How do you deal with your angst?

I have no outlet constructive outlet for my angst. Basically all I can do is distract myself until I calm down. That doesn't work quickly and I can't always do something to distract myself. I've read about working on my mindfulness, meditating, etc. That's all fine and good until I have a crisis, exacerbated by a Monday like today. For some reason going on a rant in these posts at least helps for a little while so here goes.
I have to drive 1.5 hours each way to get to work. This was not the agreement when I started, but my boss has either grown a brain tumor that affects his logic, or his newer boss is a sadist and is putting more pressure on him, or my boss really just hates me now because I dared to stand up to him and not agree with him no matter how much he yelled. I found out this guy is really a **** boss. Doesn't matter, I needed the job. Now I'm close to getting a much better job much closer to home, Praise God. But if my boss hates me and wants me to quit, why does he keep talking about new projects coming up and how many projects he needs me on?
Regardless, so I speed, 20-30 above the limit to get to work within an hour in the mornings and miss most of the traffic. I have to get up at 3:45AM to have enough time to wake up and shower before hitting the road at 5.
You take your life in your hands driving on the highway. You have to watch 360 degrees for faster cars, slower cars, cops, construction, etc. Its almost 120 miles round trip. THis morning someone in a big lifted pickup truck cut me off, and if I hadn't slammed on the brakes they would have rolled right up on the hood of my car. That pushed my adrenals over the edge and I was shaking for the next 30 minutes.
Then at work I had to ask for help from a coworker, which is fine, except my thinking and processing is on overdrive, and my coworkers almost seems to pride himself on sp e a k i n g v e r y slooooooowly and its just painful to communicate with him.
Then I have 2 meetings in a row where my piece is not discussed because the project hasn't progressed enough, so i just listen and try to concentrate on my real work.
Last week I made a coding change. It worked on the test server but not on the production server. So my coworker on call this weekend got a page about an error. Its really not a big deal, it was a simple fix to resend the file. So my coworker complained to my boss that she had to fix that problem. And the reason the problem exists is because their code was different on the test server and the prod server!!! Granted I should have caught the different but I missed it. So my boss calls me into his office and asks me why there was an error. I explain why and he plays dumb. So I spell it out to him again. Then lays into me saying there can't be any mistakes. He says he's already looked at the code and test and prod. So he knows what the problem is, and he's still giving me a hard time about it. Tell me he doesn't want me to just quit? All he wants to hear is agreement. If I try to explain any alternate reality to him he just gets mad. You can watch his back straighten up and he repeats his version with more conviction. This guy is really a douschebag.
Then I have some time to get real work done without meetings. Then another meeting. And I **** YOU NOT. It was 30 minutes of people who have no technical ability thinking that if they use enough corporate jargon that will get then through for one more day. I know its cliche but I seriously cant understand how anything gets done at this place. I also had to put up with my coworker calling me out on the call saying some of my code was wrong. When I pointed out that it was correct, all she can say is 'yeah'. And noone on the call knows any better. Just going over all this crap again makes me want to scoop my eye out with a spork. Seriously how do you all deal with your angst?

I find writing about it does help. I also distract myself by talking with one of my sister in law or my boyfriend. I don’t necessarily tell them what’s going on, sometimes just talking about other things is enough. Maybe reading would be good for you if it’s something you enjoy?

I know you said distraction doesn’t work but that’s honestly all I can think of. Maybe someone else will have something different.

I tried pulling weeds yesterday..it was my first time. It worked! Also walking barefoot in grass helps me.

It sucks you have to get up so early because my suggestion is to go to the gym before work. It helps me a lot before I talk myself out of it after work.

There is DBT therapy, which I learned about on this site. You can learn about it for free on YouTube under DBT Peer Connections.

Ignoring it.

Thanks, I will keep trying distraction. I also want to start sticking up for myself more so I don't feel so ****** all the time.

Pulling weeds and doing yard work really helps me forget about the day.

Thats also a good idea except I'm a zombie until about 7am. I sometimes lift weights in the basement but I dont do it regularly, only when I really need to burn off some steam.

I've never been able to make myself learn those techniques but I'll give them another try. Thanks for the info on the YT channel.

ignore it until I jump everytime someone walks by my cubicle? That's where I'm at right now.

LOL everyone has different needs. Being a gym rat is essential for me. I hope you can find some help. I use something else to help too. I also use gabapentin.