[cashart10]

I won’t go into too much of my day. I posted that on my thread. But I bickered with the hubs when I got home over who was taking my son to Boy Scouts. I usually do it but had the day from hell and Tues is a bad night for my husband because of his work/sleep schedule. We finally decided to just keep him home this week. I also got take out instead of cooking. I just wasn’t having it. And, I made a deal with the hubs that if I did homework/studying for spelling tests, he’d do the dishes and tidy up. Now, I’ve taken all my night meds and 4 of them are pretty sedating so I imagine I’ll be getting tired and falling asleep soon.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by Franann

New here, not sure how forums and posting work here

Welcome!!! 😍

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone and happy Tuesday I had another day of mostly being away from my office today. The meeting with the Housekeeping Super was downright awful. She honestly had zero respect towards me which honestly made me hate her the moment I met her. She's like you honestly are to young to be a manager and the boss is stupid for trusting you to partially run a clinic; besides it's not our fault you have delicate skin and had a reaction to our cleaners. It was so bad I had to involve boss to discuss the issue at hand since it was obvious she had no respect for me. I don't really care what she thought of me. I just wanted to know why they used what they used and where everything was used. I also wanted better answers but still that is well within my means to know and have meetings.

Oh well instead of dealing with her I got to deal with a nursing problem and checking in and making sure the nurses are happy and what suggestions they have. I am a very interactive boss so it's nice having those check ins. We need more nurses so I am dealing with reading applications and getting opinions from the actual nurses on their thoughts. Which is very helpful to me.

I am doing very well heart wise; I think he has nailed my medication and it feels nice to know that the medication is working. My pulse ox showed a 92 today. I was shocked that I'm so very close to being in the 80's it's not even funny. I feel really happy with the numbers I have been seeing; not to mention I'm feeling better on the medication if that makes sense.

Hugs to everyone

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

She's like you honestly are to young to be a manager and the boss is stupid for trusting you to partially run a clinic;

Hugs to everyone

Glad your heartrate is better. I have mild tachycardia from clozapine and it's annoying. I'm glad it isn't worse.

Being young and in authority can be really hard or really funny. At my first post-master's job I was supervising 3 or 4 people who were 5-10 years older than me. I'd been there a while when my assistant got a phone call for "that girl who helps out in therapy". He laughed and laughed explaining I was his supervisor. I also once had a patient tell me "You are 12 and you may NOT tell me what to do". (I was 25 but looked young). I had to have an assistant sit there and I'd tell the assistant what I needed and she'd get the patient to do it and I'd make a note then repeat. It was funny but sometimes got old in those first years. I guess try to laugh as much as you can and ignore the rest.

[Wander]

I am so damn happy. HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!!! Yet still having dark thoughts. Is that even a thing?
I am still IP for the dark thoughts and now med change. Yet, I want to run and play and shop but they wont even let me out on escourted leave. BOO!! Well I guess it has only been for an hour. I think my med change set it off. Started Geodon last night night. Woke up severely hungover and slept another two hours. Then I did only ten minutes of Yoga and I was set on fire by the activity. What has happened to me? Whatever it is I love it. Well as long as the dark thoughts go away as energy plus them = disaster. The nurses are keeping a close eye on me so don't worry. My Mum has also taken my cash and credit card from me so I can't by stupid things I don't want or need, plus bing on the snack machines.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Glad your heartrate is better. I have mild tachycardia from clozapine and it's annoying. I'm glad it isn't worse.

Being young and in authority can be really hard or really funny. At my first post-master's job I was supervising 3 or 4 people who were 5-10 years older than me. I'd been there a while when my assistant got a phone call for "that girl who helps out in therapy". He laughed and laughed explaining I was his supervisor. I also once had a patient tell me "You are 12 and you may NOT tell me what to do". (I was 25 but looked young). I had to have an assistant sit there and I'd tell the assistant what I needed and she'd get the patient to do it and I'd make a note then repeat. It was funny but sometimes got old in those first years. I guess try to laugh as much as you can and ignore the rest.

Oh I have been there, too! Supervising people older than me. I totally felt like an impostor. It was actually not a great experience and I was sort of picked on, although not really by the people I directly supervised, more like the other people I dealt with and my supervisors. I thought at the time I just didn't have the skills and was too sensitive, but in retrospect the problem was not really just with me. TheSeaCat hang in there!

[yellow_fleurs]

Went swimming today with a friend and feeling good form that. We made plans to swim twice a week from now on. Now I am energized and up too late, although I also had a little caffeine.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Went swimming today with a friend and feeling good form that. We made plans to swim twice a week from now on. Now I am energized and up too late, although I also had a little caffeine.

That sounds like a really good plan. I’m glad it was beneficial to your well being.

[Sunflower123]

I had planned to meet my daughter half way for lunch today. I couldn’t manage that and have been on the couch all day. You know it’s not a good day for me when it involves my daughter and I can’t do it. Feeling a bit better now. I have a busy day tomorrow with several appointments/events. I think tomorrow will be better and I’ll meet her on Thursday.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I think my 5 year old fridge is dying.

File under things I do not need.....

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Oh I have been there, too! Supervising people older than me. I totally felt like an impostor. It was actually not a great experience and I was sort of picked on, although not really by the people I directly supervised, more like the other people I dealt with and my supervisors. I thought at the time I just didn't have the skills and was too sensitive, but in retrospect the problem was not really just with me. TheSeaCat hang in there!

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Glad your heartrate is better. I have mild tachycardia from clozapine and it's annoying. I'm glad it isn't worse.

Being young and in authority can be really hard or really funny. At my first post-master's job I was supervising 3 or 4 people who were 5-10 years older than me. I'd been there a while when my assistant got a phone call for "that girl who helps out in therapy". He laughed and laughed explaining I was his supervisor. I also once had a patient tell me "You are 12 and you may NOT tell me what to do". (I was 25 but looked young). I had to have an assistant sit there and I'd tell the assistant what I needed and she'd get the patient to do it and I'd make a note then repeat. It was funny but sometimes got old in those first years. I guess try to laugh as much as you can and ignore the rest.

Thank you both for your comment. I usually get it from patients so I'm kinda used to the you are to young for your job comment; it just kinda stunned me hearing it come from another manager. Ironically the actual staff has never had a problem with me. I usually laugh when a patient tells me to go play in the sandbox and let an adult deal with their problem. I can usually stand my ground or at least lie about my age to get my point across and deal with their issue. I just thought it was so weird that the housekeeping super wanted to insult my age.

[Wander]

OMG, I am so, so happy!!!!! I feel invincible. Unfortunately the nurses hold me back. I must make my escape.

[Pookyl]

Mood up and I don’t care. I can still control it so I’m not worried. My head feels like I’ve been drinking. I miss drinking.
Bipolar has turned me into such a micromanaging goody two shoes. I’m seeing my pdoc next week. I’ve got time to have some fun.

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hello everyone and happy Tuesday I had another day of mostly being away from my office today. The meeting with the Housekeeping Super was downright awful. She honestly had zero respect towards me which honestly made me hate her the moment I met her. She's like you honestly are to young to be a manager and the boss is stupid for trusting you to partially run a clinic; besides it's not our fault you have delicate skin and had a reaction to our cleaners. It was so bad I had to involve boss to discuss the issue at hand since it was obvious she had no respect for me. I don't really care what she thought of me. I just wanted to know why they used what they used and where everything was used. I also wanted better answers but still that is well within my means to know and have meetings.

Oh well instead of dealing with her I got to deal with a nursing problem and checking in and making sure the nurses are happy and what suggestions they have. I am a very interactive boss so it's nice having those check ins. We need more nurses so I am dealing with reading applications and getting opinions from the actual nurses on their thoughts. Which is very helpful to me.

I am doing very well heart wise; I think he has nailed my medication and it feels nice to know that the medication is working. My pulse ox showed a 92 today. I was shocked that I'm so very close to being in the 80's it's not even funny. I feel really happy with the numbers I have been seeing; not to mention I'm feeling better on the medication if that makes sense.

Hugs to everyone

Nothing like having a patient thinking you’re too young. The phrase “are you really actually old enough to do this?” was a common one.

[wildflowerchild25]

Is anyone else’s first thought in the morning

Possible trigger:

I wish I could just kill myself and/or cut myself

? Mine was yesterday and today. And I want to cry. I don’t know how I’m gonna get through the day

I'm feeling better! I did more cleaning that's i've been procrastinating on. My home gets yet more tidy! I was actually having such a hard time doing my chores that i looked into having a cleaning lady in. But now i don't have to! Is the Wellbutrin kicking in? It's the third week... Or the warmer temps? A combination? Whatever. Just glad that smothering depression has passed.

[Victoria'smom]

wildflowerchild25 that's how I've been feeling for months I just recently am starting an anti-depressant.

[Scooter9]

Not as low as yesterday. Feeling a little better.

I'm not taking good care of myself lately. I need to eat better and try to walk or something.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Is anyone else’s first thought in the morning

Possible trigger:

I wish I could just kill myself and/or cut myself

? Mine was yesterday and today. And I want to cry. I don’t know how I’m gonna get through the day

Yes. I awaken crying and

Possible trigger:

feel like I just want to die

I hear you.


WC

[wildflowerchild25]

Well I made it through the day. Suffered with self harm thoughts for a good portion of the morning then settled into the numb depression of yesterday. I don’t know what my problem is. I’m so frustrated. It’s like a damn light switch. All of a sudden I wake up and I’m plunged into darkness. No trigger that I can see. I hate it. I just want normalcy.

I never started the emsam that my dr gave me last month because I felt better from the increase in haldol. Now I think I’m going to start it but I have to wait three days because I’ve been taking a decongestant and they have a severe interaction with MAOIs. It’ll take about three days for the decongestant to get completely out of my system. I see my pdoc on Tuesday so maybe I should hold off and ask him when I see him. I don’t know if I can do this for that long though. I’m already getting self harm and suicidal thoughts.

I’m such a ****ing baby. Some of you suffer with depression for months and after two days I’m like wah wah I want to die. I don’t know why I’m so dramatic.