[tecomsin]

It's hard to write this for some reason. I feel that I am in a paralyzed state of inaction and indecision. Part of it is that I have really regretted some decisions I have made.

I am wondering if others have experienced this and what you did to get your confidence and will to action back.

[Scooter9]

I still feel like this. I just start small with attainable goals.

I write down what I want to accomplish and make it something I can easily see. I have to be able to do it in some reasonable time too. Could be as simple as calling the pharmacy for a refill.

Then I do it and write about how I feel about the results. Over time I look back at the results and see how I felt. It's good to see progress.

I just kept on doing this and I was able to gradually do bigger things that took longer to do. I don't write as often now but I remind myself that I'm reaching goals and getting things done.

[tecomsin]

Thank you Scooter9, that is quite helpful. So far today I did a load of laundry, brushed my teeth and made a protein/kefir shake to eat for breakfast, which is about all I can get down before my appetite kicks in around 4 to 5 pm. I can get myself to the grocery store often enough to have some relatively healthy food at home to eat and I am meeting with friends/acquaintances 2 or 3 times a week if I push myself, but I don't have any life goals, except to lose 5 or 10 more pounds and do my shoulder exercises.

I need to call physio and go to the bank to deposit some checks. Maybe tomorrow.

[Wild Coyote]

I've done a lot of damage in my life from feeling totally paralyzed. I have missed important deadlines, have missed important events, have ignored self-care, etc.

Much of this "hit home" yesterday in a very big way. I am trying to find a way to forgive myself and ways to move forward.

Thanks for this thread, tecomsin.

WC

[Scooter9]

Sounds like you got a lot done, good for you!

Every bit helps. You got this!