Bipolar check-in #42

BeyondtheRainbow · Jan 31, 2020 at 02:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Daonnachd

On hold w the billing dept of the hospital where I get ECT. They say it looks like my financial assistance lapsed. Stress!

I don't have any answers, just I'm in the same boat. One of my patient assistance meds lapsed without notifying me and there is a whole bunch of crap that they may use to keep me from renewing it. And at $1000/month there is no way I can get the med and it's my AD and the only one that works.

So you have my empathy and I hope it works out soon.

Daonnachd · Jan 31, 2020 at 02:54 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I don't have any answers, just I'm in the same boat. One of my patient assistance meds lapsed without notifying me and there is a whole bunch of crap that they may use to keep me from renewing it. And at $1000/month there is no way I can get the med and it's my AD and the only one that works.

So you have my empathy and I hope it works out soon.

At $1000/month you've got to have assistance. I'll put a word in with the universe for you.

I just got off another call with the hospital's billing department. They've determined things didn't lapse. My approval just got lost in the shuffle. Now we're just looking at the months where we didn't have insurance. Oh, the convolutions.

bpforever1 · Jan 31, 2020 at 03:09 PM

I'm doing well. I just received my shot. It has been effective. My judgment is improving. I feel good about myself. I am planning to leave my current situation. I am happy. Thus, I am looking for jobs and focusing on moving my belongings.

Tucson · Jan 31, 2020 at 03:47 PM

Another day. I begin work in about an hour. My schedule ends today, so I need to get my new schedule for the next couple weeks. I hope this will not be a problem. Tomorrow I do not want to use this as my excuse for not showing up. I need this job to financially make it, to pay my bills, to start paying off my outrageously large debt. I have been going through small episodes of depression. I think this is related to the anxiety of continuing to make mistakes on the job. I am slowly getting better. Yesterday, I forgot to take my meds before work began, This time I hace taken them, so it should be a better day for me. I need to practice my piano! My teacher is interested in continuing my lessons.

Daonnachd · Jan 31, 2020 at 03:49 PM

Please forgive all the posts from me today.
I don't feel depressed, but rather exhausted by this disorder. Is there some explanation for why I'm feeling this way?
At the same time, I got out of bed early to work on my art before anybody else could bother me. More questions. What's driving me?

bpcyclist · Jan 31, 2020 at 04:58 PM

Well, as this day has progressed, I feel like I have been hit by a Mack truck. Seriously down and blue just out on nowhere. Suddenly, hopeless. No idea why. Nothing happened. Wondering if all this new anit-mania and AP stuff I've recently added is finally taking hold of my brain and crushing my soul a bit today. Hopefully, it is just a blip.

All I want to do is get back into bed. But I am going to try to make myself get on the bike and go ride. 61 degrees here today. Maybe that'll make me feel better.

Nammu · Jan 31, 2020 at 05:03 PM

Still got the blues blahs. Not depressed just blah and missing the sun.

Daonnachd · Jan 31, 2020 at 05:04 PM

@bpcyclist, 61º is too cold for my blood but I hope you go for a ride. I nearly always feel better after a ride. Maybe the depression is just that today's the last day of January and we haven't taken over the world.

Moose72 · Jan 31, 2020 at 05:43 PM

I just ordered the book "Electroboy" for 6 bucks total.

Jan 31, 2020 at 05:50 PM

I feel depressed so i tried to cheer myself up by going to the mall. It's cold and dirty out. I took the bus to the mall . . . And turned around and came home. I have no energy. I tell myself that Winter will be over eventually but i don't know if i can stand this. I just want the pain to end.

This is my first Winter on Lamictal and i think we can conclude that it's a resounding failure.

Jan 31, 2020 at 06:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

I just ordered the book "Electroboy" for 6 bucks total.

That book sounds super interesting. I'm interested in knowing how it is.

Unfortunately, I have a "backlog" that I'm trying to get through, so I wouldn't read it right this moment... but I've been meaning to read through some BP memoirs, non-fiction, etc..

06:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

I just ordered the book "Electroboy" for 6 bucks total.

It's a rather fun read. I hope you don't mind some pretty raunchy racy stuff.

My husband and I met Andy Behrman and have a signed copy of his book. He gave a talk at the local psych hospital. His talk was set up by my area DBSA chapter. He signed it:

For MyName & MyHusband's,

Enjoy the Ride!

Best,

Andy

It's definitely been a ride!

Jan 31, 2020 at 06:08 PM

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Originally Posted by whatever2013

I feel depressed so i tried to cheer myself up by going to the mall. It's cold and dirty out. I took the bus to the mall . . . And turned around and came home. I have no energy. I tell myself that Winter will be over eventually but i don't know if i can stand this. I just want the pain to end.

This is my first Winter on Lamictal and i think we can conclude that it's a resounding failure.

Sorry you're not feeing well.

For what it's worth, I think it was great that you put forth the effort to go to the mall, even if you did just turn around. Getting fresh air is healthy and therapeutic.

I hope you're able to find a med that works for you. I can imagine it's incredibly frustrating when you have seasonal depression (or so it sounds like you do).

Jan 31, 2020 at 06:18 PM

Propranolol seems to be working for the restlessness. Now I'm not sure if my restlessness is due to anxiety or akathisia/RLS. I kinda wish I could have tried cogentin. At least if I tried that, I would know for sure if it was akathisia or not (i.e., the rexulti giving me problems) since I can imagine cogentin would not work on anxiety-induced restlessness.

As an aside, I think propranolol's 3-6 hours of half life is way too short. I have a full-time job with meetings always popping up at the last minute, so I can't always take propranolol during the day. I may literally have meetings all day with no break. That's why I have an extended release Ritalin capsule that I take as opposed to taking two Ritalin tablets during work hours.

BeyondtheRainbow · Jan 31, 2020 at 06:21 PM

There is extended release propanolol that you take twice a day. Or at least there was before it was generic.

Blue_Bird · Jan 31, 2020 at 07:40 PM

I'm in the new apartment!!!!

I still have stuff to bring over throughout the next week but I got the keys and am here tonight

yellow_fleurs · Jan 31, 2020 at 07:48 PM

Not sure what is going on, but still cannot get anything done it seems. I wonder if maybe I am a bit depressed. I feel a little apathetic. I was feeling good last month, but even though I am over the hormone issue for this month, I feel wiped out by it. Like, it derailed all my momentum and efforts yet again. I dunno. I luckily got a call and an appointment with the women's mental health clinic for a few weeks from now (they are quite busy). I just don't like how this is all messing with my work and other projects and I don't know what to do about that or how to explain it, without having to discuss my mental health. I also feel like it would sound a bit like an excuse to say I just don't feel up to doing work. However, I am okay overall. I am getting some Thai curry for dinner (should stop eating out, but need a pick me up with some good food).

Nammu · Jan 31, 2020 at 07:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm in the new apartment!!!!

I still have stuff to bring over throughout the next week but I got the keys and am here tonight

That's exciting! You'll be all moved in by February

Sunflower123 · Jan 31, 2020 at 09:39 PM

My anxiety got the better of me and I skipped the meet up. No use beating up on myself. I’ve signed up for 5 in February and will try again.

Wishing everybody a good weekend.

Jan 31, 2020 at 09:46 PM

@Jennifer 1967: I replied to you over on the depression forum too. So sorry you did not make it to the meet-up. I considered a knitting circle this week but i just asked myself if i am really in the mood to meet people and socialize and the answer was NO so i did not go. How about you?

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bpforever1 Magnate Member Since Aug 2017 Location: earth Posts: 2,063 7 1,598 hugs given	Jan 31, 2020 at 03:09 PM #683 I'm doing well. I just received my shot. It has been effective. My judgment is improving. I feel good about myself. I am planning to leave my current situation. I am happy. Thus, I am looking for jobs and focusing on moving my belongings.

Daonnachd Magnate Member Since Feb 2006 Location: Napa Valley Posts: 2,116 18 3,379 hugs given	Jan 31, 2020 at 03:49 PM #685 Please forgive all the posts from me today. I don't feel depressed, but rather exhausted by this disorder. Is there some explanation for why I'm feeling this way? At the same time, I got out of bed early to work on my art before anybody else could bother me. More questions. What's driving me? __________________ ><

Nammu Crone Member Since May 2010 Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system. Posts: 73,959 (SuperPoster!) 14 57.2k hugs given	Jan 31, 2020 at 05:03 PM #687 Still got the blues blahs. Not depressed just blah and missing the sun. __________________ *Nammu* …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann

Daonnachd Magnate Member Since Feb 2006 Location: Napa Valley Posts: 2,116 18 3,379 hugs given	Jan 31, 2020 at 05:04 PM #688 @bpcyclist, 61º is too cold for my blood but I hope you go for a ride. I nearly always feel better after a ride. Maybe the depression is just that today's the last day of January and we haven't taken over the world. __________________ ><

BeyondtheRainbow Wise Elder Member Since Apr 2015 Location: US Posts: 9,659 (SuperPoster!) 9 11.8k hugs given	Jan 31, 2020 at 06:21 PM #695 There is extended release propanolol that you take twice a day. Or at least there was before it was generic. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily

Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Middle Earth Posts: 37,486 (SuperPoster!) 11 15k hugs given	Jan 31, 2020 at 07:40 PM #696 I'm in the new apartment!!!! I still have stuff to bring over throughout the next week but I got the keys and am here tonight __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Sunflower123 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jan 2015 Location: USA Posts: 26,557 (SuperPoster!) 9 95k hugs given	Jan 31, 2020 at 09:39 PM #699 My anxiety got the better of me and I skipped the meet up. No use beating up on myself. I’ve signed up for 5 in February and will try again. Wishing everybody a good weekend.

Anonymous41462 Guest Posts: n/a	Jan 31, 2020 at 09:46 PM #700 @Jennifer 1967: I replied to you over on the depression forum too. So sorry you did not make it to the meet-up. I considered a knitting circle this week but i just asked myself if i am really in the mood to meet people and socialize and the answer was NO so i did not go. How about you?