Experiencing hypomania because of new job...

Just got back from working at the Superbowl. It was fun. Hope to work at the Superbowl in Miami next year.

I hope things are going ok, Nowinners. I'm glad you've found this new job. I hope you like it! You can keep yourself busy and earn some money. Feel free to PM me anytime. I'm always available if you need to talk. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you

This post made me
LMAO

YES! This is ME TOO! Odd people aren’t BORING!

And I don’t think I’m bipolar (maybe I am?)

I also wonder if my son having issues with depression spawned from my ‘bad’ example and my mind will blame myself (a bad habit).

There is validity to the relationship between parent/child symbiotic thing here. Therapy addressing this between you both is a good idea if you can get him to the appointment.

The title of the thread fits today. Worked until about 8 PM on lesson plans because I want to pass my mock class for VIP Kids tommorrow. It is a job you do remotely teaching cute chinese kids English (5-7 years old) via teleconference. It's really some cool software that enables the connection.

Then I decided I wanted to do some scoring in the temp job I have (also remote) to relax. It is actually less intense than lesson planning in a subject I have never taught. Thinking about psychological things too! I think about why I am the way I am and why my family is the way they are all of the time. All wound up tonight from it all. I think way too much but prefer it to being a zombie. Wonder when I will sleep?

Well, I didn't pass. Just installed some new equipment (camera/USB headphone/lights) and had technical difficulties (it all worked yesterday when I used it in the company meeting/coaching session ). They said, no worries. You are "in" but will have to retake teaching the lesson until it is satisfactory.

Now I can't figure out how to turn off the blasted camera and misplaced the cover. My H said, keep the cover on when in use--hackers are notorious for viewing through your camera (never had a camera on my computer before.)

All morning I kept thinking of the chorus Don't Give Up You've Got the Music in You in the song:
New Radicals - You Get What You Give With Lyrics

My earworms are so annoying.

On to other things today.

Till you find it, you can lightly put a bandaid over it with the pad part over the lens. That way the lens doesn't get sticky, but view is still blocked. That's what I do. It's not ideal, but it works.

Tried to pass my mock class for a fourth time today! I usually fair well in testing situations but will probably fail (have to redo it) a 4th time. This has me feeling anxious. A few people pass their very first try. I am not that talented. Last time they said my lighting was just fine--this time she said (each evaluator is different) there are too many shadows. (Though she was sweet and provided some very good tips.) The things I did best on my first try, I did terrible on the 3rd, etc. I will just stick with it though it is very frustrating. However, there is one mistake I made today that I have always had to monitor (years and years ago I was a teacher)--I spent too much time on some parts of the lesson. I will always have to be mindful of this--when you are a teacher, it is important to cover all of the material. When I am finally allowed to teach, I will have overcome so much.

Plus I just think I am struggling with indecision and doubts about everything today. I do not know if it is anxiety about passing today or mental instabiIity. I will try to take it easier on myself for the rest of the day.......

No hypomania but a lot of anxiety about my new job teaching online. I just had a dream that I missed my first class. I still have not taught my first class. In the dream, I was out driving around then realized the class was about to start (driving at 5 AM/dreams don't make complete sense). I rushed home then tried to log in at 5:05 AM but it wouldn't let me until I took the quiz (I have to take a quiz today). Due to missing the class, they locked me out of the system (I work at home remotely) forever (I was fired!)