[Moreta]

Seriously. My body has been falling apart since then or maybe it started when I was 32. Haha **** if I know. The past 3 years have seem to melded together. Go back a bit farther and just don't turn 30 lmaoooo. Hurt my back at 30 and it's still not right. I swear. I finally get my mind right and my body decides to fall apart. The bipolar isn't as bad as it once was so I guess that's something. Still have blips here and there, but man I feel crummy physically. Since last December there's been a snowball effect of what I'm allergic to, which is so not cool. My arm feels like it's coming out of the socket by my shoulder a lot. My ankles are ****ing up. The migraines are getting worse. I feel like I'm running a low grade fever all the time. Sometimes it feels like my blood pressure drops, but at least I catch myself before I end up on the floor. My hair is falling out. In the morning, my nose runs for a good 2-3 hrs. My vision keeps ****ing up so it's pointless to get glasses because I'll never know what strength I need of said glasses when I wake up in the morning (yes I went to the eye dr, he said my eyes were fine). Random bruises keep popping up and disturbingly enough, they're getting bigger. My brain is mush and if I don't put things in my phone I'll guarantee you I'll forget about them. I'm tired all the mother ****ing time, even on nuvigil. The ulcers in my mouth won't go away. I get heart palpitations. There's probably other stuff I'm forgetting but my brain is mush today.

But hey all isn't bad. Since I quit eating everything I'm allergic to my skin cleared up. I've also lost 40 lbs since December, so I guess getting sick isn't all that bad. I do need a new wardrobe though. ha.

I did get some lab work back from a health screening I went to back in May today, where they paid me $75 to draw my blood and do a few other tests. I guess they were collecting data for something. idk I needed the money. But it showed my progesterone, Free T3, and Vit D levels were all low. Also that I'm allergic to onions and rice, which is good info cause I didn't know that before. Been stuffing my face with onions so I guess I should stop. Probably one of the reasons I've been feeling poorly. ha. I'm also mad cause I just bought some mother ****ing rice. I supposed I should stop eating those bean and rice burritos. lmao.

Anyways, life can suck, but oh it can suck worse. At least there's 300Mpbs internet (I can still hear the noises that dial up made) and I can get any show I damn well please to watch on my fire tv. It's nice since I don't go out much anymore. Sometimes you have to be grateful for the little things.

Here's to hoping I feel better by 35. Don't have much hope for that to happen by 34 since that's in October. One can dream though.

And yes, I've seen a dr. Have been seeing drs since December and if I have to see one more god damn dr that doesn't believe me I might ****ing lose it, so don't suggest that. ha. I have seen 6 drs and they just shuffle me back and forth. I even tried my OBGYN but got brushed off and lost it in his office. So there's that. I see my GP in September and will talk to her then. She's the only one that listens.

[Blueberrybook]

I'm sorry your having health problems and hurting. I'd say stay 25 or 26 and leave it there...LOL...I'd rather be back in my 30s than 40.

It is frustrating to have health problems that are not easily diagnosed or that you see specialist after specialist for and still have no answers. I got vitamin B6 toxicity, and that took awhile to diagnose, and I remember being very frustrated because I knew something was not right with my body, but the doctors couldn't tell me what it was.

Life can suck, but you are right. Lots of people have it worse. I hope you are able to find some answers to what is wrong with you.

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by cln1812

I'm sorry your having health problems and hurting. I'd say stay 25 or 26 and leave it there...LOL...I'd rather be back in my 30s than 40.

It is frustrating to have health problems that are not easily diagnosed or that you see specialist after specialist for and still have no answers. I got vitamin B6 toxicity, and that took awhile to diagnose, and I remember being very frustrated because I knew something was not right with my body, but the doctors couldn't tell me what it was.

Life can suck, but you are right. Lots of people have it worse. I hope you are able to find some answers to what is wrong with you.

I think I'd go for early the early 20s form of myself. I had a major psychotic break at 25 and my brain hasn't been right since. tbh though i've had bipolar since I was about 16 and OCD for longer than that so technically idk when I'd go back to. haha. I've had back issues since I was 15, so maybe I should change my answer to 14. lol.

[Blueberrybook]

I already had sleep issues and high anxiety even at 4 or 5 years old. My early 20s were bad for me though. That was when my eating disorder was really bad. I don't have fond memories of those times, and I had 2 psych hospitalizations.

My mid 20s were good though. Even if I wasn't quite on the right medication, I was still able to think quickly, get a scientific article published, get my M.S. I probably looked my best too. In high school, I was a little overweight, but not bad, maybe just around 10 lb. By my mid-20s I'd gained back enough weight that I looked good, and after the eating disorder, my set point weight adjusted a bit lower, more in line with my bone structure (which is small). I have professional pictures my husband and I took before our wedding in 2004 where I was pretty stunning. At that time, my hair was longer, and I looked a lot like Grace Kelly did at that age. Once I watched an old Grace Kelly movie, and it was weird, like seeing my younger self act on TV. Now, though, I cut my hair short, and I long distance run and have a leaner physique and need to gain weight again, so the resemblance is gone.

Though honestly, if I could have the intelligence and creativity I had in high school on top of my mid-20s looks and my current life experience lessons (without having to actually go through them), that would be most ideal.

You can't have it all though.

[~Christina]

I felt great for 3 days when I was 11 years old , that’s it !

I feel your pain , literally ** hugs**

[Wild Coyote]

I hope you find more answers soon.
Very frustrating, I know.

WC

[Unrigged64072835]

Too late--I'm almost 53 now!

Yeah, the physical health thing sucks. If I could put my 53 year old brain in my 20 year old body I'd be golden.

But right now I'm just happy to be on this side of the dirt.

[UpDownAround]

I turn 60 later this year and I am in the best shape I have been in for decades. Exercise and losing ~65 pounds from September to March and successful at keeping it off (actually lost a little more) since than.

[raspberrytorte]

I just turned 36. I hate having wrinkles around my eyes when I smile!

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by UpDownAround

I turn 60 later this year and I am in the best shape I have been in for decades. Exercise and losing ~65 pounds from September to March and successful at keeping it off (actually lost a little more) since than.

I lost 67 lbs and I just feel worse. haha

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

I just turned 36. I hate having wrinkles around my eyes when I smile!

I have wrinkles on my forehead. I'm not a fan.

[Tucson]

I am going to turn 60 by the beginning of next year.I am in better health, but I have a way to go. I will keep working at it. I have found a family that I am now a part of. I am looking for a job. Once I have a reasonably well paying job, I think I will be satisfied with my life.

[pirilin]

The issue is not the chronological age. It's the mileage.
I'm facing a 1/2 million miles in the odo. And I run on gas, not diesel.

Althought, I've found a silly thing called Arnica, that I use for every pain.
And the funny thing is, it works. Better than Lidocane. Almost as good as Voltaren.
And it costs peanuts compared to the latter. Check it in Amazon. You may like it.

[Moreta]

I think it's time for me to disappear again.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I think it's time for me to disappear again.

What makes you think so?

WC

I think my body started falling apart at 14/15, and I'm not exagerating either.

physical wise... I am doing terrible all round

[greentires4me]

I hear ya I turned 34 on Monday. My body has been revolting for years, just I have noticed certain times are more concerning then others. Before I turned 34 I diagnosed with near sightedness, arthritis in my spine, I am seeing a cardiologist, I spend tonnes of time in appointments where as before I was working a full time job it’s a full time job taking care of myself as my body is rapidly progressively falling apart now.

I'm just leaving you some hugs, Mo, if they'll help