Bipolar check in #39

Never again will I take trazodone. It's an AD that agitated me. Lunes ta is a possibility. Seriquel is not, already on one AP and after about 3-4 weeks I developed restless legs on it. I had something else on the list to discuss but don't remember and I lost the list. I still take Benadryl, melatonin and an Aleve at bedtime to help. I remember reading about Michael Jackson and the knock out meds he took and understand why he took them, unfortunately I don't have fame and fortune to get access to knock out meds.

I only took one dose of trazodone and I already regret it. I slept about 8 hours (waking up a few times) and then I took two naps today also (about a hour or two each). I am not gonna take it anymore.

I have so much trouble with sleep that it is really, really starting to frighten me. I have been on everything. Starting to wonder whether I will ever sleep again. Tonight, have a new Zyprexa prescription to re-try and see if it works now. We'll see. I'll probably go to bed at 9 and be wide awake by 11. As usual.

So, I really feel for everyone who struggles with sleep. It is a serious health issue. People like us have a much, much shorter lifespan. It's bad.

All of which is I guess why Michael Jackson is dead. He turned to the appalling underground healthcare that is available to the wealthy in Los Angeles and became dependent on a general anesthetic for his sleep. He died of a propofol overdose. He couldn't sleep. So he went to sleep forever. So sad.

Tricyclics AD I was worried being it’s a AD . But 50mg at bedtimes really helped me sleep. It never messed with my Bipolar, I was on Lamictal , Latuda , Tenex, and Xanax at the time.

Some of the overnight oats are really pretty tasty. They can be flavored in various ways with little sugars and low fat dairy. My favorite is Overnight Carrot Cake Oats. It's 1/3 cup old-fashioned oats with 3 Tbs shredded carrot, 1 tsp chopped raisins, 1 tsp chia seeds, a touch of cinnamon, nutmeg, and/or allspice, and a drizzle honey or sugar substitute. I then add about 1/3 to 1/2 cup skim milk, cover and refrigerate over night. I prepare 2 tsp pan toasted pecan pieces for topping with 1 Tbs low fat plain yogurt, which I add just before eating. Mmm! The quantities could be reduced slightly.

Sounds delicious! I’m going to try that. Thanks for sharing!

Edit : I meant to say Doxipen, it never bother my Bipolar

Oh I must try this !

Had a very productive evening at the grocery store yesterday, very successful. I'm feeling better now that i have confidence that i can get back to proper grocery shopping and not rely on our awful convenience store here in the building. It was even nice to let a little casual aggression fly at the young man who cut me off and the woman who leaned all over me. It was good to let off a little steam and be an "Oscar the Grouch." It's healthy to allow myself to not be "nice" ALL the time.

Today i spent most of the day day-dreaming. I sure waste a lot of time doing that when there is work to be done. I finally dragged myself out of my reverie this evening to do three (3) sink fulls of dishes and they're still not done. Ack! I also organized garbage to go out. I discovered a leak under my sink so i got into the crisis junk a bit, cleaning out the cupboard and taping up the faucets and spout so i won't use them by mistake. At least i know from my recent plumbing issue in the bathroom that there is an affordable plumber to call who does excellent work.

Aah, the joys of home-owning!

I did a neat haircut today with my bangs cut on a diagonal. I'll work on it some more tomorrow. Fun, fun, fun!!!

I'm feeling better now that some time has passed and i see that it is possible to disentangle myself from nasty neighbors. I've seen the three that upset me so over the past few days and i just nod when they say hello. I don't have to be friendly if i don't want. I don't have to have social relationships with my neighbors. It's not an obligation. We are business partners in our condominium but that is really the extent of our relationship. I can decline to be friendly if i want. Once my door is shut no one can get to me, not even if they have a key as i have a barrier on my door that prevents it from opening at all. It's a great feeling. Aah: PRIVACY !!! SECURITY !!!

Mood-wise i feel good and am not belaboring why, tho i do speculate it is the Seroquel withdrawal. 67% of the way there! Just one more cut and then OFF !!! Can't believe it's actually happening ! In close contact with my doctor online. Resisted an online relationship for years as i was worried i would rant in writing as i have done in the past a few times and offend my doctor.

But there's no worry of that as messages are limited to 250 characters ! So that's a boon and my doctor is very good about responding and even inquired about my sleep today which is fine, getting up at 7:00am for several days in a row now and going to bed at midnight. Certainly healthier hours for me -- again, i feel it is the Seroquel withdrawal.

So doing well. Skipped my OA meeting yesterday but the girls texted me from lunch so i got to participate in the fun a little bit. Won't go back to OA until my dishes are completely done, my leaky sink attended to, my kitchen fully restocked and my freezer filled with easy homemade meals again. Lots to do !!!

I tempted myself so much that I just prepped it. The milk amount may be better at 1/3 to 1/2 cup instead of 1/4 to 1/3. I use skim with great results.

I'm so happy to hear you are feeling better. You sound well

Way to go for getting out and into the grocery store! I know that can be a challenge. Your recovery seems to be coming along nicely and I'm glad to hear the Seroquel taper is going well. Sending well wishes for continued health and happiness for you!

I'm gonna call my pdoc tomorrow and hopefully see him tomorrow because im having bad depression and

I honestly think I got hypomanic on trazadone.....
my pdoc prescribed hydroxyine100mg for sleep along with 20mg of melatonin.
ear plugs really help.
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Thanks for your concern. I feel like I"m constantly complaining on here and everywhere and that's just not good.

Yes, I rehabbed shoulders. Usually I did shoulders after strokes and rarely rotator cuffs as those usually went to PTs for some reason none of us could figure out. I was happy about it honestly because I didn't really like shoulders (except post stroke when it was part of the arm I was working on). The biggest thing is that if she doesn't do the exercises and keep up with them she can get frozen shoulders and that is absolutely horrible. Not needing a walker is great because that's a lot less strain on her shoulders.

I miss my work every day. But I couldn't do it so that's just the way it is.

Charlie (and probably Abby helped) celebrated Cat Day by letting me fall sound asleep at 11 and woke me up hungry for their supper at 12:25. I can't fall asleep at 11 or I'm going to be up later. I was hoping to sleep really well tonight because I was up sick several times yesterday.

Thanks again for caring. I love this place and all of you.

I have been bouncing a lot between being okay and crying lately. I made an appointment to see my p-doc on Thursday. That is the earliest she could get me in. Been having thoughts of death the past few days on and off. I was told if I get any worse to go to the ER. I have music playing and I am trying to stay positive. This is hard. I have been sleeping 12+ hours a day and have really no appetite. Crying on and off and feeling miserable. Winter is gonna be tough.

Here I am at 3:30 having been up since 2:30ish. Bah humbug! Ive got Are You Being Served? on as background noise.

ETA: its now 4:30... *sigh*

Dammit! Im wide awake! I am still in bed. At least my migraine is gone.

I'm with you Moose. I fell asleep about 11, was up from 12:25-3:00 ane then back up about 4:15. Last night I didn't sleep well either so I was really hoping tonight would be better.

Maybe tomorrow.

Sorry you're struggling so much. How bad are the suicidal thoughts? You aren't a danger to yourself, are you?

Sorry to hear that.

Music is a great coping mechanism! I hope you find the music helpful. How are you feeling now?

BTW, have you ever tried light therapy to help you? Lots of people on here use light boxes, which, if you're not aware, are designed to combat depression if you have seasonal depression. Just be careful not to overdo it because it can make you manic.

Hang in there! Thursday isn't too far away.