[batteries]

Does anyone out there have bpd comorbid with bipolar? I've heard it's relatively common, and lately I've been talking with some friends of mine who suffer from bpd and I related a little too much to them, and have been obsessing and googling everything which I know is not the best course of action. Honestly I'm just scared that it may be the case. (I don't doubt anymore that I am bipolar, like I used to. It makes a lot of sense to me as a diagnosis.) On a similar note, I've recently been seeing a guy who I really like, and who really likes me. He's very stable, and supportive of everything but honestly that just scares me more. I've never been in a healthy relationship, and honestly I'm afraid to start now. I feel kind of hopeful for the first time in a really long time, and I'm really afraid that if I lose that hope now I'm... well, I don't know. It would crush me.
Everyone in my life always tells me how strong and brave I am, but I honestly just feel so fragile. I feel like I'm constantly holding on by a thread, and that anything could set me off at this point. I also have a major history of self harm, and despite some minor things I haven't had a major relapse in a while. I really feel the need to, though, and I'm afraid that if I do I won't be able to control how bad it is.

Maybe I'm just overthinking things, and looking for reasons to be unhappy. I'm so afraid of having happiness, and stability, because it never, ever lasts. Just like manic episodes, I suppose. But the happier I feel, the worse I also feel...

[AspiringAuthor]

If you have good insurance coverage, it would make sense to pursue more definitive diagnosis or diagnoses. As you said, just looking things up on the web and trying to self-diagnose is not the best course of action. Neuropsychological testing, if covered by the insurance, could give you a lot of insights.

[batteries]

Originally Posted by AspiringAuthor

If you have good insurance coverage, it would make sense to pursue more definitive diagnosis or diagnoses. As you said, just looking things up on the web and trying to self-diagnose is not the best course of action. Neuropsychological testing, if covered by the insurance, could give you a lot of insights.

thank you, do you know what type of place I could go to do that?

[Unrigged64072835]

I have comorbid BP and BPD. I was miserable in relationships until a few years ago. I think having a steady, level-headed partner helped me. One time I was in T with him and telling him I wasn't good enough for him. He and T told me that yes I was, and in fact it was long overdue to have someone who is nice to me. Sometimes we don't see our good qualities because the self-talk has been bashing us over for so long.

Happiness may not last, but it will come back.

I have bipolar and BPD. I've been married almost 12 years. Don't feel limited based on a diagnosis.

[giddykitty]

Kinda ironic how you post this tonight. It's being determined whether or not I have both. I was so convinced and yet now I'm beginning to doubt and I think others around me are just sensitive or ignorant, including my NP. I think I definitely have tendencies of bpd, but not feeling as confident with that proposed possible diagnosis tonight. Sorry, not helpful, but I guess I couldn't resist commenting when I saw the post

[Tucson]

I have had attributes on BPD. When I was younger, this caused me allot of problems in previous relationships. Over time, I have become much better in this area. Apparently I have learned something on how to handle what remains an inclination on my part. I guess I will never be completely well in this regard.

[Colour of Madness]

I have bipolar and was also told I have BPD "traits" by hospital psychiatrists once during an inpatient stay for a mixed episode, I am not actually sure if BPD is accurate for me or not, I certainly have some of the symptoms but they also seem to overlap with Bipolar - for example I get impulsive but only when I am manic, I don't really have issues with maintaining relationships or feeling abandoned but I do self harm, although 99% of the time the self harm is related to my eating disorder... It's complicated LOL. I guess just speak to your doc about it and see what they say

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by TheSadGirl

I have bipolar and BPD. I've been married almost 12 years. Don't feel limited based on a diagnosis.

I’ve been married for a long time too ... I didn’t let a diagnosis (or the PUs) define me.