Does anyone else "blackout" after a hypomanic or manic episode? I am apparently getting 16 POUNDS of office supplies today from a company I do not recognize and I remember NONE OF IT.

I didn't even know I bought office supplies, but I had looked up the company and it says they're a wholesaler for office supplies. Uhhhhh....
WHAT?

I do not know the contents of the package. I had only received an email from UPS this morning saying that I am getting a package that has been "delayed."

I found my credit card bill and I looked up the charge from this wholesaler. I definitely paid the bill for it and apparently knew what I was buying (at the time). What the f***? How come I remember NOTHING?

[fern46]

I dissociated a lot when I was manic and psychotic. At one point I was watching myself. Other things I blacked out during and bits and pieces have come back to me as something like a dream triggers the memory. It sucks. Sorry Blue.

Glad I'm not the only one who blacks out. It's certainly frustrating though.

Whatever I bought, I sure hope it's useful. If not, I hope I can return it. But since I know I tend to buy used things and things that are labeled as "Final Sale," I am probably stuck with it.

This is a little off topic, but it is kind of weird how I go through spending sprees and say to myself, "$50? Nahhhh, that's too expensive." Then I proceed to buy $500 worth of little items here and there. It all adds up.

[swimmingly]

Sharing my experiences, I tend to have periods of lost space ( I don't have a more educated way to say it) around my bouts of mania. I'm sorry bluebicycle! Like you said, I hope its very useful or returnable.

[bpcyclist]

I hvae not blacked out, I don't think, but I certainly have forgotten things I have bought.

[Sometimes psychotic]

During my manic psychosis I definitely cannot account for every moment.... I actually had pretty bad memory issues...like I would be infecting a plate of cells and not remember if I had done it or not seconds earlier....I started using checklists.

Thanks everyone.

I found out that I bought 16lbs of Purell hand sanitizer. Yes, eight packages of 33.8oz.

I guess that isn't too bad. The batch expires in 2023. I definitely have time to use it and give it away to family members. My sister definitely wants some, so I will refill 2 of my empty Germ-X bottles with the Purell hand sanitizer I just got. I guess Germ-X and Purell are really popular and always sold out. I know Amazon is not allowing regular people to buy those brands on their site. They're saving them for first responders and hospitals.

[*Beth*]

According to what I've been told I do have black-outs during mania. But then, I have black-outs almost every day, several times per day.

I do know that black-outs are common during manic episodes.

Yes, I have had blackouts related to severe bipolar episodes a number of times. Honestly, I only remember five to six of my 10 psych hospitalizations, or barely bits of the others. I even have no recollection of most of the time that passed severely depressed in Taiwan before they took me to the hospital there. [Maybe just one night when there was a sizable earthquake, which I just stayed in bed during and never got up. I guess I sometimes went to the bathroom.] And though I remember most of my time in Hong Kong and Thailand, I did black out during some key events. For example, I have zero recollection of how I made it back to Bangkok from the island of Koh Samui. I don't recall a boat ride. I don't recall a bus ride. I just remember suddenly "coming to" at a police station there where I reported being pickpocketed of most of my money. The police report was necessary inorder for me to get my American Express traveler's checks replaced (for those here who remember what they were).

I have also experienced fragmentary type dissociative amnesia, which may be about the same thing as bipolar blackouts, but my bipolar ones were more like en bloc style. I differentiate between them only because some happened when I might not have been in severe bipolar episodes. Those, I think, were during a period I had of frequent maladaptive daydreaming. As someone also mentioned, during one I had an out of body experience. Or was that a focal partial seizure? I don't know.

I have also had about five alcohol blackouts. Three of those are horrible to think about, and may have been exacerbated by bipolar episodes. I know I went on a business trip during one, but I did not attend a part of it. I don't remember what city it was in or if I was missed. I do remember being at the bar at a point, likely drinking gin and tonic, and then suddenly walking down the hotel hallway holding the hand of some strange man. I remembered waking up with a hangover of a century. No clue about anything else. I don't remember anything about my return home. Maybe I was manic!

It's possible that some of the injections I received at the hospital caused blackouts. I vaguely remember being dragged to an isolation room, often screaming, several times and given injections. I remember being in there some of the times. I remember a couple of times assuming I had been in there because suddenly I "come to" at 6 pm when my husband visited. He found me sleeping in my down coat in the ward's common area. He told me later that the nurse begged him to help get me into the bed. Apparently, I had freaked out about the room and became out of hand. Another time I remember "coming to" to find that I had my own room on the ward. When I attempted to leave the room, a security staff member followed me around the ward. He was stationed outside my room, sitting in a chair for (some period of time?)