[Capac]

I am feeling really scared. All weekend I was dealing with extreme self hatred and low self worth. It has gotten so bad today

Possible trigger:

that I am having urges to self harm and have suicidal ideations.

Things have pushed me over the edge today. I can't do this anymore. I am 31, and all my life I was rejected, never had much of a social life or friends, never had a gf. I am tired of feeling so isolated, alone, unwanted, worthless, like a piece of ****. I feel so inferior, so small, and insignificant, and it has gotten to the point where I don't want to do this anymore. Every single day the self hatred. I'm tired of feeling worthless, unloved and not cared about. I just want to disappear, everyone hates me, I hate myself, I don't want to be here anymore.

[yellow_fleurs]

I am so sorry you are feeling like this. I also struggle with very low self worth sometimes. It's so tough, but it doesn't mean your life really is worthless. It's a lie our brains tell us or that others have made us feel by rejecting us or treating us poorly. Do you have a therapist you can call? Please don't hurt yourself. Are you safe right now?

[~Christina]

I’m so sorry your suffering. Do you have a Pdoc or T ???

Please just remember Bipolar cycles , it always does.

Please go to the Er if your not able to stay safe

[HALLIEBETH87]

Are you safe?

[Capac]

Yes I am safe. I am on meds and go to therapy twice a week. And I am still unstable, I am still a basket case. Been doing this for over ten years. It is hopeless. I am beyond help.

[Wander]

Your life is not without hope or beyond help. Unfortunately your mind is convincing you otherwise. I’m sorry you feel so alone. Isolation is terrible for our health in every way. On this forum we try to support each other as best we can. We care about others. Please keep posting if you are up to it. It may help.