[Blueberrybook]

I don't even know if this post has a point other than just a general update.

It seems the GI doctor doesn't think I can even halfway eat myself out of this iron deficiency anemia, so he told me to stop my current iron pill and is prescribing a higher dose for twice a day instead of once. Biopsies from the upper endoscopy were normal, colonoscopy normal. Now, I have to do a capsule endoscopy and get an abdominal ultrasound. Oh, yeah, and he sent me back to get another CBC. He did seem to think I might need an iron infusion, depending on how the bloodwork comes back, but if I'm still around my last level of hemoglobin (significant anemia but not dire), he doesn't prescribe it. I have to see the hematologist for that, and my appt. with the hematologist isn't until May 7, so another week or 2 of just feeling plain run down and exhausted.... I am going to be doing nothing but seeing doctors and getting procedures done for most of May, it seems...sigh.

In the meantime, I've told my pdoc I've been down, depressed, frustrated, more anxious with more panic attacks (can't even walk daily, just no energy, and I used to run daily quite a distance, too far, yes, but the first 3-4 miles of running did just plain help anxiety (which was where I needed to stop, but ED and all that...) My pdoc says he's not going to mess with any of my meds until the anemia issue gets figured out, I guess unless I get suicidal or crazy manic or something.

And I'm anxious with all this testing, bloodwork, dealing with insurance referrals, prior authorizations, stupid mail order pharmacy not mailing out Wellbutrin though it was marked to come with everything else. Guess at least it's not Adderall, as I was able to get loaners from my local pharmacy since I've been on Wellbutrin many years. I have spent way too many hours on the phone with the insurance company and the drug insurance company, often being routed around in circles.

So life isn't the greatest for me right now. I can't keep up with threads here, can't concentrate much, fluctuate between depressed/hypomanic/anxious/full out panic attack. T is off this week, but I'll see her again next Tuesday. She seems to be the only one doing anything helpful right now. Well, I hope these labs and tests will pan out to a diagnosis, but God only knows when that will happen.

I haven't felt so tired, drained, out of it, brain foggy (worse than normal fibro brain fog) for ages. Throw in balance issues, eating the refrigerator ice maker out of ice because of iron anemia pica every day, ugh. I used to at least have to have a bit to drink with ice, now I can just eat crushed ice chips, glass after glass, it's crazy.

I am so sorry to be of little support or help to anyone here right now. Just wallowing in my own sorrows I guess, and I have no one to talk to who understands all of it - the bipolar, the panic disorder, the ED, the iron anemia and pica, beyond frustrating.

[Travelinglady]

We all take turns helping and then getting help, so please don't feel bad that it's your turn to need help. I hope things will be better for you before too long. Let us know how things are going.

[Blueberrybook]

Thanks. Waiting to see what the CBC from yesterday shows. Very tired and having awful outdoor allergies today.

Lots of waiting for me, and I suck at waiting.