Physical Check-In

I blew my carbs today pretty badly. Oh well, start again tomorrow. I will be under calories.

I’m frustrated because I stayed under calories all week and still ended up gaining two pounds. This is why I don’t stick to counting calories for long. This is my traditional period week, although I haven’t gotten my period since I started my new birth control. I wonder if my body still goes through pms, with the bloating and everything. I did feel irritable yesterday, although that could be part of depression as well. I don’t know. I will keep trying!

Hi fern!

It would be much easier, I think if they would give me clear information. I am kind of between a rock and a hard place. I need the info they have and they do not know if I am "me" and am entitled to the info. Or am I the one who has hijacked someone else's ID?

I need this sorted out more than ever. I am somewhat paralyzed, as so much depends upon having one's own ID, especially when going through a divorce..

I need to know some of what is going on in order to take the most correct/helpful action. I might just have to take a shot in the dark.

I am sorry for all your mom has gone through. I have always heard it takes an tremendous amount of patience in order to cope with all of the fallout from ID theft.. ( I need my own, my very own, ID as I transition through the financial parts of the divorce.)

My med adjustments are ongoing and take a lot out of me. I tell both doctors and they think they are doing well to simply wait for one another to make a change for me, taking turns. I often remind them that although they are each taking turns, I do not get a break. I am the monkey in the middle, so to speak.

Thanks for your ongoing love and support!

My apologies! I think I have taken things way off topic! I did not notice which thread I was reading/writing in. My apologies!

Your fingers got an excellent workout typing all of that out. We'll count it as physical

I had gotten quite a laugh myself when I had first discovered your post!
I have laughed several times since, when your post comes to mind.

Thank you for transforming" the mess" (my mind's tale) into a humorous moment!

It is truly amazing what a difference even a moment of humor can make!

Thank you!

My Asthma is still being a bloody jerk.

I am being referred to a GI for my liver, my enzymes are elevated and it first started in May, I already know I have a fatty liver, diagnosed a couple years ago by ultrasound.

So we shall see what happens.

I’m finally feeling just a little bit better. This wretched cold/flu has really knocked the stuffing out of me. Still needing puffer and nasal spray just to breathe.
On the plus side I’ve lost a couple of kgs. I’ve had to choose between eating and breathing - I chose breathing.

Fern , how has the taper off Gordon going?? Are you all the way off now?

Thanks for checking on me! It is going great so far. I'm still stable and I take my last dose on Saturday. I've been spacing them three days apart and I've only noticed that my dreams are frequent and vivid. I was worried about how I'd do when my cycle rolled around since my episode happened at that time and my doctor suggested the hormone shifts could have contributed to it. I'm doing fine even through that, so I am relieved.

Both of my children have been sick this week and it gets a little stressful when one or both of them needs something from me every second of the day and a lot of the night. I've been able to handle that fine as well. Yay! No racing thoughts. No anxiety or depression. No changes in energy. I feel like I've been blessed with a smooth ride.

The one year anniversary of my breakdown is coming up early next month. It being so close has me thinking about everything that happened more than usual. I feel that is probably healthy though and just part of the process. I am talking it through with friends and family and I'm seeing my therapist every two weeks for now until I am proven stable off the Geodon. I plan to just keep working my plan to stay healthy and hold faith that I can thrive without the meds.

I wish you were feeling better. I am hoping you get some time to recuperate before you need to travel again in December. You've had so much going on and you deserve to relax a little. Sending thoughts of healing and wellness to you! Thanks again for thinking of me. It is greatly appreciated!

Oh I’m so happy for you that things are going so well ... I really glad that you have a Pdoc that actually listened to you and your thoughts about what happened and willing to see how things go sans meds !

I think having the anniversary coming up would certainly bring back memories of that event.. if it didn’t I’d probably be a bit concerned.

Looking back you have come so far from when you had that psychotic break.

You have been so pro active about your health both physical and mental, your an inspiration. You set goals and obtained them, you’ve always been open to advice, willing to give ideas a try. You are always so gracious. You take time out of a very busy life to bring your insight and support to others in need.

I hope it was a one time thing like “ the perfect storm” and you will never have to fight through another bout ..

You have armed yourself with coping skills that people need regardless of a label or not

YOU have done so much !!!! I know I’m not the only person that admires you for lots of reasons

Thanks for you concern, I really have had a lot going on started in June the horrible ptsd crap , August my husband very ill in the hospital , then trip to Florida , finally that issue with Florida trips has been resolved thankfully. My lungs will eventually stop being brats. I’m hopefully that my Liver will be okay and it just be lifestyle changes , food and exercise that fixes this problem. This loathsome prednisone? I’m not on it for life so I’m just going day by day. You would think everything tasting like tinfoil would shut my appetite down ? Nope I have tinfoil brownies tonight..I hate prednisone, but breathing is important lol

I’m sitting here smiling thinking about all you have overcome in a year. Truly inspiring

I screwed up my ankle by rolling it when I slipped on some wet bricks, and the pain has gotten nothing but worse over the past couple of weeks. I've been eating Advil and Tylenol like Skittles (who needs a liver, right?) and gotten little or no relief from it. I had it X-rayed and nothing was broken, but I have some serious bone spurs on the heel (where it doesn't hurt) and the inside of the ankle (where it hurts like hell). Anyway, I somehow stepped on it wrong this morning and thought I was going to fall, yelled a few choice profanities, and then I could barely bear weight on it.

So I decided to go to Urgent Care after talking with my NP and getting no help (he told me just to take OTC pain meds, which I've been doing and it's chewing up my stomach). I knew they weren't going to give me narcotics because I take Klonopin, but they gave me a nice supportive walking cast and encouraged me to follow up with my new podiatrist next week. It still hurts like hell but I can at least walk on it a bit. I've been trying to get some relief for weeks...I knew I needed this boot, screw the narcs, all they do is make me stupid and I don't want that. I hate it that some people would think I'm drug-seeking, but you know how medical people are today---you're guilty until proven innocent.

Tinfoil brownies...

I take low-dose prednisone year 'round. I wish it would make food taste horrible for me!

It is an amazing, life-saving drug, while also being a potentially life-threatening beast!

My pdocs feel chronic use, even at low dose, causes ongoing changes in mood, despite all of their efforts to assist with mood stabilization. I cannot just get off of it. I've been on it for years. We might try a taper this winter. It is possible my adrenal glands will not "wake up," which would mean lifetime steroid therapy. We all/each make the equivalent of 7.5 mg/day on average.

Do not ever touch this med unless you absolutely need it. It can save your life if you need it. It can cause all kinds of health problems, too.

A couple of thoughts on prednisone.

Oh, no!
I am sorry you are having to endure all of this! Painful!

I hope you heal quickly!

it's nice to have you commenting here; I am sorry about the circumstances.
Please take great care!

This one made me tear up. A heartfelt thank you just isn't enough.

And I would also eat tin foil brownies even without meds. I have zero brownie willpower!

I got my workout in today. I took a few days off while I was tending to my sick munchkins. They are feeling a bit better today and my husband is home to help, so I have been able to work some me time into my day. I feel so much better now! I'm going to shower and actually fix my hair in a bit. I don't plan on going anywhere, but I've been living in pjs with my crazy curly hair for a few days and I just want to look like I feel.

We have had weeks of 90+ degree weather and the high for today is only 80. I am overjoyed. I am planning on getting outside this afternoon to enjoy the weather.

I wish everyone wellness and send thoughts of healing to all who are struggling with physical pain.

I hope your "munchkins" continue to feel better with each passing hour.

Oh, PJs! I am guilty of wearing sweats a bit too often. I like the comfort. I only wear them at home. I have to be careful because I can wear sweats and then be very surprised at how tight clothing has become over a few days!

I am much better off to stick with my"regular" clothing!

It must be very nice to have H home today, for a number of reasons; yet, it must be nice to have some time to yourself , at least a few minutes!

Good for you in getting your workout finished.!
I hope to take a walk as soon as i am done with this heap of paperwork. In all honestly, I am so tired, I can barely stay awake I might have to take a quick nap before I try to go for a walk. I am just exhausted today..
I do not know why I am so exhausted. today. I guess it does not matter just why I am so very tired, I may need to nap for awhile anyway.

Luckily, I am home alone for awhile and won't be disturbed by someone.

I hope everyone is enJOYing the weekend.
Much Love

I hope you got your nap and your walk in. I took a nap myself and ended up with time on my hands. I decided to celebrate the fall day with a batch of pumpkin donuts. I never made them before and they came out pretty well.

Sitting outside now in the sun and enjoying the breeze. Planning to watch some football later and we're ordering pizza for dinner. It has not been a healthy eating day, but both of my kids have lost weight this week. I'm encouraging them to eat pretty much anything that sounds good. I did actually put on real clothes, but I went with leggings so I have plenty of room to expand We'll get back on track with healthier food choices next week.

I went for a ride today. It was nice weather to be out on a bike.

The cycling has been making a difference. When I went in for ECT yesterday, I weighed in at 167 pounds. That's significantly down from when I started riding.

It's great to hear from you!
I am jealous that you get to ride! Lol!
Have FUN with your friend!

I have been discouraged. I gained another pound this week despite staying under calories again. As a result I haven’t been eating as well. Today was a fall festival so I ate a lot of apple treats. Oh well.

Hopefully I will get back on track on Monday. Maybe see some results next week.

Legs are a bit sore from the gigantic hill I rode up early this AM and still have this lingering dry cough, but it doesn't seem to be getting worse, so that's good. Overall, physical is pretty good.

Oh no !!!! You are correct guilty before proven innocent.

I hope your able to get some pain relief soon.... freaking people see psych meds or a benzo and just assume your a drug seeker when you need pain relief because your GD injured !!

Can you call Monday and see if you can get in sooner ??? I’m so sorry this happened. I’m glad the boot is helpful at least.

Absolute truth! I hope your able to taper off

You are so welcome