[Lefty Seven]

Wars and rumors of wars. My wife and her mother are going to Tokyo in three weeks to confront precipitous crime family politics. I've been asked not to come along to avoid thoroughly embarrassing everyone.

In local news, I found where they've been hiding the cooking sake.

[winter loneliness]

Tomorrow? I shower! Was going to today but I missed my doctor's appt. So, tomorrow I will shower and even touch up my grey roots.

[TheSeaCat]

Hi everyone; I'm so tired from the past couple of days. Monday was a nightmare and Tuesday wasn't much better; in terms of being able to be in my office. I'm starting to really miss my office. I've hardly seen it since Monday. I also miss my desk chair. I think I might be a little spoiled. I was dealing with interviews all day and right before I was supposed to leave for the day reception tracked me down and their was of course an issue to deal with that kept me over my usual time. Still I didn't really miss anything and I'm a workaholic anyway. I wore flats today and everyone gave me a healthly dose of crap for being outside of heels.

Even at bible study M's mom joked about it. Like aren't you a tiny little thing; no wonder you love heels. She's still super sweet thought; my feet were just toast after the past couple of days so it was a flat day since I couldn't wear scrubs becuase of the interviews. So I should totally be able to wear scrubs tomorrow and let me feet have a break with my sneakers. The need a break.

After bible study we went out with R, L, G, and his wife for trivia night and drinks and dinner. Which was really fun. We also won trivia night which was awesome. Granted a doctor; Nurse; Three PA's and one me makes for a pretty good team. Also sounds like a bad joke setup.

Hugs to everyone

[Victoria'smom]

I can't ****en swallow pills. I'm already stressing about tomorrow. My husband says he'll crush it up for me but I ask him for so much already.

[Pookyl]

Coming down slowly from my elevated mood.
Did all the right things despite not wanting to take PRN’s, not wanting to sleep or eat. I also managed to not drink. I washed all the linen in the house instead.
And boy do I have verbal diarrhoea!! My agoraphobia is also temporarily gone - I’m talking to random strangers in the street - maybe not a good idea in my neighbourhood.

[wildflowerchild25]

I want to smoke so badly. But my boyfriend hates cigarette smoke. Dammit.

I'm going to the second of two prospective psychologists (therapists) for the first time today. I've seen the other twice so far. The first is nice. She seems better than the social worker I had been seeing for six months, but she hasn't exactly wowed me (or anything even close to that). The psychologist I see today seems to have a very good resume. I sort of hope she works out. This one I see today is located close to where my husband works and not too far from my dad's house. That obviously has some benefits. I could visit them before or after my appointments. We'll see. It's not easy "two timing" because eventually I will have to quit one of them. I hate burning bridges, too.

I desperately need to shower, too.

There are so darned many road closures for road/bridge repairs. I'll have to drive a longer route to this psychologist than I would normally. There is even a closure scheduled on the route to the other psychologist's office, but I found the alternative route perhaps is better anyway.

[251turnaround]

I can't tell if I'm manic or not. I'm doing weird stuff that is totally out of the norm for me. Tarot and spirit summoning, that kind of stuff.

I might be hearing things too, mumbles and sounds. I had a really bad night a couple days ago and I haven't been that terrified over paranormal stuff before. I'm an atheist and a skeptic normally, so this is definitely weird for me.

In short, I'm not doing well.

[Nammu]

Another snow day here. Everything is closed. A day to sit around in pjs! Monday I had planned to call the hair dresser to get an appointment to cut and color my hair, glad I forgot. It snowed Tuesday, yesterday was more of a mix but today it's really coming down. Hate driving in that stuff. Wish I could afford to be a two home person. One here in the summer and one in Hawaii in the winter.

[Daonnachd]

Reading. Checking in with everybody. I don't have anything to say about myself though. Not in a sad way, just the fact that nothing interesting is happening.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Another snow day here. Everything is closed. A day to sit around in pjs! Monday I had planned to call the hair dresser to get an appointment to cut and color my hair, glad I forgot. It snowed Tuesday, yesterday was more of a mix but today it's really coming down. Hate driving in that stuff. Wish I could afford to be a two home person. One here in the summer and one in Hawaii in the winter.

It’s sunny and 77 here today. I’ve been outside working in the yard. It’s very windy which I love. If I can’t have snow...I’ll take this. Enjoy your snow day!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

It’s sunny and 77 here today. I’ve been outside working in the yard. It’s very windy which I love. If I can’t have snow...I’ll take this. Enjoy your snow day!

Sounds lovely! Enjoy!

[wildflowerchild25]

Day from absolute hell. Girl got off the bus covered in vomit, had to change her and wash her clothes. Sat behind her on the mat holding her forward in case she vomited again. Killed my back. Had to sit her in a wheelchair that wasn’t her own, called a rifton chair, more like a regular chair with small wheels. Not very maneuverable. Nurses gave me **** about her chair when I brought her down for her feed. Get a call at 12:30 saying her mom was there to pick her up. Her diaper hasn’t been changed, she’s still in the school clothes because we haven’t changed her back into her own clothes (which we washed) yet, still in the rifton chair, etc etc. we rush to change her, then the teacher comes back and says no, she’s not actually going home, the ****ing BUS DRIVER called the mom and told her to come pick her up. None of the bus driver’s damn business. She’s throwing up because of her tube feed, not because she’s sick. Well I might as well get her changed now right? So I change her, set her up in her regular wheelchair, get her all set to go home. Fire drill. Wtf right? We come back in, I get her coat on her. Bell rings, go outside, wait for the bus. Of course, she coughs, then starts vomiting all over her coat. Thank god the teacher and the other aide were standing near me. I rush to get gloves on and turn her head. The aide rushes in to get wipes and a medical pad called a chuck. We clean her up as the bus is pulling up. Then we get yelled at by the bus driver and the nurse (who is there for another student, not even mine) for letting her vomit. Like wtf? Like I control it? She’s new to the tube feeding, they haven’t worked all the kinks out, it’s not my fault and frankly not my problem.

Now I’m at the dr about to get a painful test to see if they can do the RF ablation or not. So fun. I just need to go home and take a nice hot shower. Seriously. A nice hot shower and a nice dinner with my son and boyfriend.

Oh and I bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked like half of it already. Will have to apologize to BF for that.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Reading. Checking in with everybody. I don't have anything to say about myself though. Not in a sad way, just the fact that nothing interesting is happening.

It's always a pleasure to have you around!
I miss you when you are away or simply not commenting.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Day from absolute hell. Girl got off the bus covered in vomit, had to change her and wash her clothes. Sat behind her on the mat holding her forward in case she vomited again. Killed my back. Had to sit her in a wheelchair that wasn’t her own, called a rifton chair, more like a regular chair with small wheels. Not very maneuverable. Nurses gave me **** about her chair when I brought her down for her feed. Get a call at 12:30 saying her mom was there to pick her up. Her diaper hasn’t been changed, she’s still in the school clothes because we haven’t changed her back into her own clothes (which we washed) yet, still in the rifton chair, etc etc. we rush to change her, then the teacher comes back and says no, she’s not actually going home, the ****ing BUS DRIVER called the mom and told her to come pick her up. None of the bus driver’s damn business. She’s throwing up because of her tube feed, not because she’s sick. Well I might as well get her changed now right? So I change her, set her up in her regular wheelchair, get her all set to go home. Fire drill. Wtf right? We come back in, I get her coat on her. Bell rings, go outside, wait for the bus. Of course, she coughs, then starts vomiting all over her coat. Thank god the teacher and the other aide were standing near me. I rush to get gloves on and turn her head. The aide rushes in to get wipes and a medical pad called a chuck. We clean her up as the bus is pulling up. Then we get yelled at by the bus driver and the nurse (who is there for another student, not even mine) for letting her vomit. Like wtf? Like I control it? She’s new to the tube feeding, they haven’t worked all the kinks out, it’s not my fault and frankly not my problem.

Now I’m at the dr about to get a painful test to see if they can do the RF ablation or not. So fun. I just need to go home and take a nice hot shower. Seriously. A nice hot shower and a nice dinner with my son and boyfriend.

Oh and I bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked like half of it already. Will have to apologize to BF for that.

YIKES!
I hope the rest of the day goes much better!

WC

I’m hoping today is just an off day because I don’t feel right. Mentally, something is changing and I can feel it. I just don’t know if it’ll go away by the end of today or if it’ll end up being something bad.

I created a thread this afternoon titled "I'm flabbergasted..." I won't say anything more about that.

When I got home there was a message from my dad. I called him back and he seemed to be feeling a lot better. I think he's managed to get past his alcohol withdrawals on his own. Anyway, he said his friend is going to take him to his first AA meeting this week. I'm so relieved! I hope that helps him. I said to my dad, and my sister really agreed, that he is the type that would likely really enjoy AA. He's a social animal and AA is definitely a great place to socialize. He also loves to talk and tell stories. AA is a great place for that, too. Unlike me, he probably won't mind the religious aspect of it. He's not particularly religious, but he can "become" religious if it means some fun and socializing.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I created a thread this afternoon titled "I'm flabbergasted..." I won't say anything more about that.

When I got home there was a message from my dad. I called him back and he seemed to be feeling a lot better. I think he's managed to get past his alcohol withdrawals on his own. Anyway, he said his friend is going to take him to his first AA meeting this week. I'm so relieved! I hope that helps him. I said to my dad, and my sister really agreed, that he is the type that would likely really enjoy AA. He's a social animal and AA is definitely a great place to socialize. He also loves to talk and tell stories. AA is a great place for that, too. Unlike me, he probably won't mind the religious aspect of it. He's not particularly religious, but he can "become" religious if it means some fun and socializing.

Great news!

Many people truly benefit from AA programs without getting into the "spiritual" aspect. It's traditional that if someone does not "believe in a Higher Power," that the person simply accept the fact that his/her sponsor believes. There is no requirement that every participant believe in anything.

It does sound like your dad might be a good match for the AA program. This is very exciting and I am sure this gives you some hope for your dad's recovery.

I have many alcoholic family members and I recall the excitement and the hope that filled my heart when they'd attended their first AA meeting.

I hope this is a great match for your dad!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I’m hoping today is just an off day because I don’t feel right. Mentally, something is changing and I can feel it. I just don’t know if it’ll go away by the end of today or if it’ll end up being something bad.

It can sometimes feel a bit disconcerting when we feel like something is shifting. Hang in there and practice good self-care.

We are here for you, Blue!

WC

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Day from absolute hell. Girl got off the bus covered in vomit, had to change her and wash her clothes. Sat behind her on the mat holding her forward in case she vomited again. Killed my back. Had to sit her in a wheelchair that wasn’t her own, called a rifton chair, more like a regular chair with small wheels. Not very maneuverable. Nurses gave me **** about her chair when I brought her down for her feed. Get a call at 12:30 saying her mom was there to pick her up. Her diaper hasn’t been changed, she’s still in the school clothes because we haven’t changed her back into her own clothes (which we washed) yet, still in the rifton chair, etc etc. we rush to change her, then the teacher comes back and says no, she’s not actually going home, the ****ing BUS DRIVER called the mom and told her to come pick her up. None of the bus driver’s damn business. She’s throwing up because of her tube feed, not because she’s sick. Well I might as well get her changed now right? So I change her, set her up in her regular wheelchair, get her all set to go home. Fire drill. Wtf right? We come back in, I get her coat on her. Bell rings, go outside, wait for the bus. Of course, she coughs, then starts vomiting all over her coat. Thank god the teacher and the other aide were standing near me. I rush to get gloves on and turn her head. The aide rushes in to get wipes and a medical pad called a chuck. We clean her up as the bus is pulling up. Then we get yelled at by the bus driver and the nurse (who is there for another student, not even mine) for letting her vomit. Like wtf? Like I control it? She’s new to the tube feeding, they haven’t worked all the kinks out, it’s not my fault and frankly not my problem.

Now I’m at the dr about to get a painful test to see if they can do the RF ablation or not. So fun. I just need to go home and take a nice hot shower. Seriously. A nice hot shower and a nice dinner with my son and boyfriend.

Oh and I bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked like half of it already. Will have to apologize to BF for that.

You are so strong I really enjoy your posts and wish I knew you irl, lol. I had a disc rupture in 2008. Had to have back surgery on it as I couldn't move. My gp didn't believe me when I first went in bc of back pain and within a week it ruptured. I now have permanent damage in that half of my left calf and foot are numb. Surgeon said it was the worst ruptured disc he'd seen in 10 yrs. So I relate to your back problems.

Also my vape stopped working and now I've been smoking again. Ugh! Gonna go get a new e cig on Saturday. Really can't afford it but have to.

So sorry about your day.

[Scooter9]

My mother is having major surgery tomorrow. Recovery is going to be weeks.

I'm in support mode now. Just trying to do what I can to keep things moving along smoothly.

I "sold" a number of copies of my new book. It's free at the moment and the feedback is good so far. I'll see if sales continue after the promotion ends tomorrow, but I'll be focused on helping my mother for a number of days.

I'm glad I finished it before her surgery.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

My mother is having major surgery tomorrow. Recovery is going to be weeks.

I'm in support mode now. Just trying to do what I can to keep things moving along smoothly.

I "sold" a number of copies of my new book. It's free at the moment and the feedback is good so far. I'll see if sales continue after the promotion ends tomorrow, but I'll be focused on helping my mother for a number of days.

I'm glad I finished it before her surgery.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

What is your book about, if you don't mind me asking?

LOVE AND PRAYERS FOR YOUR MOM AND YOUR FAMILY.


WC

I got my dog groomed today! My precious! It's quite an ordeal as she is so very nervous when she gets groomed and it's quite a project for me getting her there and back. I also got her a better Winter coat so dressing her will be easier. I know this may not sound like much for those who are working and raising families and busy, busy, busy but it's a big deal for me as i don't do anything more ambitious than taking the bus a short hop to the local mall when i'm depressed.


Still feeling a little better tho mood-wise. I got up at a reasonable hour and took a shower. I'm thinking now it's more the improvement in the weather than the Wellbutrin increase kicking in. I slept for 11.5 hours last night and when i started the Wellbutrin in October i was sleeping short nights, about five hours.


Hugs to all who need them!

[wildflowerchild25]

I feel much better now that I’ve got some nicotine in me. So my depression was yet again nicotine induced. So I’m hoping now that I know that’s what it is, I’ll be able to hold out and let it pass. I’ve got RS to help me through. I hope that I’ll be able to get off the nicotine by just waiting it out.

In other news my back pain is actually better after that procedure so maybe I’ll be able to have the RF ablation instead of surgery and get some relief.

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

CONGRATULATIONS!!!


What is your book about, if you don't mind me asking?


LOVE AND PRAYERS FOR YOUR MOM AND YOUR FAMILY.




WC

Thanks, WC

It's about astronomy, non-fiction and semi technical.

It's pretty specialized but the topic has a good following and new people gaining interest all the time.