Experiencing hypomania because of new job...

I think I sound a bit crazy here when I was writing this. Too many overgeneralizations about hunches and feelings....

I will be ringing in the New Year at my part time job. Since it is a holiday, they will be paying time and a half and I expect to be working about ten hours. In February, they are also sending a group of us (including me) to work at the Superbowl and the pay is very good for that event. I don't expect to be put in a position where I see the game but who knows where I will be working while I am there.

My temporary, full time job is over but it didn't have to be. With either my husband or I having to take the bus, he asked me to quit 2 weeks before it was scheduled to end. I agreed. The good thing about it was that I was able to be there in a very stress free way for my family during the holidays. I am still needing to help my son. The bad was I really enjoyed that job and when I was mailing a gift to my dad at the post office, I ran into the coworker that sat next to me in class and in our call center. She said the three of them who were left were extended until the end of January and there is the possibility it could go a bit longer than that. It was so good to see her--as usual, we talked and laughed. She programmed her phone number into my phone but I haven't called her yet. I ate an entire package of Walker's Shortbread the next day because I was so sad not to work there with my three friends until that job ended. Yet, I know it is not all bad. I have more time to take care of myself (I have a lot of doctor appointments scheduled for 2019 including physical therapy) and there is an issue going on with my son that I have to attend to. My husband is making good money right now and my family is more important than socializing at work but I do like having a job, making my own money and being out among other people. Some day?

I don't think you sound "crazy" at all!

I hope you will enjoy NYE.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I hope 2019 will bring an easier year for you.

WC

Thanks--yes, some of it is based on more than a hunch but I vowed not to talk about other people's issues. Plus, I can't figure myself out so my interpretation would not do anyone any kind of justice.

HAPPY NEW YEAR Wild Coyote!! Thanks for being there for so many of us!!

Felt pretty undignified at my New Year's Eve job. I was placed on one side of the moving camera platform. My job was to make sure that no one got ran over. When the platform starting rolling I felt like I was running for my life while screaming, "Watch out; move over; etc." I haven't ran in years but fear made me run ever time it got going. I was surprised by how fast I could still run. Some of my coworkers were laughing that they put me there. (Wouldn't it make more sense to put young people in that position verses a 55 year old woman?) Others said, "you are a good runner." I got a work out at that game.

Just got back from working at the Superbowl. It was fun. Hope to work at the Superbowl in Miami next year.

I hope things are going ok, Nowinners. I'm glad you've found this new job. I hope you like it! You can keep yourself busy and earn some money. Feel free to PM me anytime. I'm always available if you need to talk. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you

This post made me
LMAO

YES! This is ME TOO! Odd people aren’t BORING!

And I don’t think I’m bipolar (maybe I am?)

I also wonder if my son having issues with depression spawned from my ‘bad’ example and my mind will blame myself (a bad habit).

There is validity to the relationship between parent/child symbiotic thing here. Therapy addressing this between you both is a good idea if you can get him to the appointment.

The title of the thread fits today. Worked until about 8 PM on lesson plans because I want to pass my mock class for VIP Kids tommorrow. It is a job you do remotely teaching cute chinese kids English (5-7 years old) via teleconference. It's really some cool software that enables the connection.

Then I decided I wanted to do some scoring in the temp job I have (also remote) to relax. It is actually less intense than lesson planning in a subject I have never taught. Thinking about psychological things too! I think about why I am the way I am and why my family is the way they are all of the time. All wound up tonight from it all. I think way too much but prefer it to being a zombie. Wonder when I will sleep?

Well, I didn't pass. Just installed some new equipment (camera/USB headphone/lights) and had technical difficulties (it all worked yesterday when I used it in the company meeting/coaching session ). They said, no worries. You are "in" but will have to retake teaching the lesson until it is satisfactory.

Now I can't figure out how to turn off the blasted camera and misplaced the cover. My H said, keep the cover on when in use--hackers are notorious for viewing through your camera (never had a camera on my computer before.)

All morning I kept thinking of the chorus Don't Give Up You've Got the Music in You in the song:
New Radicals - You Get What You Give With Lyrics

My earworms are so annoying.

On to other things today.

Till you find it, you can lightly put a bandaid over it with the pad part over the lens. That way the lens doesn't get sticky, but view is still blocked. That's what I do. It's not ideal, but it works.

Tried to pass my mock class for a fourth time today! I usually fair well in testing situations but will probably fail (have to redo it) a 4th time. This has me feeling anxious. A few people pass their very first try. I am not that talented. Last time they said my lighting was just fine--this time she said (each evaluator is different) there are too many shadows. (Though she was sweet and provided some very good tips.) The things I did best on my first try, I did terrible on the 3rd, etc. I will just stick with it though it is very frustrating. However, there is one mistake I made today that I have always had to monitor (years and years ago I was a teacher)--I spent too much time on some parts of the lesson. I will always have to be mindful of this--when you are a teacher, it is important to cover all of the material. When I am finally allowed to teach, I will have overcome so much.

Plus I just think I am struggling with indecision and doubts about everything today. I do not know if it is anxiety about passing today or mental instabiIity. I will try to take it easier on myself for the rest of the day.......

No hypomania but a lot of anxiety about my new job teaching online. I just had a dream that I missed my first class. I still have not taught my first class. In the dream, I was out driving around then realized the class was about to start (driving at 5 AM/dreams don't make complete sense). I rushed home then tried to log in at 5:05 AM but it wouldn't let me until I took the quiz (I have to take a quiz today). Due to missing the class, they locked me out of the system (I work at home remotely) forever (I was fired!)