[HALLIEBETH87]

I started getting afraid of the demons again on tuesday and got really scared something bad would happen so i called my dr. he upped my latuda. dude, he has me on 160mg a day split in two doses. isnt that a lot??

im hoping to feel even better. i feel a little better today. my psyd told me to follow our safety plan of: crisis line, er, 911 or go to the local psych ip i prefer. i think im gonna be ok. i just need time to feel better.

is it possible to have psychosis and have a little insight? Im starting to doubt the demons.

[~Christina]

I think its alot of Latuda but hey if it works it works.

Yes its possible to have some insight with psychosis.. Been there done that and bought the tshirt.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Do you hide your thoughts and stuff well? Im pretty good at hiding stuff im going through

[~Christina]

You know me..... I can hide and internalize everything if I need to.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I feel like my sister thinks i do stuff for attention because i do so well hiding things even when im reallys cared of demons

[99fairies]

Doubting your demons is a good thing. Hold onto that and you'll probably start feeling better. Be honest with your support team, that's the only way they can help you...big hugs.

[~Christina]

Your sister sucks but I tell you that all the time ( lol)

She should have more compassion you arent faking things for attention

[Victoria'smom]

I have insight a lot even though I have regular psychotic symptoms. I can hide it well too. Only PC knows how crazy I really am. I try to voice it but can never find the right words.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Youre really the only person who understands and supports me outside of my treatment providers.

did i tell you that when i had her come to family session in ip last year she was MAD at me because i hadnt called the week before to update them...i was psychotic and dont even remember that week much! the therapist had to advocated for me and try to educate her about bipolar and psychosis. she still doesnt get it.

[~Christina]

I hate that she treats you that way ... I think shes a selfish bytch to be honest.

I doubt you will ever get her support and understanding .. But she will have you managing her kids and abusing you in ways to always do this or that for "her"

Im sorry she is the way she is !

[Aliceiw]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

I started getting afraid of the demons again on tuesday and got really scared something bad would happen so i called my dr. he upped my latuda. dude, he has me on 160mg a day split in two doses. isnt that a lot??

im hoping to feel even better. i feel a little better today. my psyd told me to follow our safety plan of: crisis line, er, 911 or go to the local psych ip i prefer. i think im gonna be ok. i just need time to feel better.

is it possible to have psychosis and have a little insight? Im starting to doubt the demons.

I'm glad you are reaching out to your providers. In my experience you can have insight, the degree to which you have insight indicates how severe the psychosis is. It can range from mild, moderate, and severe. I would say moderate is when you think its real but you also think it might not be. I've been there before. I was fretting that demons were going to drag me from my sleep into diagonal doorways in my house. I felt that this was real but I wondered if it was just untreated. My view was, if the medication doesn't work than it must be true and I can see the dead and demons are trying to steal me. so... that nagging part of me that thought well lets try it the way that was what got me to stability. Had I tipped over the edge I would't be able to think that way. So I would say if your hearing/seeing things differently and having these thoughts moderate psychosis fits, but I'm no expert.

[HALLIEBETH87]

we get along "ok" these days and she doesnt ask much of me anymore so thats gettingbetter but i get so tired of her not getting it. all well i guess.

[~Christina]

Maybe one day she will freaking realize that you have Bipolar and struggle at times and be supportive.. That is what I wish for you ... Some damn support from her and some of your other family members too !

[HALLIEBETH87]

thanks guys.

thank you chris.

[Sunflower123]

I’m sorry your sister doesn’t get it. That’s hurtful, stressful and disconcerting. Thinking of you.

[winter loneliness]

Yes. I have always had a bit of insight. That has saved me from going IOP.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I think the demons are gone!!!!!!!!