Well Damn

I have a friend on FB that sells this "smart coffee." It's got this stuff in it xanthohumol.com. It's "supposed" to give you energy, but here I sit here like a lump like usual, energy has maybe increased by 15%. I am super focused though and really chill. I don't feel like vaping either and I have no ****ing clue what to do with my hands. It's weird to sit here and not vape, cause I vape all day. I guess I can get my crocheting stuff out so I don't drive y'all crazy. haha. It feels like I took 2 adderalls without getting the extra energy benefit. My mind feels so clear. MAN IT'S WEIRD. Idk wtf to do with myself. I can THINK. oh ffs. I don't want to THINK. Thinking gets me in trouble. maaaaaaaan.

Sounds like the exercise focus I get from Yerba mate and 5-htp. It takes HUGE amounts of just coffee or even energy drinks, but a little Yerba and 5-htp can light me up nicely. Yerba does have some caffeine in it, but not huge amounts. It also tastes like tobacco, which is gross, but necessary

Yesterday was awesome. I actually got stuff done and didn't feel like a wet noodle. I passed out about 7:30 and when I woke up I actually felt like I slept for once. Like I got deep sleep finally. It's pretty nice. I did have a slight issue with the whole not being hungry, but managed to eat some. My abdomen doesn't actually hurt though and I didn't have that throbbing headache I get every day in the afternoon either. o.O I ordered some so I will let y'all know how it goes. I haven't felt this good in a while and no it's not mania, it's my body actually working. haha. I wish I had more to take today, but will have to wait till my shipment comes in.