do because the stress of daily life gets to me a bit

[BipolaRNurse]

I really wasn't ready to go home when I was released from the hospital. They would have preferred that I stay longer, but I wanted out before the weekend because weekends were so boring and I wanted my own bed. I almost got readmitted by my own pdoc a couple of weeks later, but I insisted I was safe at home so he backed off. That said, there are those rare times when I wish I could go IP, just so I can not have to worry about my life here on the outside for awhile. But I've never again become that severely depressed, so there's been no need. That's a good thing.

[Sanctum]

I've only been in the hospital once, but that was a very good experience. It was voluntary, I was there for a month, and got to know the others on the ward really well. The calm atmosphere and the routine definitely helped me. That's when I was diagnosed, but the whole significance and the crushing depression that came with it didn't hit until I was home. I've often caught myself wishing I could just go back and live there.

[Wildlavender]

I've been in many times and yes I often wish I was back there,esp at the moment,so much that I wish they brought asylums back,we all use to be in asylums.Trying to maintain daily life with this (schizophrenia and mania) is almost impossible, and having the much needed support and release from daily burdens at the hospital is much needed.I often complain of being bored when I'm there, but now I'm away I really just wish I was there,colouring,painting and reading my kindle and talking to people,dancing in the yard too,there's no constraints of society you can be yourself. I'm also in love with my psyche nurse(male) so I guess that makes me want to be there too.

[Nammu]

There was a couple of hospitals that were nice and very safe. But mostly it was the nice staff that made the place someplace I want to return to when things were unstable. Not that I nessasarly needed a hospital all the time but it was reassuring and scheduled. The outside stress couldn't come at me there. But those places were bought out by a bigger group that changed the dynamics between the staff into a "us" vs " them" atmosphere where they regarded the patients as violent and criminal. It was no longer a safe place to go even if you needed a hospital.

[~Christina]

A few times I wished I could stay or go back IP just to decompress, I really didn’t NEED IP but kind of longe for it at times.

[bioChE]

I️ detest being inpatient. If there’s one place on earth I’d rather not be, it’s a psych ward. So incredibly boring. Pointless waiting to see if you’re going to go off your rocker with rapid med changes. Ugh. If I️ never go back it’ll be the best thing.

[franz kafka]

Originally Posted by bioChE

I️ detest being inpatient. If there’s one place on earth I’d rather not be, it’s a psych ward. So incredibly boring. Pointless waiting to see if you’re going to go off your rocker with rapid med changes. Ugh. If I️ never go back it’ll be the best thing.

I actually agree with you. I guess what I'm really longing for is safety and stability, and I don't have that right now. I won't for at least another seven months.

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by franz kafka

I actually agree with you. I guess what I'm really longing for is safety and stability, and I don't have that right now. I won't for at least another seven months.

I️ can empathize. Cairo must be a big change to acclimate to.

[Teddy Bear]

Sorry your missing the hospital. Ip is good when you need it but try to focus on what your current therapy is

[glennk]

Are you experiencing any anxiety? I felt safe at the hospital because,, in the back of my mind, I felt like someone was watching over me.