[wiretwister]

I am not sure if depression or medication but I have no passion for anything in my life ...

not even life it's self interests me ... just wondering if I am the only one ... Tigger ..

don't have any advice, just that I've been there and I know how hard it can be. Hope things turn around for you.

[cashart10]

Hope you are feeling better soon.

I can completely relate! Meds have dulled me. My family says this is what normal feels like. I really do miss the euphoria tho. The only thing I'm passionate about now is politics and music somewhat.

Before meds I used to read like 5 different books at a time. Since meds I've read like 16. It sucks! I totally understand.

[~Christina]

Can relate 100% , feeling the same so I lack any useful advice

[BipolaRNurse]

I know the feeling all too well. I miss my fire and passion for life, and sometimes I toy with the idea of going off my meds just to get some of it back. Then I think about what I was like before meds---the horrific rages, the wild manias, the black depressions---and realize that stable really is better. I just don't understand so-called "normal" people; how can they NOT get depressed or feel like they want to die or get super excited about nothing?? I have this one friend who has never in her life been depressed for even a minute---what's up with that?

I have nothing beyond theme parks (researching them and finding out about them), not actually going to them

[yellow_fleurs]

Yes, depression makes me feel this way as does boredom with my routine or not finding meaning in it. Since my depression is somewhat better at the moment I am trying to find new activities to at least become interested in, even if I cannot find a lot of passion.

I am certain your passion will eventually return to varying degrees. I know what you're feeling, though. I think some medications can be contributing factors, but in my case, depressed mood was the main one. Either way, do work with both your psychiatrist and therapist to get passed this. Sometimes it passes slowly, and sometimes quickly.

I am feeling very stable these days. I do feel I have a passion for certain things, but I recognize that manic elated passion is not something I should aim for as a norm. That doesn't mean we can't have special moments in our lives that rival that, yet still qualify as stable.

[JanusunaJ]

I can empathize with you. It's an odd, ineffable feeling. Hope you find something again soon.

[Wander]

Did it start with new meds? Still, I have periods like this with no med change. It is awful. So sorry. You should not have to live without passion. I really hope your brain switches into a stable but passionate state soon.

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by Wander

Did it start with new meds? Still, I have periods like this with no med change. It is awful. So sorry. You should not have to live without passion. I really hope your brain switches into a stable but passionate state soon.

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be truthful it has been so long I do not remember ... pretty girls ... flashy cars ... nothing ...

not even anger ... a real bummer ...

[FriendlyJoe]

Originally Posted by wiretwister

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be truthful it has been so long I do not remember ... pretty girls ... flashy cars ... nothing ...


not even anger ... a real bummer ...

I bought a nice house, 3 BMWs, i go shopping, and nothing interests me. When I go places people will compliment on how nice my car is, I smile and fake like i like the compliment but it's just a car to me. Drove a new Ferrari and it was meh. Went out with beautiful women and felt nothing. Hobbies are work but I always keep a few large projects at my house to keep me at home and dont go out driving like a mad man. I probably shouldn't have gotten a twin turbo since reckless driving is a bipolar trait.

Now all i do now is work, and that's the only thing that interests me which is sad. Work shouldn't be the highlight of anyone's life. Trying to get into volunteering now but it's really a struggle like if I'm asked to watch the grass grow.

I've been this way for so long I don't think anything made me happy. Only time I'd actually get into something was when I'd have my manic episodes. Then i was rocking and rolling doing all kinds of things. But it wasnt really enjoyment but an out of control state I couldn't control. I'd have to say when I get extremely manic is the only time I get a desire to do stuff. But after a week to a few months I'd be back to where I was again.

You're not alone. It's just who I am and apparently others are the same way. Just trying to deal with it one way or another.