[Soupe du jour]

Seems like lots here are experiencing quite understandable feelings. Nothing wrong about that, but I know it can be a bit of a challenge. Gina_re, mental health days are just mandatory sometimes. I can't even remember the large number I took over the years. My sister needed so many that she'd even forgo long vacations to have shorter work weeks, often.

Not too much happened to me today. Hubby was down, but I managed to get him excited about a pleasant project. I knew that once he started it he'd get into it. I told him that he need not do the whole thing, but just "plan it". Inevitably, once he started that (with me helping), he did a lot more than just planning. Beyond that, I made a cinnamon banana clafouti for the first time. I've made many clafoutis, but never with banana. My household is one that often has too many bananas left to eat, so gathering as many recipes that are not banana bread or banana muffins is good. Not that I don't like banana bread/muffins. It ended up tasting good.

[Moose72]

kids playing Lego Starwars video game!

They were 5, 7 and 9 I'm guessing. "You're going the WRONG DIRECTION!"

Been uploading old videos and watching retro Walt Disney World videos on YouTube. Fun!

[Victoria'smom]

I'm not doing well but I'm trying. I'm isolating from everyone , crying randomly and other stuff.

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by gina_re

I called out today. I just don't feel like being around people today and putting on a fake smile.

Extra hugs.

I hear you. I could use some of those mental health days myself lately. This has been my favorite job ever. Till the scapegoating and singling out started building up. I'm too often being made to feel like the village idiot over things I've never (or seldom) encountered or things that EVERYONE else does (like, yanno, the occasional human error). Top it off with a coworker half my age who talks snappy at me way too often. It's gotten too the point I'm afraid to ask questions. Hell, even speak.

It's a micro company, so no HR. Getting jobs is very difficult for me. I really don't know what to do. My BF says I should just speak up, but it's very "family like", and I suspect it would not improve anything.

(Sorry, had to vent)

[Mountaindewed]

I just took a generic unisom. Strictly for sleeping. I only took one. The melatonin didn’t work anymore, the cough syrup was plain dangerous, and the Benadryl worked but made me hungry and drowsy the next day. The white noise I was using worked ok but I was still waking up in the middle of the night. Several years ago I had a generic non melatonin sleeping med and it was great. I’ll see how this one works.

Edit: half an hour later: now I have a headache and I’m really sick to my stomach. Not sure of this is a reaction or not. I did have 2.5 of Xanax today.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I just took a generic unisom. Strictly for sleeping. I only took one. The melatonin didn’t work anymore, the cough syrup was plain dangerous, and the Benadryl worked but made me hungry and drowsy the next day. The white noise I was using worked ok but I was still waking up in the middle of the night. Several years ago I had a generic non melatonin sleeping med and it was great. I’ll see how this one works.

Unisom is an old otc med, it's been around like forever. Let us know if it works. What's the main ingredient?

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Unisom is an old otc med, it's been around like forever. Let us know if it works. What's the main ingredient?

I don’t know. It starts with a D. And it’s a long name.

I’m pretty sure if this were a month ago I’d be sent IP for this. It may be considered a risky behavior. Kinda like when things changed in 2015 I started drinking coffee because I would have been terminated if I was drinking it before 2015.

[gina_re]

Well he called and apologized. But we also agreed to limit how much we talk to each other for right now, for specific reasons. I still slept most of the day, I'm just now getting up for dinner when I should be getting ready for bed.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I don’t know. It starts with a D. And it’s a long name.

I’m pretty sure if this were a month ago I’d be sent IP for this. It may be considered a risky behavior. Kinda like when things changed in 2015 I started drinking coffee because I would have been terminated if I was drinking it before 2015.

I looked it up, and Unisom is diphenhydramine. Same as Benadryl, ZzzQuil.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I looked it up, and Unisom is diphenhydramine. Same as Benadryl, ZzzQuil. So I don't know why, but even though the active ingredient is the same in all of them they seem to have different effects.

Different doses? I don't know, I stay away from it because we found out the very hard way IP that Benadryl etc makes me hypo bordering on manic. Very bad drug for me.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Different doses? I don't know, I stay away from it because we found out the very hard way IP that Benadryl etc makes me hypo bordering on manic. Very bad drug for me.

It's weird, they all come out to be the same dose amount. Some years ago I had a bad reaction to Benadryl (got WIRED)- I won't touch that stuff again. Yet, ZzzQuil almost always helps me sleep.

I really made an effort with this day. It was nice out and Monday is a good day for solo dining so i took myself out for lunch. But i just don't like eating outside, it doesn't seem healthy and clean to me. Cars where whizzing by. I guess i have to find a nicer patio?

After i sat in a park to try and enjoy the sunshine and people-watch and look at the cute and silly dogs. But that didn't make me happy either and i dragged myself home and have been binge-watching ever since which i hate to do on such a beautiful day.

It was my first night on 14mg of Valium but i slept well. Still waiting for the hospital's weight loss management clinic to call me for an assessment. I doubt they'll take me with my bipolar and my age.

I had a conflict with someone yesterday and while i don't regret what i said i still have a heavy heart about it. I also sent in an email to my support group asking for clarification of their peer-to-peer support service.

Why can't we all just get along and love each other?

Hugs to all!

[Soupe du jour]

I slept well last night. I didn't wake up with lower back pain, but did with slight shoulder pain again, though mild. Maybe I'm finally mastering how to deal with my firm mattress.

Yesterday, I encouraged Hubby to start planning where he'll hang some art in his office. We picked out the pieces and locations. He had been quite down, mood-wise, and I knew that project would life his spirits. He struggled a little with one wall, but hung his first two. It's amazing what a difference it made. Institutional-looking room to the start of an art gallery! At night, he put on a certain lamp for the first time. It was right next to the wall with the newly hung art. Suddenly I noticed something quite strange on the white walls around them. "What is that? It looks like a leaf...and branch!" I then showed Hubby what I saw. I then looked a little to the left and saw A GIRAFFE. OMG! We have a hidden jungle on the one wall! I guess it used to be a kids room that had a jungle scene painted on it. They painted over that with white paint. It hadn't been visible at all (for all these weeks) with just the ceiling light on. Just with the one lamp next to that wall. Hubby says he doesn't mind. It doesn't affect the look that much, but I was laughing awhile, afterwards, especially since one painting there is a religious one, and the other my mother-in-law.

[Mountaindewed]

I slept through the night. But I was so nauseated I was having dreams about my nausea. Now I just feel absolutely sick and very anxious. These side effects never happened with melatonin, cough syrup, or Benadryl.

[buddha1too]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I really made an effort with this day. It was nice out and Monday is a good day for solo dining so i took myself out for lunch. But i just don't like eating outside, it doesn't seem healthy and clean to me. Cars where whizzing by. I guess i have to find a nicer patio?

After i sat in a park to try and enjoy the sunshine and people-watch and look at the cute and silly dogs.

While I know you're not having luck yet, you should be proud of yourself for making efforts to get out & about ("aboot" in Canadian! ). It seems you & your dog do that on a fairly consistent basis. Add to the above the peer-to-peer work you're doing, & you're doing a lot to stay mentally well. It's easy to sit around doing nothing when one is feeling unwell; you're avoiding that trap.

[buddha1too]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I slept through the night. But I was so nauseated I was having dreams about my nausea. Now I just feel absolutely sick and very anxious. These side effects never happened with melatonin, cough syrup, or Benadryl.

It seems you do an awful lot of self-medication & self-diagnosis. You change your med dosages without consulting pdocs, slam caffine, kombucha, etc. & then wonder why you don't get uniform results where your moods & sleep are concerned. I know you're going through a lot of upheaval in your life; I hope you find peace soon. Perhaps paying closer attention to the things you put into your body will help you achieve that peace. Just a thought...

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by buddha1too

It seems you do an awful lot of self-medication & self-diagnosis. You change your med dosages without consulting pdocs, slam caffine, kombucha, etc. & then wonder why you don't get uniform results where your moods & sleep are concerned. I know you're going through a lot of upheaval in your life; I hope you find peace soon. Perhaps paying closer attention to the things you put into your body will help you achieve that peace. Just a thought...

I agree with this and think that in any way promoting self medication for bipolar, or sleep issues, with OTC medications is a bad influence. For those who want to use them, I think psychiatrist approval should be had. I also think that changing doses of prescribed medications, willy-nilly, unless prescribed as a prn, does no good. This is especially true when it comes to adapting to a medication, getting past side effects, and keeping a psychiatrist informed on what a true mood and sleep situation (and medication regime) is. Most psychiatrists put up with that to some degree, but have breaking points, at which time they may choose to end the patient-doctor relationship. Therapists can have their breaking points, too. It can really be no different than drug addiction habits. I know about them well and can write that I only found lasting stability when I stopped that once and for all.

[buddha1too]

I got my first dose of the Moderna vaccine yesterday morning. Other than a bit of soreness at the injection site, I've felt no ill effects. April 19 will be injection #2; a few weeks after that, I should be good to go. I still plan on masking-up in appropriate situations, however; not so much for my own good as for the unvaccinated. There's been so much selfish politicization surrounding the pandemic. Kind of turns my stomach...

Today is my best friend's birthday. I'm going to pick up a pizza & we'll eat outside at his place since the temps are OK. Two years ago, my friend's wife passed away suddenly...gone in an instant. He still hasn't gotten over it -- the dude has lifted weights for decades & is as strong as an ox, but his emotions are still raw & he cries easily. When something like that happens to someone you're close to it makes you aware of how important the relationships in our lives are. It also makes me afriad of losing my partner. I would be lost without her.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by buddha1too

It seems you do an awful lot of self-medication & self-diagnosis. You change your med dosages without consulting pdocs, slam caffine, kombucha, etc. & then wonder why you don't get uniform results where your moods & sleep are concerned. I know you're going through a lot of upheaval in your life; I hope you find peace soon. Perhaps paying closer attention to the things you put into your body will help you achieve that peace. Just a thought...

I know I have an issue with medication. I’m trying to get things under control. I think (at least I hope) once I move things will be easier. It’s just all very stressful right now and I’m so tired emotionally and physically from everything that’s going on.

[Mountaindewed]

This post is not related to anything. This is just my own post. So no need for anyone to jump down my throat. I post on the mega threads on PC for myself so I can remember in a few months what was going on at this time. I don’t post really for anyones feedback.

But I’m doing ok today. I’m lying in bed but my anxiety isn’t out of control. I’m just a bit down in the dumps related to the move. It should be listed anytime now.

I ordered a bunch of stuff online several days ago and it’s taking awhile to even get an estimated delivery date. Zumiez and Hot Topic can be annoying for online shopping. I also ordered something from Amazon that I’m surprised isn’t here yet.