[Crook32]

Symptoms returning at the wrong time. Two more weeks until I change jobs and I feel like I am going back in time to five years ago when I was at my worst. I am getting scared. The suicidal thoughts are getting louder. I am not sleeping well. Anxiety is through the roof. I wish I could flip a switch to hypomania at least then I might be productive.

My boss at work is so petty that she refused to plan a going away lunch or happy hour like they always do. So her next in line stepped up to do it. Been there 20 years and just get kicked out the door. I really didn’t want any going away thing because I am antisocial but now I do just to spite her.

[Crook32]

Getting a ketamine infusions tomorrow. Hope it is better than the last one.

[Crook32]

Going clothes shopping for my new job today. I have body image issues from all the weight I have gained so this will be a real challenge for me. Plus I know nothing about fashion.

[Blissfullyme]

Originally Posted by Crook32

Going clothes shopping for my new job today. I have body image issues from all the weight I have gained so this will be a real challenge for me. Plus I know nothing about fashion.

So forget fashion. Just find outfits that you feel good in. Something that makes you feel confident. Sorry to hear about your boss being an arse. I hope you can enjoy your going away lunch or whatever they do for you. As to the suicidal thoughts been plagued with them too for the past fortnight. The only thing that made them go away is turning back to one of my most unhealthy coping strategies.