[xxblackrosesxx]

Yes. I had to agree with it. At the end of the day it's about the symptoms and not the diagnosis. I remember being told I have maladaptive behavior too. I had to agree to disagree with that one. It was a very confusing time for me. When receiving the wrong treatment with wrong meds I just spiral down. Down down down until I got sent to hospital. Got put on an antidepressant and went up up up. My diagnosises were wiped clean with bipolar. Went on the right treatment and I was back to me again. With the BPD treatment I was very extreme with no mood stabiliser. I was only given the diagnosis because I've cut my wrist badly once resulting in stitches and they said it was maladaptive behavior too since I was upset especially with what my head was saying. What lead to me cutting that evening was being up a few days straight. No sleep, my head was shouting at me... Wasn't eating and it kinda felt like I blacked out when I did it. I felt nothing when it happened. That's how I received the diagnose of BPD. I've never been to get stitches again since because that night was just a moment of hell. As far as I'm aware bpd is repeated moments like this.. I certainly didn't have the same intensity of emotions when hurt or something. It felt unfair because I had moments of stability and maladaptive behavior just carries on regardless. I'm not even aggressive or react in such a way if someone may be upsetting me but I have been upset about people not believing me since they think I loose touch with reality. But that's a small portion of my story.

[MickeyCheeky]

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