[BeyondtheRainbow]

I think I took a double dose of my meds. Nothing will be harmful; I just should get tired and maybe naueseous. I have no idea what I did; I took my meds in 2 handfuls like usual but realized a few minutes later that Wednesday is empty in my pill box. The only thing I can think of is that I divide my pills into 2 handfuls and I maybe stuff the 2nd handful into Wednesday instead of Tuesday and then took the whole thing. But that would be a HGUE mouthful that I should have noticed.

I'm so confused.....Grief brain strikes again.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I really did it. I remember now having meds with a cookie and then taking something to the basement and coming back up distracted and taking more meds. So stupid. I sent my pdoc an email confessing. So totally accidental but she needs to know.

I am so tired of grief brain.

[*Beth*]

I'm sorry, Rainbow. I hate when I space out like that. Sometimes I think I swallowed a pill and I truly cannot recall whether I did, or not. In past years I didn't have such a problem, but this year it's been pretty bad. I finally do have an am/pm pill box. It helps.

I hope you don't have anything worse than sleepiness.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I finally do have an am/pm pill box. It helps.

I hope you don't have anything worse than sleepiness.

I did use a pill box which makes this even more stupid; I took Tuesday's and then Wednesday's.

For a while after Mark died I just felt numb. I'm feeling more now but this is a shot back to that time. So good things happened today as a surprise from the past from Mark (he arranged several) and maybe that threw me back. And of course grief isn't linear.

I hope I"m awake enough for grief class tomorrow. I reallywant to talk about this.

Surprisingly so far I've not passed out and the 2nd dose has been in my system for an hour. Usually I"m battling to stay awake at this time anyway, much less with a huge dose of clozapine and gabapetin in me. Maybe I'm immune to sedation and sleep when I sleep. I guess I'll learn tonight.

[Nammu]

I’ve done that before. All that happed to me was I slept well.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I did it one other time. That time though I took PM meds in the morning. And I think the morning med was percocet because I'd just had surgery which is also probably why I was confused enough to mess up. I just slept for about 10 hours and was fine. These are different meds but I know that I've been on higher doses or that much higher doses exist.

[buddha1too]

Originally Posted by Nammu

I’ve done that before. All that happed to me was I slept well.

What Nammu shared. Please don't beat yorself up for a simple mistake. You might feel a bit groggy in the morning, but I hope you're able to carry on with your plans fopr the day.

[*Beth*]

Not beating yourself up is a VERY good point. All the meds get confusing! I often wonder why pills aren't made in brighter colors, and a more diverse range of colors? I guess they're not supposed to look like candy, but geez...it would be easier to deal with them if several weren't the same dull blue, white, or dingy pink.

[Mountaindewed]

I’ve accidentally done it several times. The first time I doubled up on my Geodon when I was at my sisters and I didn’t realize it until the next day. But I majorly freaked out.

Now when I accidentally do it I don’t stress about it. Eventually I’ll be able to tell if I’ve missed a dose.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Not beating yourself up is a VERY good point. All the meds get confusing! I often wonder why pills aren't made in brighter colors, and a more diverse range of colors? I guess they're not supposed to look like candy, but geez...it would be easier to deal with them if several weren't the same dull blue, white, or dingy pink.

I'm trying to not be angry at myself but it's hard when it's been several days later and I still feel bad. My body is not happy about the double dose and then re-adjusting to the meds again. My sleep is all messed up and I've been sick from messing with klonopin (I assume since I've been sick like that from missing klonopin before). But it was just a mistake and life goes on.

My meds actually are fairly colorful: green, bright orange, bright blue, peach, pink, yellow but the rest are all white. My magnesium and metformin are nearly identical so I have to be really cautious not to mix those up. I've been fortunate in only mixing up one med a couple times; I just always go for broke with all of them .

[*Beth*]

Oh, yeah, missing a dose (or being late for one) of Klonopin can throw me off for days. It's scary, frankly.


Psych meds are so intense. I hope your body is back on track very soon. I feel for you.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I'm much better today. I slept normally last night and that feels so much better. I'm hoping this is behind me now.

[*Beth*]

Great! I hope so.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I'm much better today. I slept normally last night and that feels so much better. I'm hoping this is behind me now.

Fantastic news

[captaineo]

I m not doing so well, I still cannot see my children since 6 years ago. I am feeling terribly alone and coping with my mothers and sisters illness. I’m lost in this world . My role as a father was stolen from me, all I have built to be a Dad is now gone, my purpose is limited and I do not know what to do. Sometimes I wonder what if I’m not needed in this world anymore...

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by captaineo

I m not doing so well, I still cannot see my children since 6 years ago. I am feeling terribly alone and coping with my mothers and sisters illness. I’m lost in this world . My role as a father was stolen from me, all I have built to be a Dad is now gone, my purpose is limited and I do not know what to do. Sometimes I wonder what if I’m not needed in this world anymore...

Hi Captaineo. I was wanted to suggest starting your own thread. You're welcome to post here but you'll get more responses on a thread of your own.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so alone in the world. Do you have a therapsit to talk to about all your losses?