lack of feeling and emotion

most days I struggle with just feeling something. just anything. when depressed I can't muster any emotion or feelings. I even get apathetic and desensitized by people, events, drama or even the news. when I get news about family members, who are for example, ill or struggling, I tend to not even be concerned or care. I know that sounds very harsh but I'm not that type of person. it really bothers me and it sends me into deeper depression. I really hate when I go thru these cycles. does anyone have any suggestions regarding feeling emotion-less? or not caring? I could use some help in that regard. thanks

You're describing a real thing so I wouldn't judge myself too harshly.

I, too, would be interested in tips for dealing with anhedonia. Joy is an emotion that I feel maybe once a year. I don't laugh as much as I used to. I don't know if it the medication or the chronic mild depression I deal with.

What i have learned has been to recount things that I am grateful for upon going to sleep and upon waking. I have tried self-compassion. I am embracing mindfulness, which I used to think was silly but it actually seems to help me. It takes practice though. By doing these things I feel like I am taking hold of something and that helps me feel emotions.

genuine joy is very hard for me to come by as well. even when I'm engaging in activities that should bring pleasure and excitement. I do practice mindfulness whenever I can. it is something that I learned in CBT group. but I will definitely practice gratitude thinking more often. that's a great idea. I appreciate the feedback. thank you!

no helpful advice ... walking in your shoes already ...

I understand that problem. It comes on when depressed or deeply traumatised. During depression it can be hard to break through. Don’t beat yourself up over this. It will lift once you become well enough again. And you will. Hang in there and relish the tiny moments you are able to feel. I wish I had better words to say and could help you. Sending hugs.

Thanks so much for reaching out. It means a lot, really.

Make difficult but achievable goals that benefits you in a positive way. Keep going forward from there, then you become a master in what you're striving for. You're so focused that it really limits those moments of feeling nothing and they end quickly too.

That's what I've been doing for the past 2 years. I want to be CEO.