[Record]

I'm Bipolar and I frequently find myself wanting to basically scrub my brain, or scoop it out and wash my skull, the thing is when I feel like this I don't actually want to die... It's almost like I want to reset my brain. I won't ever do anything to hurt myself I just want to know if this is a "normal" thing. If it is a normal thing is there a word for it?

[fern46]

I don't know if it is normal, but I do something like this. I pray, or set intention that I will have a renewed mind, heart, body and spirit. I imagine myself being washed clean from whatever negativity has built up so that I can start again fresh. I don't envision my skull being washed per say. It is more a state of being I'm trying to achieve.

Welcome. Happy to have you here. I hope you find the answers you are searching for.

[Jedi67]

Originally Posted by Record

I'm Bipolar and I frequently find myself wanting to basically scrub my brain, or scoop it out and wash my skull, the thing is when I feel like this I don't actually want to die... It's almost like I want to reset my brain. I won't ever do anything to hurt myself I just want to know if this is a "normal" thing. If it is a normal thing is there a word for it?

welcome to PC, Record! not sure if what your are describing is a normal thing per se but I think I can relate. some days my mind and brain are so overloaded that I wish I can cleanse my head of these intrusive thoughts and anxiety. I also want to "reset." it happens often for me and when manic, it gets very bad. I never really think of harming myself but I do get very frustrated by it all. what we need is a brain "car wash" once again, welcome! happy to have you here!