[sonjaward809]

I know my thoughts are irrational .. and that it’s probably not true but it feels like it’s going to happen or is happening. I was just switched to Risperdal so hopefully that helps put these thoughts in check soon.

My thoughts are thinking that people could see me through the phone when I talk to them .. so that made working at a call center unbelievably uncomfortable. (I had to quit) Another one is that people in posters can see me in real life. And that if I say certain words I’m going to be recorded by the government. Sometimes I feel like the TV is watching me .. it’s irritating to think like this. The thoughts come and go, sometimes I’m fine other times in a paranoid mess.

How often do you guys experience paranoid thoughts? Mine happen to flare up every few weeks or so ..

[still_crazy]

abilify helps me a lot. of course, dosage is an issue. go too high, i get flattened and cannot do much. too low...why bother?

do you have triggers in your life? lack of sleep, stress, uncontrolled anxiety? dealing with those--as best you can--might help w/ the psychosis, to a point.

Please talk to your doctor about that. It would be a useful bit of information for him/her to know.

I haven't had issues like yours lately, but in the past I had some irrational thinking issues outside of serious bipolar episodes. I guess the only paranoid thought I had were thinking that a particular man I know was calling my house, and then when I'd answer he would just stay on the line listening to me silently until I hung up. Such calls came sometimes once to three times per day almost every day for quite a while. I really believed it was that man, and would talk to "him" for a bit, despite no response. I was a little afraid to tell my husband because it was my fantasy that that man was in love with me. Eventually when I got past it I realized it was probably a robo caller that didn't respond, or maybe it was a call and when they realized we were on the "do not call list" they cut it.

What I struggled with more was an irrational fear that the devil was living in the dark room in my basement. How it started was when I was actually manic and saw the devil in a hallucination. At first he was in the garage, but then I was convinced he went to the basement. I was afraid to go to the basement for months. Then my tdoc convinced me to go down there, so I did. I sat on my stationary bike and only 30 seconds later I heard a loud sound that I believed was a whole nest of chicks chirping. It scared the hell out of me because I thought it was actually a sign from the devil. I high-tailed it up the stairs and slammed the door as fast as anyone could possible run. I didn't go down again for several months, even if we needed supplies that my husband kept down there. Hubby always had to retrieve them. He put up with my fear. But over time I went down little by little, and the irrational fear started to disappear. I'm fine going down there now.

[sonjaward809]

Originally Posted by still_crazy

abilify helps me a lot. of course, dosage is an issue. go too high, i get flattened and cannot do much. too low...why bother?

do you have triggers in your life? lack of sleep, stress, uncontrolled anxiety? dealing with those--as best you can--might help w/ the psychosis, to a point.

Hello!! Thanks for the response!! I was on abilify for a few months but it wasn't helping so I was put back on risperdal .. I'm only on 2mg a day right now but it probably needs to be bumped up a little. I just worry because it can make me "zombie" like if it's too high of a dose and I hate that feeling of not being able to feel. I took risperdal years ago and it worked for the psychotic stuff so that's why they decided to put me back on it.

I'm unsure of my triggers but staying up late seems to be one of them .. I will for sure have a rough day if I'm not in bed asleep by like 10:30 .. stress may be another one .. the more stressed I get the more paranoid and seeing/hearing things I get .. so I'm trying to keep my stress to a minimum.

[LacunaCoiler]

I have paranoid and irrational thinking at times. The last time I saw the shadow people and started thinking certain people worked for the shadow people was over a year ago (Full blown out manic episode). A few months ago I started getting a feeling I was being watched and when I told my pdoc this he upped my risperdal.

I went as high as 6mg and it really helped but it messed with my sex drive, my ability to enjoy sex, my mood became flat. It wasn't good and as soon as I stabled out a bit we began lowering it. I was on 3mg for a while but I had to go up to 4mg then 5mg because I went from being paranoid to manic. So I'm currently on 5mg as of Thursday. My pdoc's last day was Friday and I'm getting a new pdoc so I'm hoping that my new pdoc will allow me to go back down on my risperdal once I level out again.

[Moose72]

Ive had plenty of halluci inations. I guess lamictal is my current med for that. Last ome were giant spider legs climbing up and over the top of the table at starbicks.

[taybaby]

My paranoid thoughts are that someone is going to poison my drink, which makes no sense I know. And also anytime I hear about a new sickness or disease I automatically think that I have it.

Hope you start feeling better I know how awful paranoia can be.