Bipolar check in #37

BeyondtheRainbow · Sep 20, 2019 at 05:12 PM

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That's really nice that there's a path they built, I would love that. I think part of my problem is I live in an urban area so there are always lots of people out and it makes me nervous and overwhelmed.

Thank you so much for your support, I hope you're doing well

When I was in grad school I went to the neatest urban counseling center. It was built in a pine forest in the middle of the city and all the offices were built so they had huge open windows looking out into the forest. It was a beautiful place. No path though although that would have made it perfect (except for the intern therapist who didn't know what to do with me).

Wild Coyote · Sep 20, 2019 at 05:15 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

When I was in grad school I went to the neatest urban counseling center. It was built in a pine forest in the middle of the city and all the offices were built so they had huge open windows looking out into the forest. It was a beautiful place. No path though although that would have made it perfect (except for the intern therapist who didn't know what to do with me).

Sounds very nice!

Daonnachd · Sep 20, 2019 at 05:16 PM

It looks like there's a lot going on for everybody. I wish I could share with all of you the brightness of my mind post-ECT. I'm quite lucky I'm feeling so good.

~Christina · Sep 20, 2019 at 05:57 PM

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Originally Posted by gayleggg

I am definitly manic. This week I have over spent my budget and had sex with a guy I barely know, who is 20 years younger than me. I haven't had an episode this bad since 2009. My psychiatrist is going to be very upset with me. I'm acting like a silly school girl. I'm 67, for God's sake. I thought I had put this all behind me.

Do you see your Pdoc soon?

Don’t beat yourself up.. Bipolar can wreak hell on our lives at times

~Christina · Sep 20, 2019 at 05:58 PM

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Originally Posted by De Luca

Thanks, I'm forcing myself to post and participate. I have social anxiety, even when I do post I typically regret it in about 5 minutes. The fear of judgement thing, although rationally I know I'm not being judged. Something I always struggled with and still do.

I think overtime you will see that there is no judgement here. We all “ get it”

~Christina · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I laid in bed all afternoon because I was somewhat depressed

I hope tomorrow is a better day for you

~Christina · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Ugh, I'm in the ER. I hate ERs. I took mum in to the clinic for her Mamogram and the war fin blood clinic. The rash she has under her breast has spread and has no skin on it so they wouldn't do the Mamogram and scheduled her at the same day clinic for 5 pm. But then at the blood clinic her blood was very high, indicating an infection. They told her to go to the walk in clinic now,...they said they can't see her till 5 to go to the ER. So here we are in my least favorite place. Ugh, germs! There is a kid here, 4-5 but he's sleeping thank goodness. There's a group of 5 that seem to be having a coffee clutch and the mum with her kid. Pretty quiet for now. There was a construction worker with ice around his ankle, they took him back tho. As far as ERs go this one isn't bad but still. I'd rather go home and come back to the same day clinic at 5. But mum choose the ER, it's gonna be a wait. Some guy was wheeled in and went straight back. Fun times!

I hate having to go to the Er ! Such a long time as the triage patients not by arrival.

Hope things get sorted quickly for your mom.

~Christina · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:10 PM

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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am having a bit of a rough day today. I had left my dose of Seroquel at the lower dose. It was the second night of this low dose. I woke up this morning feeling like my brain was out of commission. Every thing was difficult. Noises were LOUD and overwhelming. Lights, too. I am on edge. I cannot recall information very well. I feel off balance in every way.

I had to cancel my day. I am unsure as to the exact cause of my status today. It is likely multi-factorial, in truth.

I had slept fitfully. I keep having ongoing nightmares about an "intruder."

I am feeling like I am right on the edge of having a migraine. In fact, I feel I have been having a "silent" migraine for most of the day.

How many of today's symptoms are due to the Seroquel taper, I just do not know.

The compressed nerve in my spine is still very painful.I missed an appointment for PT for this issue today. I am so light-headed I cannot drive safely today.

I was able to reschedule for Monday, thankfully.

I hope everyone finds something to celebrate this weekend!

Much Love ~

Oh no !

I’m sorry things are just lousy for you today. Of course it’s possible to feel this way due to the decrease. But if I remember right you have done this small change before, could just be a heads up of a mood shift ? Oh I sure hope it’s not.

Will your Pdoc be back next week or the following ?

Take it easy tonight.

Much love

~Christina · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:17 PM

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At home. They gave mum a poweder and an antibiotic that won't interfere with her blood clotting meds. Hope it's effective. Got home at 4 and my sister was here. She brought the drapes back. There's nobody in town that does drapes anymore, there's not a single cleaner in town. No fix it shops either. . My sister has a drum washer without that middle agitation pillor. They came out nice. Have to take mum back on Monday for the blood clinic so they can check that the meds aren't interacting.

Glad you got out the Er , such a relief .. when I have to take my husband in I wear a mask. I don’t want to catch anything.

I’m glad your sister was able to get your drapes clean, I would Love to have one of those washers but so expensive.

How have you been sleeping ? Getting any? Fantastical Dreams ?

Nammu · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:29 PM

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Glad you got out the Er , such a relief .. when I have to take my husband in I wear a mask. I don’t want to catch anything.

I’m glad your sister was able to get your drapes clean, I would Love to have one of those washers but so expensive.

How have you been sleeping ? Getting any? Fantastical Dreams ?

I'm getting light very interrupted sleep so no fantastic dreams although this morning between 6am and 9 I had a dream where I seemed to be at an Amish carnival! The rides were all made from wood and hand spun. I left my good black winter coat at one ride and my granddaughter at another ride, very weird

~Christina · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:31 PM

I live around a large Amish community so your dream of them having a carnival got me laughing.

I’m going to cross all my body parts that you get a deeper sleep tonight

Nammu · Sep 20, 2019 at 06:37 PM

Yeah I can't imagine them having a carnival!

Victoria'smom · Sep 20, 2019 at 08:32 PM

]Can you focus on your ESA dog?[ I'm going to have to that and coloring

Wrote down a list of “ grounding “ questions. Like “ do I actually hear anything out of the ordinary?? Check your heart rate if it’s elevate, start slow even deep breaths. Etc I'll need to write and print a list of questions and quick techniques.

Maybe set a timer on your phone so if you start to panic you can visually see how long will it be until H or Miguel will be home. I can do that on short days but I'm unsure about long days.

Play with your dog or give a full brush down. Your ESA needs more attention and of course that’s going to be a big distraction for you. Plus that’s why you have s/he of course. I love playing with her

How much coloring are you doing a day ? I'm trying to color/art at least 3 hrs a day.

How about research some simple recipes That sounds fun. I'll have to feed myself anyway on nights he's gone. 3 ingredients meals sounds not very stressful.

B]What is your husband in school for ??? Certainly if he can get a job in that field will help your finances. computer management

Are you jealous of him doing these school classes? Maybe it could motivate you to try things to be more independent? Just a thoughtI don't think I'm jealous. I'm happy for him. I need to be more independent as it's affecting my quality of life/relationship.

My skills often go out the window when I get scared and I either sit on PC or hide. in bed

Wild Coyote · 08:51 PM

Thanks Christina!

I have so much going on, I cannot tell what is causing what.

Rough day with mother. She fell and has injured herself. She was very upset for a few hours.

Then had to deal with H, which was very trying. Same old troubled pattern at work. So very destructive. So simple to omit certain behaviors to begin with.. Tried to help him to realize this.

I honestly don't think he cares to know. He is locked into a passive- aggressive pattern, where he has been stuck for many, many years now. He has never wanted to listen or to give it up.

Pdoc is gone for 2 more weeks.

Nammu · Sep 20, 2019 at 08:41 PM

Sorry about your mother WC. Falling can be traumatic especially if they are older. Mum fell last month and it really scared her. Hope your mum recovers soon.

Victoria'smom · Sep 20, 2019 at 08:45 PM

WC, is she okay now?

Moose72 · Sep 20, 2019 at 08:51 PM

I forgot to pick up my scripts! I only have enough through tomorrow. I'll have to skip all my meds Sunday. Except the extra Haldol that's separate.

Watching "The Founder".

Wild Coyote · Sep 20, 2019 at 08:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

WC, is she okay now?

She is sore. It will take time to heal.
Thanks for asking!

Wild Coyote · Sep 20, 2019 at 08:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Sorry about your mother WC. Falling can be traumatic especially if they are older. Mum fell last month and it really scared her. Hope your mum recovers soon.

Thank you, Nammu!

She was very distressed. She was very subdued for the rest of the day. Seemed to have lost her confidence. Thanks, Nammu!

Scooter9 · Sep 20, 2019 at 09:50 PM

I hope your mother is ok WC.

Well, I took 6 showers in 7 days which is a really big improvement. I was down to 1 or 2 for a while.

I had a crazy day at work today. I had to talk to a lot of people on a day I was feeling really withdrawn. I'm glad it's over and looking forward to sleeping it off.

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Daonnachd Magnate Member Since Feb 2006 Location: Napa Valley Posts: 2,116 18 3,379 hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 05:16 PM #683 It looks like there's a lot going on for everybody. I wish I could share with all of you the brightness of my mind post-ECT. I'm quite lucky I'm feeling so good. __________________ ><
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~Christina Legendary Wise Elder Community Liaison Member Since Jul 2011 Location: Tennessee Posts: 22,450 (SuperPoster!) 12 12.7k hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 06:31 PM #691 I live around a large Amish community so your dream of them having a carnival got me laughing. I’m going to cross all my body parts that you get a deeper sleep tonight __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~
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Nammu Crone Member Since May 2010 Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system. Posts: 71,401 (SuperPoster!) 13 53.7k hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 06:37 PM #692 Yeah I can't imagine them having a carnival! __________________ *Nammu* …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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Victoria'smom Legendary Member Since Apr 2012 Location: Earth Posts: 14,908 (SuperPoster!) 12 5,443 hugs given	Sep 20, 2019 at 08:45 PM #696 WC, is she okay now? __________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog
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