Bipolar check-in #42

Here's the new check in

I posted the link on the last one and will request the mod closes it. Thanks for starting the new one

I got my disability review papers in the mail today.

I filled it out but I'm incredibly anxious about it.

What if I misread a question? What if I accidentally lied? Etc etc

I know how you feel. I was like that when I applied for disability. I had my mom help me. I'd say just take a breather and trust yourself. Maybe, you could also ask someone you know to help you with a certain question that you're unsure of?

I hope all goes well.

Thanks!!!

I was reviewed last year , it was a simple form but I also was worried I screwed up so I had my husband read it, so I made a copy and mailed it out. I got a response about 6-8 weeks later saying no more info was needed and my benefits will continue.

Try not to overstress, yeah I know how hard that is dealing with ssa

Well all the storms are gone. We had some very hard rain and thunderstorms for a long time... came in waves ,lots of really nasty winds.

The bottom of our long driveway looks like a lake, I feel we will be stuck for a few days. It’s all country roads people just don’t have concrete or asphalt drives, it’s usually churt and gravel.

My dog always gets very scared during storms like this, he have a snug fitting coat , I put that on him it fitting like the Thunder jackets they sell for dogs and it helped but I let him sneak up on the bed next to me until the worse passed , my husband luckily sleeps so deep he didn’t have a clue.

We love and spoil our dogs but we do not let them up on our bed. They have 6 big comfy doggie beds all around the house they can pick from. Plus they each weigh over 60 lbs. they would take over the bed lol

Anyone have any fun plans this weekend?

BirdDancer , how are you holding up ?? Were you able to sleep better last night with out that scary stuff again?!!

No fun plans this weekend. I was supposed to go to a retreat at Church this weekend but we've got kind of bad weather and I don't drive in freezing rain or snow if I can help it. My book club is starting up again this upcoming week so I'm looking forward to that.

I spent time at the library looking up cars. Nissans mostly and found some likely one to check out. I'm looking mostly at nissans and Kia's as consumers magazine says they're reliable cars and affordable. Don't want to do Honda as it's the most stolen car. I really want a red car but there's other things more important than the color. The Best Buy and silver, ugh. Silver and white are hard to see in Minnesota.

Sad. I saw a pic of the kid down the street who was shot & killed Thursday evening. He looked like a sweet guy, 20 years old.


Besides that I'm agonizingly lonely. My husband says he will finally speak with our daughter about her lack of communication with me. I absolutely don't understand her behavior and I truly feel like I'm on the edge of losing my sanity over it.

I’ve been completely exhausted all week. Not sure why as I’ve been getting adequate sleep. Work was rough a couple of days because my student was acting up terribly. He will be leaving at the end of next week and I will be getting the other student in the classroom. He is autistic and perseverates on the negative. He has screaming tantrums too. But I think I will be able to deal with him because he doesn’t scream at people, just screams in general.

It was so nice out today. Sixty eight and sunny. For NJ, that’s unusual in January. We went to the park for about an hour and a half. It was nice being outside.

Tomorrow my son has a birthday party to go to. It’s supposed to be warm again but rainy. So I guess I’ll just sit in the mall (the party is at a virtual gaming place in the mall) with some Starbucks for an hour and a half.

Hopefully I’ll have some more energy next week!

I have a Nissan Altima and hands down the best car I have ever owned new or used. Good gas mileage, Comfortable for long drives, bigger truck than it looks and we need that with our trips. My husband keeps it maintained it’s 180,000 miles right now and still drives like new.. I plan to drive this until the wheels literally fall off and then I will get another Nissan.

Very good cars

So glad you were able to get out to the park .. This weather is so wacky for January lol

Was up for the last week, now I feel I'm coming down. Maybe exercise will help my mood...and some food! I'm getting hungry again and I ate like 2 hours ago! Its getting late too so I've gotta rush workout and then rush eat. Whaaah! Whether or not its bipolar2, I'm feeling moody.

Edit: sorry, cook, then rush workout, then rush eat

Hey everybody! I've been ok tonight. Watched "Single Parents" on hulu - its a nice light sitcom to fall asleep to.

I went to the arts and crafts store with my Mom . We then met up with my dad in Marshalls then we went to lunch ay Denny`s . It was a very nice pleasant day which I am very grateful for because l haven`t been feeling well lately. Today`s little trip to do a bit of shopping and to lunch lifted my spirits a bit.

Oh man, I got so panicked and upset after that last post (issues at home). I worked out and feel better. (Maybe getting angry was the push I needed to get back into heavy workouts. Eh hem) Still, I dunno how to fix things here. I'm very distraught!

Sounds like a wonderful day

Hi Christina. You're so sweet how you so often follow up on us here.

I'm in one of those states of mind where a "How are you?" from many people would bring a response of "I'm OK", but really I am still in a downswing.

I had an awful night sleep last night. One nightmare after another. I've been struggling with guilt, lately. I've been wanting my husband and myself to runaway together.

I'm still feeling down about n2 moving out. She didnt come home last night and she said she would.

Slept quite well last night. The dreams are all in bits and bobs, too hard to put them together again.

Speaking of dreams, I had another Disney dream where the kids were little and we were at Disney World, on a water ride (that doesn't really exist there) and after that we were looking for the bathrooms near there. (Water and bathrooms- I think I had to pee irl!)

My mom came over and helped us make a new budget. Now N3 and I are cleaning/gathering n2's things she's left.

Edit: n2 and boyfriend are here to get the rest of her stuff! And she gave me her steel-toed boots! They fit! Bonus winter boots!

My mom randomly decided we needed to go to Cheddars last night at 8:00 on a stormy night and, boy, am I glad she did. I had the best bourbon glazed salmon, steamed broccoli and baby carrots.

I stayed up until 1:30 watching Pretty Woman and was jolted awake at 3:41 this morning when the cat knocked something off the table so I overslept and missed both church and the healing ceremony.

I was supposed to notarize and overnight a medical form last week and could not get myself to do it. I’ll do it first thing Monday morning but I’m anxious about what the delay could mean. It’s hard when depression causes inaction and utter lack of motivation.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

I'm having an alright day. Nothing special going on.

Aside from that, I can't wait to get a remote starter installed in my car tomorrow!! Going to Best Buy's auto center to get it done. They said the estimated time is 2.5-3 hours, so hopefully they won't run too much later than that.

On the downside of things, I'm conducting interviews all week long. It's going to be a mess. Half of these people are just awful fits for the company. They put a ton of crap on their resume to get the recruiters' attention, but then they can't backup what they wrote. I'm thinking to myself, "do you honestly think you're going to get a job if you lie or exaggerate on your resume? I can tell you're lying based on how you interviewed." I mean, I do give these people some leeway, but like... if you say you know something WELL but you can't answer the most basic questions about it, then you lied. For example, it's like saying you're an accomplished baker and you don't know what "flour" is. Huh???

I think it'd be mean to blacklist people at the company for something as minuscule as this, but at the same time, they are blatant lies. I don't see the purpose of letting them interview again because it's a huge waste of time and resources, but hey, I'm not the recruiting dept, so they can do what they want.