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Legendary Wise Elder
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#701
Well the realtors got back to us today and on Friday we are going to the town I’m moving to to meet with the realtor there and then see houses on Saturday. I am really nervous about staying in a hotel. I told my mom I’d like my own room and I’d pay her back because it will be easier on my brother and both of their snorings in hotels often cause me to end up sleeping on the bathroom floor. Which is gross even without Covid. But at least I’ll get to wear a pair of the shoes I got today. I am glad things are going faster now. We are having someone come in and deep clean and we should have the house on the market in a couple weeks.
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#702
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#703
I'm spinning. I learned today (at 5 am) that in June my son will be applying for grad/law school 4 hrs away. Grad school online was the plan originally. I'm nauseous. Not that I thought he was going to live here forever but up until now he was going to stay in our city, move into the park my family stays at and work at the library until he sets up his own business with his friends. New college legislation made it so he wants a JD. He plans to still come back and set up his own business but 4 years away he won't want to come back. AND the DEBT I'm trying to be supportive but I want to be like "NO!". I still have a year and couple months with him but this news shocked me. Part of me wants to be like so we're moving to X. Ones he moves he can't move back home. This is all still very early and may not happen but it has really thrown me. I thought I had 3 years left not 1. I'm trying to tell myself this isn't happening tomorrow. It's one thing to have him 15 min away another to be to far for our car to travel. Like I said I've been spinning and researching all day.
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Location: Czechia
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#704
Our landlady and her husband came to visit this morning, officially to give us a form we asked her to fill out, but surely they were curious about the house. It is nicely kept (and updated) so they were happy. As I often do, I had a rush of anxiety that made me sweat. I had to excuse myself twice to literally cool and wipe off my forehead in the bathroom. The stupid face mask, and the hot coffee we offered, worsened the situation. However, also as usual, I did eventually calm and stop sweating. In the end, the visit was quite pleasant. She and her husband are very nice. Perhaps the next time the sweating won't occur.
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Monster on the Hill
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#705
Well yesterday sucked. New day today. Can't wait to fail my AIMS test next week. My summer job employers definitely don't want me back this summer because I ****ing got sick last year and the year before that. This twitching is really bothering me.
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#706
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Been there many times and it is rough. For ten years after my kids left for university (my son went directly to Italy for a year of univ there, then to Paris for a year of univ) I thought I was going to die from grief. I wish I had some wise words of condolence. All I can say is that you will make it through, have a support system in place, and time really does help...somewhat. It sucks that they grow up. __________________ Last edited by *Beth*; Mar 04, 2021 at 03:28 PM.. |
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#707
I feel like my soul is bruised these days.
My pdoc has referred me to a neurologist. Honestly, I'm not exactly sure why. I think she wants me to get checked out for a movement disorder. I have such a bad tremor and body shaking. She says there could be medication to help it that she's not aware of. I don't mind going to the neuro, but in my experience most of them are jerks. __________________ |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#708
We got pushed back because of the bank. So we’re going next weekend or week to look at houses. I am hoping to go midweek like Thursday or something because of the crowds. Today I am doing well though and my anxiety isn’t bad like it was yesterday. I did go out to the stores with no issues unlike yesterday. I’m hoping to be more consistently stable next week with my anxiety when I’m done with my PMS.
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#709
I looked up the address for the new dentist and its just down the street from me! I located it on a map but haven't tried walking or driving there yet. My appointment is in a week. Its near dollar tree and save a lot which is behind the old big boy.
Plus, I wrote a grocery list but I don't feel like going right now. I have enough for several more days, I'm just thinking ahead. Also I paid my bills including my visa which was not cheap because I bought that expensive car battery last month. Ugh. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) Last edited by Moose72; Mar 04, 2021 at 03:35 PM.. |
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#710
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The hair salon I go to is within walking distance. I love being able to walk to a store or service. The only thing with the dentist is that you might not feel like walking afterward. __________________ |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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Location: USA
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#711
I have a vaccine appointment Tuesday. I need to go by my doctor’s office for a note stating that I’m eligible due to a health condition. My brother is the one in the family that really needs the shot and he decided not to get it. Smh.
I feel defeated and hopeless today. I think it’s situational. I’ve invested blood, sweat and tears in a lot of inner and outer work over these past few years and while my family and friends see significant progress...I don’t. When will it be enough? I just want to be happy and stable. I keep working towards that and never quite reach it. My life is not going to change and I need to accept that. I don’t know that I can. Thanks for listening. It helps to type it out. Wishing everyone a peaceful day. |
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Silver Swan
Member Since Jan 2008
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#712
True! I'm not getting any fillings this time because its just a check up but I could have to come back this is true. I think I'll drive anyway so as to not be late as I don't know how long it will take to walk there. Half an hour is my guesstimate. Drive is 10 minutes from walking out my door (putting on shoes) and driving there.
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Poohbah
Member Since May 2018
Location: Toronto, Canada
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#713
It was my birthday yesterday.
One great thug about the pandemic is that my whole family is together and we all celebrated yesterday. My kids got me a nice card and a present I wasn't expecting at all. My wife gave me a nice card. We all went out for dinner and enjoyed a nice meal with a bottle of wine. I'm so grateful that I have this time with my kids. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2016
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#714
I remember in 2018-2019 I’d work a shift at work or have an in person therapy session and then go on a small vacation right after that. Often going straight from work to the lake for a few days. Those were good times. I think I’ll be able to make my lake trip safely this summer. And my other one which will be in October should be ok too. But it’s been a weird year and I haven’t actually missed anything until now. I’ve just been so super focused on staying healthy and having my family stay healthy. Now that things are getting better I hope my somewhat old life will come back with work, in person therapy sessions, and trips. Even though I’ll be in a new house and a new job and with my new therapist. I hope things work out.
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#715
I can't comment on any progress you've made, but I've noted your posts over time. You're consistently one of the most kind & supportive people on these boards. Thank you. I value you...even if you don't value yourself at the moment.
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Poohbah
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#716
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I knew he would leave some day but I wasn't expecting it so soon and so far. It was a tough time for me because I missed him so much. I coped by staying in touch by WhatsApp, doing video calls and sending him letters once in a while. He made it a point to come visit for holidays and birthdays, even mother's and father's day, and that helped me a lot. He moved to California about a year ago so he was closer but still far away - it's a 6 hour flight. But he visited when he could which was always nice because it was closer so he sometimes visited for a long weekend. A couple of months after the pandemic started he gave up his place in California and came back home to live with us. I have been so happy that he's here now but I know he will go back so I'm making the best of the time I have with him. I know it's a shock for you MM and I won't say it is easy to let your child go, but there are ways to cope. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#717
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Crone
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#718
Happy Birthday Scooter
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Wise Elder
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#719
happy birthday Scooter!
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Silver Swan
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#720
Happy bday scooter!
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