Heartbroken and Humiliated

I emailed a property management company and asked about rentals. I saw last thursday night my phone showed i had a conversation with someone from the company. I got an email friday saying i was incoherent on the phone. Thursday night was the first night i took geodon 40mg with food at supper. It must have done something to me that i answered the phone and sounded like i was on drugs. I called the pdoc fri and he lowered it to 20mg 2x day so im fine. But anyways, i emailed them back saying it was a medication issue and mentioned the medication was for my "depression." I got a call from a restricted number and the asshole starts out by laughing. I an hear im on speakerphone. He first said "are you high? Are you coherent?" I said yes. He asked me why i wanted the apartment and told him it was close to the new church i joined 3 weeks ago. I told him the name of the church. Silence. He said the owner of his property management company goes to my church. He humiliated me on speakerphone and then suddenly hes like "oh i wasnt judging you or making fun of you. I was just trying to make light of the situation." I could tell i was no longer on speakerphone. I asked the name of the man who owned the company. He said Tom but would not give me the last name even though i asked him. I told him im not interested in their properties anymore and i said i would make sure to let tom know. He said he would give me a showing the next day. I hung up on him. I know that those other church members were on the line. I will never go back to that church and tomorrow i get my backpay and im reserving a ticket to move to phoenix, az. I am so angry and sad. I feel betrayed. He went on laughing and joking with ppl laughing in the background when i answered. I hate church. I gave it a try, i liked it. Now im done. And before i hung up on him he mentioned he was a pastor and has compassion for mental illness. Theres a snowstorm here. Im depositing my check, leaving everything behind and moving to arizona.

That's rather an extreme reaction. Maybe you should take a couple of days to think about this, moving and leaving everything behind is not going to solve your problems.

The geographic fix seldom works well. Take your time to think this out.

Seems a shame, since you like the church, to give it up after one bad encounter. Maybe the salesman wasn't a church member.

Moving away like that is a harsh reaction. Think long and hard about that.

I agree, don't make an emotional based decision. Hard with us bipolars, I know. And as hard as it is to be shamed, made fun or judged for having an illness, you gotta pick yourself up and keep going. I've had issues since 10, so its been almost 20 years now since I was diagnosed and I developed a "you got a problem with it-too bad" attitude towards those types of people. Its ignorance. And you can find a new church, new apartment with respectful people.

I’m so sorry that you experienced such a rude response. It is unacceptable. But I agree with the others that you don’t want to make a hasty decision.