I am so depressed that I can't even cry, so I am wondering if anyone else has had this experience?

All I want to do is sleep all day, but realistically, I have a lot of work to do. I can't be taking days off, especially since this depression may last a long while... because who knows when my med change will kick in...

I am so sorry you're unwell, bluebicycle. Yes, I know how it feels. Actually, during my worst depressions I felt paralyzed. It can be difficult to do anything under those circumstances.

I am unsure if this applies to you, but I also tried hard to be "tough" sometimes, when what I really needed was a release, of sorts.

[swimmingly]

Gosh, have I ever. I've had way more depressive episodes than anything else, which I'm learning is the nature of bp2. Deep and wide, is how I describe my episodes. Sometime over the last five years, I've dried up, and I've become relatively catatonic during my episodes. I just lay there and just feel the emotions.

I wish you quick bounce-back. Be the best kitteh, you know how. We will be here for you no matter what.

[bpcyclist]

I have cried exactly twice in the last 8 years. I am basically not really capable of crying in response to an appropriate crying stilmulus any more. I am sort of numb, I hate to say, but it is true. After everything I have survived, you just cannot really get much of a reaction out of me anymore. I do not like it, but I am also not going to lie about it. Some sort of big-time numbness has settled in upon me, and there doesn't seem to be any change in sight.

I think for me, a certain amount of fear is required in order to cry. But there is only one thing I am afraid of anymore. And that is my own brain.

[Wild Coyote]

Hi Blue,

I am sorry you are having a difficult time.
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I have found, for me, the sense of numbness can be caused by the depression itself and/or, more so by the meds. I believe more often the meds.

I have friend who is quite sensitive and cries easily. She went off of her antiD. Her husband was begging her to go back on it. When I asked him why he wanted her to go back on the med(s), he told me she cries too much without them. Her crying makes him anxious. She told me the meds make her emotionally numb and she feels half-dead emotionally, on them. She had said she cannot cry and cannot even feel normal emotion when on her med(s). (Maybe he would do well to learn to manage his own anxiety? At least a part of the reason she continues meds is to alleviate his anxiety . She is afraid he will leave her if she does not deny her feelings. I am thinking this is probably a rather frequent story, truth be told.)

I hope you feel; better soon, Blue. Much Love to you!

[Moose72]

I remember once back around 2001 I was so depressed that all I could do was lay in bed and stare at the wall. This doesn't happen very often.

[Mountaindewed]

My caseworker when I was a teenager who I was very close to and helped me out so much died of cancer in 2013. Not only didn’t I cry or not show much emotion, but I blocked it from my memory. It like caused such a sudden overwhelming amount of grief and sadness and emotion all at one time that my mind just shut it out and, to this day I go long periods of times, like a year or so, without thinking about her and I’m still emotionless about it.

It is typical of my depressions to rarely actually cry. I can't even muster it.
I hope you get to feeling better soon, blue.

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I am so depressed that I can't even cry, so I am wondering if anyone else has had this experience?

All I want to do is sleep all day, but realistically, I have a lot of work to do. I can't be taking days off, especially since this depression may last a long while... because who knows when my med change will kick in...

yes I've had this experience. I didn't even eat for 3 days (not even something small), and I did a whole lot of staring at the walls

[Fuzzybear]

Hi blue,

I can relate. I’m sorry you’re having a difficult time.

I’m not afraid my husband will leave me if I do not deny my feelings... however I am also quite sensitive and have to deny my feelings to spare my husband’s feelings. Meds and severe depression have also factored into this...(I’m not currently on any AP’s but have been in the past)

Love to all

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hi Blue,

I am sorry you are having a difficult time.
.
I have found, for me, the sense of numbness can be caused by the depression itself and/or, more so by the meds. I believe more often the meds.

I have friend who is quite sensitive and cries easily. She went off of her antiD. Her husband was begging her to go back on it. When I asked him why he wanted her to go back on the med(s), he told me she cries too much without them. Her crying makes him anxious. She told me the meds make her emotionally numb and she feels half-dead emotionally, on them. She had said she cannot cry and cannot even feel normal emotion when on her med(s). (Maybe he would do well to learn to manage his own anxiety? At least a part of the reason she continues meds is to alleviate his anxiety . She is afraid he will leave her if she does not deny her feelings. I am thinking this is probably a rather frequent story, truth be told.)

I hope you feel; better soon, Blue. Much Love to you!

[~Christina]

Yes There are many times I wish I could cry and maybe find some relief that way... But often times ? Nope not a drop will appear

[JourneyUpward]

Hi Blue. Yes, I have experienced depressions so heavy that I couldn't cry or feel anything else. I was numb. I've also experienced depressions that caused me to weep out of the blue for no reason in places I didn't want to be seen crying. I've learned to accept it knowing that it doesn't last forever. Thankfully, with my current meds it rarely happens anymore. I wish you well with your new meds regimen.

[*Beth*]

Oh, yes. Mostly, the energy it takes to cry seems futile since crying doesn't take away depression. Which is foolish thinking, because crying can relieve or change depression.

Something I want to mention is that many psych meds inhibit the ability to cry.