[birdcrazy]

My illness goes beyond simple bipolar. Yes in my mid 20's I had a full blown mania episode with psychosis and I've been medicated since (now on Latuda, Depakote and Trazadone) but my problems started in childhood with severe meltdowns almost everyday, hyperactivity, labile mood, social skills problems, etc
. Back then I was diagnosed with ADHD, but one doc a few years ago said if she diagnosed a similar child now they would be given Childhood Bipolar/Asperger's (I think with the DSM-V it would possibly be DMDD/Autism level 1 now) Anyway the BP is no doubt, but the autism is not officially diagnosed. Anyway I had a traumatic childhood due to my symptoms, if I had the means should I seek closure, or chalk it all up to bp?

[Moreta]

Sometimes it's best just to let things go. It happened in the past and you can't change the past. Better to live in the present and focus on what you can do now to feel better. Yeah it happened and it sucked but they don't have time machines yet.

Gotta just accept things sometimes. You've accomplished stuff in life despite that happening, so don't discredit the good things based on the bad things. Keep pushing forward and trying to get to a better point in life.

[Unrigged64072835]

Lots of things happen in childhood. The thing is if it carried into adulthood. You may want to have therapy pertaining to trauma if it still applies to you.

I did have some of those things come forward into adulthood, which is why I have a diagnosis of BPD.

Otherwise, like Moreta said--let go and move on.