“What’s wrong??”

Constant question today directed toward me

What’s wrong is I’m still depressed and I just wanna disappear

I've got a tent. Let's go

I just don’t wanna to
Be part of this world

Do you need to go back to the urgent care?

No. I see my doctor tomorrow and I’m
Hoping he can help with this depression

I'm glad you see him tomorrow. I really hope you get some good help.

Me too. I’m feeling desperate. I already quit my
Job and got. Anew one

I'm glad you were able to find a new job and that you are seeing your doctor tomorrow. I hope he can help.

Please don't hurt yourself, HALLIEBETH87! Is there anything we can do to help you out? ANYTHING AT ALL REALLY! We're here to listen! WE CARE ABOUT YOU! Remember that you're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON and that YOU'VE GOT THIS! Depression SUCKS, but hang in there! Good things will come sooner or later! Just try to hang on AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN, OK? WE ALL CARE ABOUT! THAT'S A PROMISE! PLEASE STAY SAFE AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! Let us know if there's ANYTHING AT ALL that we can do to HELP YOU OUT, BIG OR SMALL! Sending many AWESOME, kind, safe, sweet, warm, wise and WONDERFUL HUGS TO YOU, HALLIEBETH87, JUST LIKE YOU ARE! PLEASE BELIEVE THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! PLEASE BELIEVE THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE AND PLEASE REMEMBER THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE!

I’m not gonna hurt myself.
I haven’t even self harmed

Thanks for all
The love

Hallie, I really hope the psychiatrist can help you.

I think you're an amazing person, HB, and I have felt that way for a while. I hate the struggles you've had, because I too have had some of them. Keep safe.

I will. I’m trying. I’ve mostly been crying and listening to music

I like doing that- its cathartic.

How much haldol do you take? I feel like
Im on a LOT at 20mg a day

My pdoc says im on a tiny dose- that some people are on 30 mg. Im on 2.5- barely any- right now

I feel better now

I feel better about the haldol now

I think you have taken all the right steps. Hopefully your pdoc will have a good idea tomorrow on how to treat your depression

Thanks everyone

I really hope you start to truly feel better soon.

My
Dr agreed with me that I shouldn’t continue ect
If it’s not helping. He put me on celexa
Which is what he had me
On for a long time.

I go back
In two weeks

Thanks for letting us know HallieBeth87. This sounds like a favourable change in treatment for you and I hope you get good results.

Thanks. He was surprised to see me and wasn’t in agreement with his colleague that I needed to “keep hope and continue ect.” He said if it’s not working why keep doing it?! I said the memory impairment has been traumatizing.

Good for you and your doc for standing up for you! The memory problems are why I haven't tried ECT.