[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

What was the first doctor's opinion on your hand?

He wasn’t big on communication skills. He did tell me that I had severely pinched nerves in my hand, elbow and neck and that I needed surgery starting with my hand. I am nowhere near 100% functionality in my dominant hand and would like to know what reasonable expectations are and what the next step is.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m having a better day today. I still want confirmation from my guy that he doesn’t want to continue seeing me just so I can stop wondering but I’m feeling better about it. I’ll send him a text tomorrow just stating that I understand if he doesn’t want to start anything given the challenges he is facing but if he would please let me know that I would appreciate it. Who knows if I’ll get a text back but at least I’ve asserted myself.

My son and I went to ihop to get the grinch pancakes today. I was very patient waiting 20 mins for a table. Usually if it’s crowded I give up and go somewhere else. This is why we eat out at 4:30 on fridays lol. I don’t particularly like ihop but I had some nice blueberry pancakes. Then we went to target to get kitty litter and kitty food and I decided to do our weekly grocery shopping there because I didn’t feel like going to aldi. Plus I only have $72 until Wednesday and I have a target credit card. So I put it on my card and when I get my money from the state on Wednesday I’ll pay off the card again. I’m so thankful I get survivor’s benefits. Without them there would be no way to survive on this salary.

I haven’t had a real cigarette in a week. I wanted to go back to it once I figured out my new guy wasn’t going to text me back since I was doing it for him a little bit but there are plenty of other reasons to quit smoking. Not the least of which being it’s saving me money. Not spending that ten dollars a day is really helping. I have to spend money on vape cartridges for my vape pen but those are less expensive than real cigarettes. And eventually I’ll quit the vape too. Probably in the new year.

I have a frozen meal from Trader Joe’s that I’m going to make tonight, mandarin chicken. My mom says it’s really good. The rest of the meals I’ve gotten from them have been good so I’m hoping this one is too. I have some brown rice I can make on the side. I wish I’d remembered to get broccoli at the store but oh well. I also got Thai curry sauce from Trader Joe’s which is delicious. I’m going to make a stir fry with some chicken thighs and vegetables tomorrow. So excited! Might make chicken and dumplings on Thursday. Will probably make spaghetti on Wednesday after swim lessons. Quick and easy.

I go back to work tomorrow from my four day weekend. I enjoyed sleeping in and spending time with my son but I’m glad to go back. I just hope my student is feeling better and back in school.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

OMG, such a wave of fatigue has hit me just as I finished eating lunch. So tired. Guess it could be the gabapentin as I took my morning meds late. Or stupid PMS.

Phone app has my period starting today, but it sometimes is off a day or 2. And I think I started early last time. The older I get, the worse the PMS getsI tell H I might have a breakdown or get moody because of PMS; he dismisses it like it is nothing. Men should have to go through this, as well as pregnancy and having a baby, oh and then exclusively breastfeeding the baby for 16 months (daughter was slow to take to solids).

My periods disappeard after I got the Mirena IUD. Keeping it in till im 50.

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My periods disappeard after I got the Mirena IUD. Keeping it in till im 50.

I didn't know the IUD stopped periods. Does it have hormones in it?

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

I didn't know the IUD stopped periods. Does it have hormones in it?

The mirena has hormones in it. It doesnt stop everyones periods but it stopped mine. Ive had it for almost 6 years and just have very rare light periods.

There are copper iuds with no hormones but i dont think they stop periods

[Lefty Seven]

The pdoc's been a completely different person in the last dozen consultations. I called my wife into my sessions once I recognized a pattern and needed a corroborating witness. She thought the whole thing was hilarious.

I'm standing by my man. I want to someday warmly greet My pdoc's 24th manifestation and ask it for benzodiazepines.



China, Head of a Bodhisattva, Eastern Wei Period / Northern Qi Period, 535-577 CE, Marble, Height: 13 1/4 inches

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

OMG, such a wave of fatigue has hit me just as I finished eating lunch. So tired. Guess it could be the gabapentin as I took my morning meds late. Or stupid PMS.


Phone app has my period starting today, but it sometimes is off a day or 2. And I think I started early last time. The older I get, the worse the PMS getsI tell H I might have a breakdown or get moody because of PMS; he dismisses it like it is nothing. Men should have to go through this, as well as pregnancy and having a baby, oh and then exclusively breastfeeding the baby for 16 months (daughter was slow to take to solids).

Seems like your always going on and on about your period or maybe it’s because you talk about daughters now too.

Pms is real but there are things than can help.

Moose brought up the IUD certainly a possibility.

Also when I still had to deal with it I would take 3 BC monthly’s in a row skipping the placebos, that practically got rid of my pms.

There are options to at least try

It’s a shame you have so many troubles.

Do some research, you might find some possibilities.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

First massive hugs for taking charge of your life !!!!!

Something that stuck out for me was the bit about his health and that he’s able to take charge and get better..... yes ! I’m glad you made sure it was clear and you are Not his mother. You work hard daily to keep stability with your Bipolar and we all know how tough it is but you Do it !!

As for you making friends and his having a problem with it ? screw him. Having friends outside of relationships are healthy. Being dependent only on a partner is just plain unhealthy for both people.

I hope you continue to love your job and feeling well !! You deserve happiness and your strong ! Never for get that

Thank you ~Christina that really means a lot. He can get better I think he just refuses to. It's a struggle most days to even get up and put on pants for work. Friends are healthy and I forgot what it felt like to have someone compeletly on your side. Thank you I am loving this job and thank you for the strong reminder somedays I don't feel that way.

How are you feeling; haven't seen you post in a couple of days?

[TheSeaCat]

I had a really good day today, Auntie and I went out to lunch it as delicious, then we went to a mall to get new work clothes and Victoria Secret was having a great sale on everything and grabbed another bottle of my favorite perfume. I always get a ton of complements when I wear it. We also went to Kohls and we both got new wintry things for work. I seem to be doing okay with the breakup.

Also I slept extremely well last night, I usually wake up to an annoying alarm and even without the alarm I'm still up around 7 most days to take my meds even with it being a weekend; but today I slept until ten. I also feel really well rested.

Hugs to everyone and thank you for your support!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

The mirena has hormones in it. It doesnt stop everyones periods but it stopped mine. Ive had it for almost 6 years and just have very rare light periods.

There are copper iuds with no hormones but i dont think they stop periods

The copper iud made my periods heavier actually.

[pirilin]

I'm happy. Everything I do comes out better than expected.
If I fall in a pile of manour(sp) I come out smelling like flowers.
And every day is better than the previous.
Maybe I'm not paying attention to the little things.
Maybe I've learned to look for the positive in the negative.
Yeah, I like that saying. Going in my signature right now.

Good luck. Cheers!!!.

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Talk with boyfriend was a nightmare; I was really glad I had Auntie with me; heck I think was madder than I was because she had let him around her kids. He admitted he was jealous of my job; he was mad that I was making more than him when I don't even have my Bachelor's. He was mad that I was making new work friends, he's mad that my therapist is doing such a good job at making me realize what happened at work wasn't my fault. He's mad because I love my new job. He also called me a few names that I will not post here, let's just say one of them started with heartless. I don't see how caring about his asthma and wishing he would take care of himself makes me heartless.

I called my dad and told him and once again I piss off another man. Jeez my father is steamed as a hornet that I would break up with someone who has been there; yes he was there when I spiraled for three months straight but then again I couldn't help it like he can help his health issue. I told him I didn't feel like being his mother and that I have got a lot more to deal with than a jealous man child. I told him to get his crap and go home, to a friend; I honestly don't care. I also texted his mother so she knew precisely what had happened. He want's to ruin my rocky relationship with my father, I'll get momma bear on my side.

I also texted Therapist who was very happy with my decision, he texted back you've surprised me a lot lately. He wants to meet a fourth time next week since the Cardiologist is encroaching and a breakup he's afraid I might try and spiral and he knows I need to keep my shyt together.

I am sick of feeling like a broken china doll being held together with tape. I need some glue.

Hugs to everyone and double hugs to those who pointed out what needed to happen

I will join your cheering bunch and say I am very proud of you. Standing up for yourself can be hard for some of us. A feeling I know first hand too, so extra kudos to you for it. I'm sorry it was rough, but so glad your aunt was there. But YOU DID IT!! You are FREE!!!!! Free to make your own decisions, free to enjoy what you enjoy, free to be YOU!! Congratulations and enjoy!! Let's throw in some more exclamation points !!!!!!!!! This is exciting stuff and definitely empowering.

I'm so happy for you, TheSeaCat.

[Pookyl]

Curled up on the balcony in the sun like a happy ***** cat.
Hubby away for a couple of days for work. He was really stressed about leaving me. Made me promise over and over again that I would ‘behave’.
Best wishes to all.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Curled up on the balcony in the sun like a happy ***** cat.
Hubby away for a couple of days for work. He was really stressed about leaving me. Made me promise over and over again that I would ‘behave’.
Best wishes to all.

Sounds so comfortable on the sunny balcony!

My H also stresses about leaving me when he travels for work. I do miss him, yet I also enjoy the break sometimes.

I hope you can enjoy your time while you hubby is away!


WC

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Curled up on the balcony in the sun like a happy ***** cat.
Hubby away for a couple of days for work. He was really stressed about leaving me. Made me promise over and over again that I would ‘behave’.
Best wishes to all.

H doesn't like to leave me either, especially considering we have our daughter. Right now, as a high school teacher, he doesn't have to travel for work at all. He did leave me with our daughter when his mom passed last year. It took longer than expected to arrange the funeral (because it happened during the holidays, Dec. 28), and my daughter & I were alone a week and a half, 2 weeks. We did OK, but I was happy to have H back at home even though it wasn't a hardship with daily life. We missed him; I think even the cats missed him, as much as they were rubbing up against his luggage and clothes.

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sounds so comfortable on the sunny balcony!

My H also stresses about leaving me when he travels for work. I do miss him, yet I also enjoy the break sometimes.

I hope you can enjoy your time while you hubby is away!


WC

Oh I will enjoy my time indeed 😁😁
The only downside is that he’s organised our 22yr old son to come spend the night and babysit. Huh! Although hanging out with #1 Son will be fun.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I will join your cheering bunch and say I am very proud of you. Standing up for yourself can be hard for some of us. A feeling I know first hand too, so extra kudos to you for it. I'm sorry it was rough, but so glad your aunt was there. But YOU DID IT!! You are FREE!!!!! Free to make your own decisions, free to enjoy what you enjoy, free to be YOU!! Congratulations and enjoy!! Let's throw in some more exclamation points !!!!!!!!! This is exciting stuff and definitely empowering.

I'm so happy for you, TheSeaCat.

Thank you so much, Innerzone! Your post along with many others made me see that something had changed with him and I didn't need to deal with his jealousy. I do feel empowered and I'm happy I made a tough decision. I thought my anxiety would be a lot worse than it is. I can't thank you and everyone else enough.

[~Christina]

Yesterday was just miserable for me between Bipolar , Fibromyalgia , PsA and the weather I just wasn’t fit for much of anything.

Today is better thankfully.

Made an easy dinner of ravioli and meatballs.

Hugs to all that need it

Thanks for asking SeaCat

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Yesterday was just miserable for me between Bipolar , Fibromyalgia , PsA and the weather I just wasn’t fit for much of anything.

Today is better thankfully.

Made an easy dinner of ravioli and meatballs.

Hugs to all that need it

Thanks for asking SeaCat

I'm sorry yesterday was terrible for you. I'm glad to hear you are doing better today.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Yesterday was just miserable for me between Bipolar , Fibromyalgia , PsA and the weather I just wasn’t fit for much of anything.

Today is better thankfully.

Made an easy dinner of ravioli and meatballs.

Hugs to all that need it

Thanks for asking SeaCat

Glad today was a better day. Hopefully tomorrow will treat you good as well.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Slept a little less last night which was good but did have a 2hr nap. Feeling really good. Less alcohol cravings and no physical symptoms today. Cuddled with my youngest and gave him a bath and cut his nails. I have had a hard time keeping up with those types of things for quite a while.

My Dad brought part of supper to our place and I made the other half. It was really great but I let my husband do most of the socializing, I wasnt really feeling like talking.

After I put the kids to bed I watched a show and then painted my nails. I cant even remember the last time I did that. Danced for a while and now listening to happy music in bed. Very positive about how things are going without meds and alcohol so far!

Well, tomorrow's the big day for my ENT appt. Not looking forward to it... AT ALL.

I'm still unsure if I want corrective rhinoplasty, so I feel like cancelling the appt. Then again, maybe they'll say I don't need surgery and they'll give me some natural remedies. Idk. I know the left side of my nose is crushed inward and that I have a very, very slight deviated septum, but maybe their remedies will help me breathe and smell better despite those things. My nose isn't completely crushed on that side anyway. I also don't want to travel in the rain to my appt. It's going to be freezing.

[pirilin]

I'm fine, thank you.
Sleeping little, to compensate for the time lost.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

Slept a little less last night which was good but did have a 2hr nap. Feeling really good. Less alcohol cravings and no physical symptoms today. Cuddled with my youngest and gave him a bath and cut his nails. I have had a hard time keeping up with those types of things for quite a while.

My Dad brought part of supper to our place and I made the other half. It was really great but I let my husband do most of the socializing, I wasnt really feeling like talking.

After I put the kids to bed I watched a show and then painted my nails. I cant even remember the last time I did that. Danced for a while and now listening to happy music in bed. Very positive about how things are going without meds and alcohol so far!

I's good to hear you slept and that the alcohol cravings have lessened. It sounds like you did a lot of self care after you put the kids to bed. That is wonderful.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Well, tomorrow's the big day for my ENT appt. Not looking forward to it... AT ALL.

I'm still unsure if I want corrective rhinoplasty, so I feel like cancelling the appt. Then again, maybe they'll say I don't need surgery and they'll give me some natural remedies. Idk. I know the left side of my nose is crushed inward and that I have a very, very slight deviated septum, but maybe their remedies will help me breathe and smell better despite those things. My nose isn't completely crushed on that side anyway. I also don't want to travel in the rain to my appt. It's going to be freezing.

I hope the ENT appointment goes well. I know what you mean about feeling like cancelling appointments. I always want to cancel lots of my doctor appointments, dentist & optometrist too.

Hopefully, you get the news you want and that your problems can be fixed easily and quickly.