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#501
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I hope everyone is having a good day. I am not doing so well. I am still struggling with Seroquel. I had cut my dose in half last night. I did sleep some. This morning, I felt very hung over again. I felt light-headed, dazed, dizzy and could not think straight, It is now just after 3 pm and I am just starting to clear up a bit. I am going to cut the dose in half again tonight... getting back down to 1/4 of what it was two days ago. I have to do it. My mood state must be changing because I had no trouble tolerating Seroquel awhile ago. Now it is far too much at just 50 mg. I am in a lot of pain. On top of my usual chronic pain, I am struggling with severe pain in my ribs. I have a compressed nerve in /around my spine and it is radiating excruciating pain out through both left and right rib cages. It gets worse as the day goes on. I am reading here daily, as I am able to do so. I have not been able to respond as much on the forum. I want to write back to people who have been kind enough to write a PM to me. It is difficult to find a position in which I am comfortable enough to write. It has been very difficult to write this. I hope life is going well for everyone. I know we all have challenges. I believe, in time, we can overcome, even if overcoming means adjusting to a point at which we are able to enJOY life despite our circumstances. Love to All! __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#502
W.C. Nerve pain is the worse. Take it easy.
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#503
I hope you're feeling better by this evening, WC.
My boss sent me a text offering me increased hours which would require me to drive an hour each way to work two days a week in the main office. I need to be able to accrue sick time and adding vacation time would be nice, but the idea makes me quite anxious. I don't know if I should accept the additional responsibilities and stress. Today I certainly don't feel capable of handling it. __________________ >< |
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I am going to be completely open with her about the concerns I have, primarily the fact that ECT makes it very difficult to recall all the details I must to do a satisfactory job at the higher level. Though it wouldn't be full time, it would be an increase from my current 16 hours/week to over 20/week. Setting a response date is a good idea. She'll be at my office on Monday, so as long as my doc doesn't schedule another treatment right away, I should be able to talk with her face to face. __________________ >< |
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I forgot to take my morning meds today, so let's just say the day has been too interesting in the wrong way.
Tropical storm or depression Imelda is headed this way. I think they are likely to cancel school tomorrow, and H is not going into work as a 1.5 hr. drive each way (mostly distance, not traffic) isn't worth a committee meeting. He has 2 online courses anyway, so he can work from home on those, and his face-to-face course is a Tuesday/Thursday class. Our internet has been acting iffy though of late, and it's not like AT&T will send out a tech to fix it any time soon. We've had it with them anyway. Our contract is up, and we are going back to Xfinity as soon as H can set it up as he knows more about the internet speeds, wi-fi, etc. My phone has been dinging weather alerts since this morning. My situation of late: Quote:
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I hope you get spared of any major storm damage, Blueberrybook.
Today has been a bit rough for me, too. In my case, I had one of my rare binge eating days. I don't know how my binge eating days compare to some other people's, but it wasn't good. It was clearly triggered by a few things. They usually are always triggered. Otherwise my eating is fine. At least I don't drink anymore. I will go to my volunteer assignment tomorrow at NAMI, even though I don't want to go. I hope that office won't be so chaotic-like. Such environments are stressful for me. Even the Director of Operations there kind of stresses me out. She's a little over-the-top friendly and hugs me too much. Don't get me wrong, I like hugs, but not from people I am not very familiar with. She acts likes she's known me forever. She even said that a few times to the point where I corrected her, as tactfully as possible. My therapist said that that's probably her way of trying to be welcoming, but it is uncomfortable for me. If people here met me, they'd find me to be an extremely outgoing and even zany person in some ways (and times), but a bit reserved in others. |
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My therapist helped me understand that I am not failing as a teacher if I can’t get my students to do work. She said that if you’re not even sure you want to be alive, if you’re not sure you have a future, then why would school matter? I felt that. Because that’s exactly how I felt in high school. I had lost sight of that. So I’m going to work to show more compassion to my students and not judge myself so harshly if my lessons go awry. Once again, my therapist helped me see the truth. I am fortunate to have her.
I have calmed down a bit from the weekend, however when I got home today expecting RS to be there and he wasn’t, I just said to myself oh, he’s dead. Died in a car crash and they just haven’t notified me yet. So that was extreme. But once again my therapist helped me with that too. She said that I need to lean into the thoughts. That I need to prepare myself and then it won’t seem so scary. So basically just keep saying and then what until I get to the end. Like ok, he dies. And then what? I will be devastated. And then what? My son will be devastated. And then what? I will lean on my family for support like I did last time. And then what? I will tear myself out of bed to support my son. Etc etc. I know it doesn’t sound like it would help but it actually did. Tomorrow I need to work on my lesson plans. I need to keep them up to date in case they come looking for them. I have been avoiding it because it’s labor intensive and I am a huge procrastinator. However I must practice because I will start my course in October and I must have all my ducks in a row. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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__________________ Bipolar 1 Disorder, Unspecified Anxiety Disorder |
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If you can I seriously would recommend you wait a couple months after you have fully stopped Lithium before beginning a slow taper off a benzo. I hear ya on the robot ! __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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I’m glad that besides struggling you do have a lot of positives in motivation that are wonderful. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Do you have trouble during the Fall ? Maybe this is just your Bipolar jerking you around some? I’m glad your getting out, hopefully that will help you lift your mood __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Yes I got a few hours , so I’m grateful It is a possibility it was just a tough batch, I’ll find out I bought a huge pack and repackaged for many servings. I’m just glad my burgers were great tonight lol 2 nights in a row of yucko dinner would have really legit upset me __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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I cannot stop believing that I know what people are thinking about me and wonder if they will try to do something to sabotage me. It is going beyond just normal insecurities. Plus, I'm really depressed. I need a therapist due to insurance issue. I don't see my pdoc until 2 weeks. She books up fast. But I think I need to get in sooner. __________________ Bipolar 1 Disorder, Unspecified Anxiety Disorder |
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So happy you got sleep ! Congrats on your 6 month mark, that’s fantastic ED’s are such a hard struggle. What courses will you be taking ?? Sounds exciting __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Yay for sleep !!! Sounds like a great entertaining one maybe you will have it tonight , let’s hope so ! __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Oh I wish this nerve pain resolves soon! I can only imagine the pure torture of it. Maybe 1/4 will be a helpful dose for now, being chemically hung over until afternoon is just to much. You have things to do ! Somehow you continue to just keep moving forward and keeping focusing on positives that your able to fine , that’s wonderful __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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I hope your given time to consider it in depth. Is there possible a way you can take it on a temporary basis to see if it something you can manage ? __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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It’s good that you were able to politely guide her off being so overly friendly. That would make me uncomfortable too. You know yourself best and just be very watchful what this volunteer work is doing for your stability. I’m glad you were able to see your T today. The other night I felt like I was constantly snacking on something , last night when I had bought chocolate I never got around to having any , weird lol __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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