[SorryShaped]

My mental state today is unstable and not ok. I've been awake about two hours and felt like crying, cried, excited, happy, angry, paranoid, horny, isolationist, and rebellious. It's like everything is going haywire inside my head and I don't know what I'm doing. I tried to meditate but that turned very dangerously psychotic. I don't know what I'm doing right now. Things keep spinning and focusing and I've lost my self-control. Send me some good energy please. I'm a mess today. Going to try playing Arkham Knight for a while to distract myself. I need but don't have a prn or anything for this. I'm even out of kava. I'm fairly sure this is insanity at its finest.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

My mental state today is unstable and not ok. I've been awake about two hours and felt like crying, cried, excited, happy, angry, paranoid, horny, isolationist, and rebellious. It's like everything is going haywire inside my head and I don't know what I'm doing. I tried to meditate but that turned very dangerously psychotic. I don't know what I'm doing right now. Things keep spinning and focusing and I've lost my self-control. Send me some good energy please. I'm a mess today. Going to try playing Arkham Knight for a while to distract myself. I need but don't have a prn or anything for this. I'm even out of kava. I'm fairly sure this is insanity at its finest.

FWIW, you demonstrate insight well in the face of insanity. I'm happy to send energy towards you finding a way to navigate to a more comfortable state.

[Fuzzybear]

I also think you show insight in the face of “insanity”. I also do not have many (if any) prn meds. I’m sending positive energy

Sending good thoughts your way, SorryShaped!!

Sorry to hear that. Is there any way you can get a PRN? I think you mentioned you just had surgery and may or may not have COVID-19. Just wondering if someone could pick up a PRN for you at the pharmacy if your doctor prescribed one. Or, worst case, have it shipped to your place and it gets there soon. Might not help for the horrible feelings right now, but if things get worse, you'll at least have something for the future.

Sending good vibes your way!