[Leia78]

Sorry, I don't know how to hide this post with a trigger warning so I put it in the subject line.

I know why people in mixed states kill themselves. I cannot break free. I'm so high and drop so low and my skin feels like it's buzzing. My brain can't slow down and mostly I feel nothing but the racing and irritability. I can't sit still. I think I'm depressed and manic and it's like depression on speed. I am getting some sleep but I'm waking up several times during the night.

I saw my dr yesterday and he said he's taking me off Trintellix and lowered my Vyvanse but these things aren't going to help immediately or quickly and thinking I'm going to be like this for a while longer is unbearable. I can't go to the hospital right now. There's too much at stake at home.

I am glad we don't have any firearms in our house.

Sorry you are feeling this way. This rollercoaster sucks. Big hugs.

[GrossProphet]

Just remember, it's only temporary.

[Leia78]

Originally Posted by TheSadGirl

Sorry you are feeling this way. This rollercoaster sucks. Big hugs.

Thank you. I'm also afraid that going off Trintellix and dropping my Vyvanse dose at the same time will send me straight into depression next. I don't know what to do. I'm trying.

[Leia78]

Originally Posted by GrossProphet

Just remember, it's only temporary.

Thank you. I'm trying to keep that in mind. It's just so hard.

[Moreta]

I found saphris knocked me out of a mixed episode pretty quick. Sorry you are suffering.

[Zigy]

Originally Posted by Leia78

Thank you. I'm trying to keep that in mind. It's just so hard.

It is hard. Hang on in there.

[LadyShadow]

It's tough feeling that way, I can relate on what its like to be stuck in between two opposing forces, like almost being pulled and pushed, manic, but depressed. I hope it calms down soon. Have you thought of maybe like taking a shower? Maybe having some soothing hot tea? I mean I know it may not be much, but maybe it will help a little.

Hang in there.

[Leia78]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I found saphris knocked me out of a mixed episode pretty quick. Sorry you are suffering.

Thanks. My doctor wanted me to stay on Latuda and Lamictal. I don't see how Latuda is going to get me out of a mixed episode. I just have to wait and see if the other med changes do anything. It sucks because I have to come off of Trintellix slowly.

[Leia78]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

It's tough feeling that way, I can relate on what its like to be stuck in between two opposing forces, like almost being pulled and pushed, manic, but depressed. I hope it calms down soon. Have you thought of maybe like taking a shower? Maybe having some soothing hot tea? I mean I know it may not be much, but maybe it will help a little.

Hang in there.

Thank you. A shower helped a little. I'm actually hungry, which I haven't been in a few weeks. I think gabapentin slows things down for me a little bit, too. I took it earlier and I'm not so jittery right now.