[daikaran]

Hi, this is my first thread. I'm here because I don't know anybody else that has bipolar disorder around me. It's been two years since I've been diagnosed. Since then, my life has definitely improved, though I can still feel the ups and downs. Right now, I'm in a down and I feel alone. When I talk, I feel like people don't listen to me, ignore me even. I feel awful, like I lost my value. The problem is that I can't seem to find the limit between the disorder and reality. How should I react in X situation? Am I overreacting? I can't seem to make a decision because I'm afraid people won't understand me and inevitably think I'm crazy. I'll then really be isolated. It drives me crazy. Is there a way to make things less chaotic?

[Daonnachd]

Welcome.

You have not lost your value - that's impossible. I do understand what you're saying, though.

[Skeezyks]

Hello daikaran: Since this is your first posted thread here on PC... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

Here are links to some articles from PsychCentral's archives that may be of some interest:

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/menta...olar-disorder/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/self-he...olar-disorder/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/do-you...olar-spectrum/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/10-smal...olar-disorder/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/4-of-th...olar-disorder/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/bipolar...-your-illness/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/recomme...ks-on-bipolar/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!

For what its worth everyone thinks I'm nuts. Though they are nice enough to call it eccentric. Lol. But I'm still loved and accepted as is.

I understand where you are coming from. I've had the same thoughts at times. At the end of the day though, you gotta do you. You can't be perfect all the time bipolar or not. If the bipolar shows through, that is okay too. It'd part of who you are and nothing to be ashamed of. Hugs.

[xRavenx]

Welcome. You are definitely not alone. I often feel misunderstood or as if I lost my value. Please remember though, you have not lost your value. BP can certainly make you feel that way though. Societal influences and stigma play a role in these insecurities too, and this is an ongoing battle. I'm sure you must have plenty of valuable qualities that you bring to the table, so keep that in mind. We all do, whether we have a mental health condition or not. As far as trying to distinguish between the disorder vs. reality, this is something that is really difficult. I often have irrational thoughts and a lot of anxiety, but it can be hard to tell whether my thoughts are disproportionate to the situation or not. It's not easy! Something that I do find that helps: posting here and getting support and input from others. This is a really friendly, accepting forum.

[twistypringle98]

You have NOT lost your value. I feel like people feel that way when life just defeats them. I've certainly felt this way before. I just do something like volunteer or go to a class at parks and recreation to make myself feel differently. I gain a friend for a bit of time and when I see where it is going, I want them to stay or not, I determine how I want to value myself.

Judging yourself is different from judging another person, but I still don't think that just because someone might change it lowers their value. Telling someone something like that is just like saying something like "You are worth this much today." It is heinous.

[daikaran]

Thanks everyone, it's really appreciated to know I'm not alone. I've figured my meds are probably unbalanced so I'm seeing my doctor this week. Thanks a lot for your support.