Detatching from reality

Lately I feel like I'm in a dream .. everything feels foggy. I'm starting to get paranoid and things don't feel real anymore. I had to go off of my Risperdal because I was lactating so now I don't have an AP to help try and regulate this stuff .. I won't have any meds until Monday. Until then I'm stuck trying to figure out what's real and what's not. Heck that's even if the meds will help pull me out of this. I'm not feeling very good mentally. I think my friends are plotting against me .. I don't think they like me anymore. I'm scared to meet up with them when I get back home because I'm afraid they're going to attack me. I don't know what's wrong with me. But something is wrong and I'm struggling to handle things right now. Doesn't help that what little family I have up here leaves me alone 95% of the time .. nobody comes to visit. I try to sleep most of the day cause it's the only thing that helps with the paranoia. But right now I can't fall asleep .. and I don't want to end up back in IP again. So I'm trying to deal with this on my own but I'm failing. Nobody will listen to me when I tell them I'm not doing well .. I can't move back home until March 31st .. which I'm unsure if my mental health will last that long. I'm trying to convince my mom to come get me sooner cause I don't know how long I can last with these issues by myself. I see my case manager Tuesday and I'll let her know what's going on. I'm just worried they will want me back in IP and I can't really afford to go again.

Any tips on how to get yourself out of a dream state? or a break with reality?

You're not alone, psychosis sucks. My delusions have been spiking from out of nowhere. I feel like my dad is reading my thoughts, and the other day I got so visibly angry around him I almost yelled at him to get out of my head. Then I felt immediately guilty and tried to talk to him, but I felt the same physical sensation telling me that he was in my head, like he wanted me to feel guilty so I wouldn't suspect him. Then I'm like, "you're an idiot" and it goes back and forth. **** sucks, it's so uncomfortable and it makes everything you do so complicated and with so much doubt and hesitation.

I signed up for a PHP, but it's taking forever for them to get it set up with insurance, so I have nothing atm. Have you considered PHP? Maybe it can be a middle ground if you don't want to go IP, but at the same time PHP can keep you occupied and safe during the day. Sometimes just listening to people process about similar things can distract me. And it usually makes me more productive and wanting to do things when I get back, which can also distract you and your psychosis. I think I really need it, I'm just wasting away all day at home atm.

Sorry, I'm not really familiar with dream states, but when I'm psychotic and out of reality I either go for a nature walk or try to distract myself with funny videos. Music is hit or miss, it often causes flashbacks which potentiate my anger and paranoia, but it can help. For the first one, it really depends on the degree of it at that moment. I usually walk to this park that's like 30 minutes away from me, but if I'm that far out there I can see myself running deep into the woods and doing weird **** that I've done in the past. But if I'm fighting it and there's some insight, often the ambient sound of nature and the visuals help distract. Unfortunately I'm not doing that right now since Seroquel is giving me some pain.

can you take the risperdal at a lower dose? or just deal with the lactating until monday?
sorry if that sounds weird but you sound desperate.
bizi
some take benadryl to help with sleep/anxiety issues.
kava kava helps as does chamomile tea even lavender helps
valerian root is part of the valium family and over the counter.
bizi

I'm out of Risperdal .. I still have one Seroquel left, I've been saving it for times like this so that's what I'll take for now. I'll look into the other options you mentioned though! I need something to help because I feel horrible. Thank you!

Try to hang in there only one more day until you get some meds.

Ive experienced something like what you mentioned. It is terrifying and makes you uneasy. For me distraction helps. As mentioned funny videos help as does music you like. Unfortunately you mostly will have to white knuckle it till you see your T or pdoc. Hopefully they will have a solution that doesn’t involve IP, but if it does please go as your safety is more important than everything. Hang in there and remind yourself that one way or another it will pass. You are safe and loved.

Can't stand that bear.

hi. psychosis is not fun. the beginnings of it for me are a lot like you describe, and that's..awful...because you're lucid(ish), but very aware of where you're headed. -shudder-

sorry about the prolactin level increases. some people swear by -carefully- dosed, older tranquilizers. perphenazine and loxapine seem to be popular. amoxapine...its a tricyclic drug for depression that somehow does double duty for psychosis. a shrink once recommended it for me, for yet another episode of psychotic depression.

anyway...try to hang in there. i just mentioned the older drugs because if you need a tranquilizer, it doesn't -have- to be an atypical. some people love the atypicals, others people do better on a low(ish) dose of an older drug.

sorry you're suffering.