FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
Legendary
Community Liaison
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: USA
Posts: 12,735
(SuperPoster!)
7 70.9k hugs
given |
#21
Quote:
Many of us can attest to the fact that getting a BP diagnosis is not the end of your life. It is likely that the more you and your doctor know about your diagnosis, you may be treated better and may have a better life! I hope you feel at home to participate here. I also hope to see you around here more often! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
|
Reply With Quote |
Jedi67
|
Isolda van der Meer, Jedi67
|
catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
(SuperPoster!)
4 23.7k hugs
given |
#22
There are some things that bother me about having mental illness...like having to be on meds for the past 32 years. I don't even know who I really am, and I'm sleepy all of the time.
I'm glad there are names for the various dx's. What bothers me most of all is that I still don't understand why I'm told I have BD. My pdoc is 100% sure of it. My T said she sees that I'm more manic than depressive. My daughter has always agreed with my diagnosis. I really don't understand it all, though. For example, when I am excited about something I express being excited. I talk more and more rapidly. I use my hands to express myself more. and so on. Well, why is that "mania"? Maybe it's just how I express being excited (I make sense and people can understand me). So that is what bothers me about my dx. __________________ |
Reply With Quote |
Jedi67, Wild Coyote
|
Jedi67, Wild Coyote
|
Legendary
Member Since Mar 2018
Location: United States
Posts: 10,760
(SuperPoster!)
6 10.6k hugs
given |
#23
The problem with depression is that it's too broad a term, so a lot of people think it's not that serious. I have major depressive disorder, which means it's a chronic ongoing thing. Some people don't understand that.
|
Reply With Quote |
*Beth*, Wild Coyote
|
Jedi67, Wild Coyote
|
Neurodivergent
Member Since Mar 2012
Location: Western US
Posts: 4,831
12 3,864 hugs
given |
#24
It took me about five years to accept my bipolar diagnosis. I was pretty sure I had it even before I was diagnosed, but didn't do anything about it until my GP forced me into a psych consult after I failed my fourth antidepressant. I'd still like to believe I'm in some sort of long-term existential crisis, but I know better now and I don't question the dx anymore. I don't even mess with my meds or skip appointments with my pdoc. It's not worth getting sick again.
__________________ DX: Bipolar 1 Anxiety Tardive dyskinesia Mild cognitive impairment RX: Celexa 20 mg Gabapentin 1200 mg Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN Lamictal 500 mg Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression) Trazodone 150 mg Zyprexa 7.5 mg Please come visit me @ http://bpnurse.com |
Reply With Quote |
Jedi67, Wild Coyote
|
Jedi67, Wild Coyote
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Community Liaison
Member Since Jul 2011
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 22,450
(SuperPoster!)
12 12.7k hugs
given |
#25
Quote:
BD ? BP ( Bipolar ) or do you mean BPD (borderline personality disorder) ? I’m guessing BP Those of us with BP can have every emotion under the sun, I can be over the moon happy and excited and giddy I found a new nail polish color I don’t have , is that BP ? No it’s just my being happy. I was absolutely furious over something a person said to me a few weeks ago . Was that BP? No I had every right to be furious. So my advice is don’t waste a lot of time analyzing a mood but just a quick 2 second self check if your thinking whatever is BP. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
|
Reply With Quote |
Jedi67, Wild Coyote
|
*Beth*, BipolaRNurse, Jedi67, Nammu, Wild Coyote
|
catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
(SuperPoster!)
4 23.7k hugs
given |
#26
__________________ |
Reply With Quote |
catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
(SuperPoster!)
4 23.7k hugs
given |
#27
Quote:
Yes, bipolar disorder. And thank you! I need to hear that. I drive myself into anxiety states trying to discern "it" from "me." __________________ |
|
Reply With Quote |
Jedi67
|
Jedi67, ~Christina
|
Member
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Valhalla
Posts: 33
5 48 hugs
given |
#28
Quote:
I hope I'll feel better in the future. It's just too recent now. |
|
Reply With Quote |
Jedi67
|
Jedi67
|
Member
Member Since Aug 2014
Location: Europe
Posts: 343
9 177 hugs
given |
#29
My dx is something that I must acknowledge. Something I need to take in account when making plants. Planning enough rest, taking care of myself. Yes, I have encountered rolledeyes from doctors and feeling stigme. But other than that, I need my meds, I need visits to therapist, it's taking care of myself. I'm relieved by diagnosis as it takes away fault from me being wrong to me suffering from illness and me needing proper care.
__________________ Bipolar I Meds: Lamotrigine as mood stabiliser Agomelatine and Sertralin as antidepressant Zopiclonum for sleeping when needed Lectopam to calm down when mixed |
Reply With Quote |
Jedi67
|
Jedi67
|
Veteran Member
Member Since Sep 2018
Location: ???
Posts: 738
5 830 hugs
given |
#30
yup, people don't follow me as serious and mark me as a loon. not proud to be bipolar but it explains things. if I could have this condition with little people knowing I'd feel better, but can't. not in denial but bothered by people's reactions. yeah guess I shouldn't care what people think but having all of this engraved on me makes me worry. it's hard to snap my fingers and say 'yeah I don't care about what people think, woohoo!' not that easy at all, that's how people talk to me sometimes. I know I have bipolar but I'm bothered by it to an extent. I don't view other bipolar folks or myself as 'crazy' but other people seem to.
|
Reply With Quote |
Wise Elder
Member Since Apr 2015
Location: US
Posts: 9,269
(SuperPoster!)
9 9,481 hugs
given |
#31
Not really. I've had plenty of time to get used to it and honestly even when I was very first diagnosed I was mostly just relieved to know what was wrong with me; something certainly was.
I do hate some of the consequences, like not being able to work and being sedated and having gained weight by taking meds. But the bipolar itself just is what it is. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
Reply With Quote |
Crone
Member Since May 2010
Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system.
Posts: 71,787
(SuperPoster!)
14 53.9k hugs
given |
#32
I've been thinking about this question since it got posted. I wanna say hell no it don't bother me,.....but I wouldn't want people to know. I volunteered for years but I don't tell people I'm bipolar. I've seen people change if they have knowledge of the diganois, they back off thinking of how the media, films and books portrayed a bipolar. Where I had had a unque viewpoint and take on a situation suddenly become oh she's got a "crazy outlook" whereas I was taken seriously I suddenly become superfluous. So while I don't think of my diganois day to day or think of myself as mi day to day I'm aware I don't share this openly. Yeah it bothers me.
__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
Reply With Quote |
Magnate
Member Since Jun 2016
Location: U.S.
Posts: 2,575
7 8,130 hugs
given |
#33
My feelings have gone back and forth throughout the years. It gave me comfort to get diagnosed in order to receive the right treatment.
The only time I really get triggered when I see it on paper, like when I have to submit insurance claims. Although I know my diagnosis is very real, it makes it all too real actually seeing the label under my name. Maybe it makes me feel like just a diagnosis and not a person when I see it in writing, if that makes sense. But overall, I do accept it and have been dealing with this for so long. __________________ Bipolar 1 Disorder, Unspecified Anxiety Disorder |
Reply With Quote |
Member
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: New England
Posts: 99
4 5 hugs
given |
#34
i feel like relieved for my bipolar to know and relate to the symptoms but demonized and looked down on because on my personality stuff. that said, i enjoy who i am, i just hate that my medical records are all like "saucy is hard to handle etc".
|
Reply With Quote |
Reply |
|