[boogiesmash]

So I return tomorrow to my main job where I was medically discriminated, hostile work environment. One of my coworkers also disclosed my illness which I don’t know how he knows, only told my supervisor and another coworker. Btw this supervisor said I “couldn’t take these mid afternoon evacuations” (referring to iop) and another co worker said thanks and apparently been having discussions about me when I leave. I intend to ask him what is his issue with me.

So I have a plethora of feelings. One and most prevalent is anger and anxiety. I’ve been going through klonopin like crazy this week. I am also feeling ashamed, embarrassed, hated, stigmatized and trying to be ousted. Last iop session I learned what’s the point of holding on to negative emotions, well I’m having a tough time letting this go. I think the letting go part is easier, but the letting people march all over me is not going to go well.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

When I was working and went on the first AP I'd been on I had a bad reaction to it and was taken off work. I also spent a night in the ER being checked to be certain it was the med and not a brain tumor. I wasn't admitted and psych wasn't involved at all.

I came back to work to find people treating me really weirdly and this one woman tracked me down and told me this long story about her son's psychosis from anti-biotics. Since nobody but the manager was supposed to know why I was off, much less that I had any psych issues at all, this was confounding. It turned out that my assistant had told everyone that I was in psych for a month and psychotic the whole time. This led to a lot of jokes at my expense and conversations in meetings where my assistant would say I told her to do something, the director of nursing would say she didn't agree, and my assistant would sigh and say "I know, I know, but I have to do what she tells me". And then the nurse would say "Well, she's crazy, what does she know?".

I worked in a contract position and didn't really have legal rights. The company I worked for eventually got me out of there because the situation was unbearable. 24 hours later the nursing home chain told my manager I was not allowed in their facilities (including the other place I worked) anymore. They couldn't give a real answer why but we all knew. Ultimately it worked out great; I was transferred and loved the new job very much. I still wish I could have sued (there was actually a class action suit from several women with disabilities who had been fired without cause by that nursing home chain) but I moved on.

The things I didn't expect was 1) to hear through the grapevine that the nursing home people came to regret the way they treated me and wanted me back (haha, yeah right) and 2) I interviewed for a new job several years later and my former assistant worked there. I got to write a letter stating I was withdrawing my application as I was not ethically comfortable supervising that person due to incompetence and unethical behavior at a previous job. I wound up on top.

I know how badly this hurts. I've been there more than that one time. But you can overcome it and be the better person. Keep telling yourself that, you are the better person as only nincompoops would treat you as these people have.

[Wild Coyote]

I hope this situation gets resolved and you find Peace.
Let us know how your week is going. We are here to support you.
I hope you can rest well tonight.

WC

[boogiesmash]

Had chat with one of the culprits. Claims it was a misunderstanding but never answered to his thanks comment. I’m sitting all alone as the one position I could of sat with others was filled with food. Take it either way they did it on purpose or not and that’s where my so called friend who stigmatized was sitting.

[raspberrytorte]

I'm sorry you're going through this boogie. I don't have words of advice, just hugs.

[hopeless2015]

Sending hugs to boogie. I'm so sorry, sucks big time. This is so wrong!

I’m so sorry Boogie. I relate I believe.

[xxblackrosesxx]

I'm sorry you're going through this and I hope it gets resolved. Keep us updated!