Opinions

I know my friend is concerned too... she wants me to call the crisis team but I don't want to. I'm seeing my Support Worker tomorrow.

Why do I do this? I'm an idiot but I don't know what to do. My head is divided

You are not an idiot. I do the same things. It feels good. Could be because I know I should not, idk. I may or may not fully understand your reason to do it, but I certainly can commensurate.

I actually wonder if my treatment could be better if I told my doc. It is a secret life. I do not hide it from my doctor alone. I hide it from everyone.

I am far less aware that I am leading a secret life though. I just do it, then I look back and realize what happened.

You're not an idiot. You're looking for positive attention and affirmation from the men, you have passion and a need to connect, you're being a risk-taker, which is exciting, and you have bipolar.

My profound concern is that one of these guys, sooner or later, is going to hurt you physically. Once that happens, it cannot be undone.

I don't understand why I do this. I mean I act like I am stable but I haven't been stable ever. I'm really worried about talking to my Support Worker. We have our sessions in our town centre as I suffer from social anxiety and that is her job out in community. It's really hard discussing this sort of thing outside in public

But, Miss Laura, that’s exactly what needs happen. Please promise us you’ll be open with the professional when you meet.

Thanks vertigo,

I've been known to hold back as I have a fear of being judged. I sometimes pretend everything is good just so I don't need to talk

Any updates Miss Laura?

My Worker want a me back on my meds. My CPN appt was meant to be 30th April not 30th May. The receptionist sent the wrong date. So meeting with new CPN next Friday afternoon. I'm to call the crisis team if I need them not hold back like I am doing

Scheduling stuff like that happens to me all the time, it is the worst.

How do you feel about going back on meds?

Next Friday is closer, but still seems a long way off

I'm really unsure about going back on them. My Worker suggested maybe getting an injection that will last a month or 2 instead if meds orally. But I'm to see my Nurse. I know closer than 30th but a life time away

I wasn't good at taking meds orally So the pdoc gave me disolvable (ODT). I take them no problem and they're cheaper then injectables.

Every time I give an opinion, people do the opposite. So count me out.

I don’t usually give opinons either.

Injections .... it would save them money too I suspect And “ensure compliance”